Saturday, November 05, 2005 • 11:17:00 PM
yea...i've either got brain damage or just plain mad. serious. i get angry and sad easily. maybe i'm depressed. gosh! any doctor, check my brain pls. i'm going crazy!
just now went my cousin hse. yea. actually went out cuz wanna visit my granny but she is nt at hm so instead went to
Jo's hse for his bdae party. his bdae is todae. haha! same like xiaoqiao. yea xiaoqiao as in 7F. opp of mine. the day and mth.
so happie bdae to Johari. happie 18th bdae!!! sorrie just now didn't get to wish u.ok thn went to
Fariz's hse @ AMK and
Aldy's @ admiralty. verrie close to mine. just take 962 and a few bustop. tada! and tml the rest coming to my hse. don tok abt ang-pao lah. in a few yrs time, i wont be getting i guess cuz i'm old already.
sianz...tis yr's hari raya nt tat happie. first time feeling so low. *sigh*
i wanna change my skin but verrie lazy. and tis skin nice cuz it's black and hot pink. maybe next wk or something.
wanna study for law, ect, bsi, building materials...blah3x. but nah! the mood nt thr. and behind mie, my dad is teaching tat monkey maths. her hw and also for her exam tis mon. maybe cuz of tat idiot fucking exam tats y my fam nt so celebrating it. stoopid sch!!! argh!
sheesh. so sianz. downloading wzbqw epi 22. watched until epi20. maybe later whn tat monkey sleep liao i go watch. cannot lah. if she's here, thn die le. she'll start fucking whining! hate her voice.
even rite now, she's trying to act all sleepy. but trust mie, once my dad gives her the green light to stop studying, she'll become all energetic.
haiz. maybe my mum sick of mie liao. usually if tat monkey studying or something, she'll nag for mie to stop. but nt todae. well, she's sleeping but still she didn't sae anything. haiz. even just now whn we went out, she didn't tok much. maybe she's sick of mie sulking.
hate myself. why can't i be happie? why can't i just stop sulking? i hate myself. why am i so lazy? c rite now hv to re-test ect. i hate myself.
just go and die lah. hate myself. hate my life. well, no. my life nothing is wrong. but it's me. myself. myself i tell ya. just y am i like tis?
wif friends and even fam i don tok to them tat much. i become so socially outcast. so out. i don tok to them. i tried to tok to them. but don noe. i'm shy? am i shy? i don tink so. just acting cool? sheesh!
hate myself. serious. period.
maybe tats y i always sulk wif my fam. cuz i hate myself. and whn i hate myself, everyone i also hate. i hate msyelf.
ppl see mie as goody-two-shoe. for godsake. no! i'm not.
i just hate myself. i tell u:
I HATE RUZAINA OF SINGAPORE POLY WHO'S IN THE COURSE OF PROPERTY DEVELOPMENT AND FACILITIES MANAGEMENT, DPFM/FT/1A/22, 05/06. Thank You
