Ruzaina
21 and FOREVER 18
Working + Slacking

You build me up
Crime Novels (eg. Micheal Connelly, Paul Johnston, J.D. Robb)
Shopping & Never Drops
HUGE Stuffed Toys
N5800
Asus K401N
Listening Ghost Stories
Watching Scary/Gory Shows While Closing Eyes
Black/Hot Pink/Purple/Brown
Mocha

You break me down
Princesses
Self-Centered
Sore Losers
Lies
Ignored
Interrupted
Scolded
Pests
Ya-ya PapayaS
K-POsss!

Ain't got no money in ma pocket
Coach Wristlet
THAT C & K Wallet
Blue Label Burberry Black with Pink Stripes Hobo
Ipod Nano (Pink/Green/Blue/Orange)
Micheal Connelly's Harry Bosch Whole Collection
Unlimited Money




Xinyi
Flora
Khalisah
Sarah
Nadia
Adillah
Widad
Helen
Hafiz
Dharina
Shuling
Suharti
Iswan
Joelyn
Farhana
Karim
Hazmi
Izzat
Yanling
Fariz
Saidah
Kak Yati
Filzah
Frana


•August 2005
•September 2005
•October 2005
•November 2005
•December 2005
•January 2006
•February 2006
•March 2006
•April 2006
•May 2006
•June 2006
•July 2006
•August 2006
•September 2006
•October 2006
•November 2006
•December 2006
•January 2007
•February 2007
•March 2007
•April 2007
•May 2007
•June 2007
•July 2007
•August 2007
•September 2007
•October 2007
•November 2007
•December 2007
•January 2008
•February 2008
•March 2008
•April 2008
•May 2008
•June 2008
•July 2008
•August 2008
•September 2008
•October 2008
•November 2008
•December 2008
•January 2009
•February 2009
•March 2009
•April 2009
•May 2009
•June 2009
•July 2009
•August 2009
•September 2009
•October 2009
•November 2009
•December 2009
•January 2010
•February 2010
•March 2010
•April 2010
•May 2010
•June 2010

*sigh* my parents wanna watch tis countdown show on suria. haiz...thn cant watch hollow man. so tink im mapling for sometime. wanna lvl up! *lol*

so any maplers out thr, kindly play and tok to mie...*lol*

Thank You

yay!!! haha...welcoming the new year! *lol* and im going to be a gd ger and sleep early. well, at least, nt mapling till the wee hrs. gonna get ready for sch! *lol* now im mapling until 10pm. wanna watch Hollow Man. haha! so long nv watch tat show. haha!!!

aniwae...wanna wish u ppl out thr A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! i noe still early but im nt gonna be online later. so HAPPY NEW YEAR to u ppl!!!

a few more hours to go...la la la la la...

Thank You

haha! yea. todae marks the LAST DAY of the year 2005. actually, i don quite feel aniting abt it. but as compared to the last dae in 2004, this feeling more impact lah! hhaha! maybe cuz im not working and can tink of this thingy. yea. thrs nothing much in my mind now so its like inevitable tat this so called event comes to mind.

all right now. i guess, i had made my resolution. ALOT...i noe but yea. tats my resolution for 2006. i must make sure i complete those in 2006. yes. i MUST! i must make sure...

tml my fam going out again. most prob to IMM. *sigh* as usual cuz tats the only place large enough for our transport to fit in. gosh! and eating place? haha...most prob, west coast, beach road or wherever lah. *sigh* nothing new though. but who noes? haha!!!

*dreamily* ill meet someone out thr. a friend or more thn tat. or maybe, my pri sch friends and this time, they recognise me. yea or whoever lah. someone tat makes me happy. yea. for the yr 2006. makes a huge impact in my life. haha. *snaps back to reality* ok wadever!

haiz...mapling as usual. yea. i wanna lvl up to 40 b4 sch reopens but i tink kinda impossible. firstly, the exp points too high liao. cant make it in time. secondly, don tink i can stay thruout the wee hrs again. schs opening liao. and if im nt wrong, got ICA le. abt computer stuffs. sheesh! speaking of which, told Ira, Xinyi and Yanling liao. hope they wont get angry wif me or something. haha. last min mah!

haiz im waiting for tat MPH warehouse sale/ i wanna buy novels. though i still hv 3 novels haven read yet frm the June sale. *lol* but no $$$! i guess, next yr ba...

ok. haiz...read thru my wishlist, seems like i wan lotz of bags. haha! i wan new jeans, tops. yea. but $$$ problem. unless any kind souls out thr...YEA RITE!

my ect etuffs doing it next wk. cant be bothered to do. haha! let me enjoy my hols to the fullest! *lol* and the IT too. haha! i see the qns liao, laugh sia! wth?! serious! im no IT student. imstruggling here wif all the comp stuffs. only noe how to use. ok wadever tat means.

all do whn sch reopens. heck care lah! and to tink i wanna be hardworking. *lol* BULLSHIT!!! but its nt yet 2006 mah!!!

ok back to mapling le...

tata.

Thank You

yea like my title said, im working on my 2006 resolution. haha!! spent like 10mins working on my wants, in my profile. and another 5 mins on my resolution. for now, thats all i hv. well, i still hv like...2 days rite? haha! who noes, while im sleeping, all my ideas appear! *lol* yea. thrs whr sometimes, i get them.

all right now. i wanna maple but kinda like tired le. as in, im kinda sick of it liao. every morning, up 50% and stuffs till whr i am now. a pathetic less-thn-40. yep. haha! Setay who started MONTHS after me already overtook me by 9 lvls!!! *sigh*

nothing much happen todae. same old boring life. *sigh* and schs startin soon and hv not yet do my e-learning. er..those hand-written ones. yea. and also study the ICA crapz. its on the 1st wk.

oh SHIT!!! i tink i better email Ira, Xinyi and Yanling abt that frontpage exam. er...me myself nt sure when. 1st or 2nd wk. but to be safe...yea. better do it NOW!!!

tata.

Thank You

yea..sry ppl. my last post was kinda stressed-up. well, of course i still feel sad tat i made someone sad and angry and disappointed and all the low-feelings. yea...

3 more days to 2006. still hv not yet come up wif resolutions. i noe. i tink tis the 1st time im making a new year resolutions. well, whn was reallie young, did one but don noe wad the hell happen to it. so maybe, next yr ill start one. yea. the 18th yr of my life. everything starts. a brand new year. i wanna start my serious life next yr.

yea serious. wad do i mean by serious? *lol* im gonna grow next yr. i don wanna whine and complain and all. i wanna be mature. yea i guess im nt. i don tink im mature yet. my 17th year like nothing. though i learned new things. relationships wif ppl. family, frends...outsiders. yea. i learned abt relationships. nt necessarily (is tat how u spell it?!) bgr. just norm relationships. yea learned lots of it.

ok im getting emo here but nt enough lah. i wanna reflect wad happen to me this yr. i wanna reflect wadever happen to me in my past years. but nt today. nt today. tml maybe. fridae or even sat. i don noe. but its gonna be in 2005. and my resolutions. yep. my resolutions. *sigh*

all right now. my day, wad happen todae? woke up like which MADAM! 4++pm! omg!!! yea. im a freak now. ever since october. *sigh* thn waited for my sis to get ready. she wanna buy black ring file. for her sch. all last min. yea. ppl. and she had to do 2 sets of these...er...binders? or wadever shit tat is called. dividers! yea...each set got 12 so altogether 24! own-self u noe. and my mum told me to help. like duh! all right. and i found a simple way out. go buy and follow the shape. yea. bought it just now wif the ring file.

lol. we set out b4 6pm. walked to 888. i bought stamp cuz i wanna send in this new paper contest thingy. win walkman hp!!! yea! i wan!!! hope i win!!! i wanna win!!!

so bought stamp. thn go to the bkshop. don hv. onie the divider. thn go ntuc. like got like tat. lol! of course not. thn walked to admiralty. searched for tat post box thingy. we went round and round. cant find. gosh! or am i just blind?! but nvm. thn go systhesis. don hv teh file. so we bought kfc for dinner. just the two of us. for the two of us. and it was like 7pm! so walked to vista!!! haha! crazy. yea. crazy!

got the file and i posted. yea. thn walked back hm. saw my dad at the bustop. haha! pretended to hide behind the newspaper eh?! *lol* fat chance.

thn told my dad and he went like...R U CRAZY?! thn my mum too. and same reaction. well, ive walked frm civic to vista to cwp to hm. and frm cwp to hm. *lol* i noe. crazy. haha! exercise mah and not wasting $$$. *lol*

all right now. mapling now...i wanna lvl up! im so slow. and my cousin, i tink hes mad at me. *lol*

Thank You

gosh! i didnt noe tat i hurt one of my best frend so badly. i mean yea...read her blog and it was like so...so...am i tat bad?!

well, first of all, sry to u. nt tat i don wanna invite u. but i myself don noe mah. i tot its just the few of us. its nt like the whole ppl were invited so tats y i didnt sae anything to u. and like u mentioned, u were nt tat close to some of them. kalau boleh invite everyone, dah dulu2x i ask u to go. mcm yg buke puasa gitu. thn jln raye also. so reallie sry if u reallie feel tat way.

ok now. didnt do aniting todae cept go cwp wif my sis. redeem my mums frend cake. ok just now, my mum kinda started her crap again but an hr later, nah. nothing i guess. fine!!! everyones mad at me. yea my mum. she started her crap cuz of something i said abt my sis. yea fine!

scold me ppl! im immune to it. everything my fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im a jinx. im nothing. im nothing ok?! its better tat im gone. yea im mad. thrs something wrong wif me.

thr is something wrong wif me.

Thank You

all right now. i hate myself. i write things too detailed liao. its a good thing to those who reallie wnna noe wads going on and a bad thing for me. cuz my hands are tired!

aniwae stopped at the meal rite? yea...and an ex-schmate was thr cuz tis ger went over to us after giving the cutlery and asking us whther we r from WRSS. gosh! and i tink i noe the guy...someone frm npcc i guess. but forgot his name though Setay had mentioned him lotz of times. nah! just mentioning cuz of his hair and stuffs. *lol* shd be tat guy lah! But Azura knew him frm pri sch and we made fun of her!

and thn after eating, oh btw, we were practically disturbing the other customers as they came in and eat. *lol* i tink the staffs thr wouldnt wan us to go thr again. haha!!!

thn bought cotton candy from pasar mlm thr. its was nt yet night though. *lol* and shared. and we took mrt. haha! so full wif ppl coming hm frm work and we were making a HUGE din in thr. we took photos and laughed and wadever rubbish haha...somehow i could hear some ppl saying we r noisy and stuffs. well, like a lady earlier said...we r young once. shd enjoy! haha! tat was whn we were on our way to amk at the station. haha!

and we took photos and...hmm...whr did we go again?! er...reached cwp. tot wanna hang out at mac thr but its full! so went to civic mac. and Liy cant get to sit cuz thrs onie 4 chairs. so went to the cafe at lib. but me and Liy stopped to buy some earrings. and the rest groaned! *lol* i bought 2. she bought tis black beads ring and a earring. a pair of it. haha! ciz its like 3 for $5. the ring was $5 though. haha. yea bought the earrings. bought something colouful. those dangling ones. wearing it to sch. don care lah! matching or not. cant find nice studs mah?! *lol* call the fashion police!!!!

so we hunt out at the cafe. and me and Liy was told tat Dad got a new bf. *lol* more like a stoopid crush on some stoopid poster guy! she took pix wif it too. haha! and ate wedges and drank tis cranberry or wadever flavour it was! yea...and tok and more pix! *lol* Azura still haven send yet! hrmph. well, if onie my hp got bluetooth. so can be like Azura and Shar who just send the photos rite thr and thn. haiz...

thn went out of civic and still take more pix. haha! lotz of kissing this time. haha!!! thn Liy went first cuz she needs to go hm early. something to do wif her fam or her report.

sry yar! cant go hm wif u. thn u had to walk alone.

and rest of us go cwp. I need to redeem a cake for my mum and her frend so Dad went 1st. thn go wan to redeem but tat guys said no walnut cake. so my mums frend cant get. and my mum? we can choose, banana, marble or chocolate. but all gone cept for banana. well, i ate it...its ok lah! the bottom part got the banana. so haha! can make it lah.

thn go cold storage. Azura wanted to buy popiah skin. thn go hm. Shar went off first cuz her hse on the other side of cwp. and me and Azura took 912. decided to pei her take 912 and also cuz i wanna go Mamak shop to buy drink. suddenly felt so thirsty! and blah3x.

hmm...and just two days ago, went chalet wif my fam. yea..had okay fun. haha! didnt sleep so yester got hm, slept like PIGS!!! haha! reallie. everyone too tired le. if nt i overnite thr alone but...my dad lah!

three of my cousins brought their partners. the bdae boy, and two others. all right. so we r gonna hv in-laws soon. don noe lah. maybe nt. i don noe abt all these dating games. haha!!! aniwae, wish them all the best. but of course, me and my another cousin hung out wif the bdae boy one cuz she was staying mah. and shes the same age as me. i older by...er...abt 7 mths. haha! yea...we stayed at the toi and tok abt the passer-bys. and coincidentally, all three of us wore BLACK! *lol* charlies angel. haha!!! and it rained...tats y we stayed at toi for like close to an hr! haha! making fun at ppl and stuffs.

and it rained even after we went hm. went into the sea and got lotz of jellyfishes! white transparent ones of course! she got touched by it and her arm itched. i don noe...my arm also but its ok now. maybe somethine else. and b4 tat, after we got frm the toi, we three stayed in one tent and whn it rained heavily, the whole base was wet! and the rest made fun! haha!!! tat we pee thr. haha...well, my cousin said we r in an hamster cage cuz thr r newspapers below and tats whr it is to hold the shits and pee. *lol* all right now...

yea yea...blah3x. and guess wad?!

lucky my luck good. of nt no more hp for me! whn i went into the water, my hp was in my pocket. and wallet and money and earpiece!!! i was in tat situation b4! and wearing the same pants somemore!!! lucky my uncle asked. if nt, DIE!!! i was worried sick thruout! but my wallet and money and earpiece i heck care le. my earpiece i tink spoilt or something cuz cant used. but nvm. nt like i use it tat often. and my money, dried off le. my wallet hold my cards so its ok lah.

and my mum was telling the whole world abt wad happen b4! how embarrasing?! and whn i got out of the water to change, cuz we wanted to go hm mah! my pocket was filled wif the other 3 stuffs and it looked huge and my cousin asked wad was inside. and i just heck care it. but sure, everyone gave me tat stoopid look. and my cousin-in-law mentioned tat ive become so blur after entering poly! too much study! *lol*

yea riiteee....haha!!!

all right now. thn reached hm arnd 10-11am. ate the rice my dad bught b4 reaching hm. nt nice. yea....nt TAT nice. but can still make it lah. maybe cuz too much gravy over the rice. yea tats y! and slept from 11.30am-4.30pm. got up cuz i wanted to watch tv. but got the repeat of tat affairs of the heart thingy! omg! everytime on sunday got repeat of these shows and i cant watch my show. hrmph! so went back to sleep till 12.30am! *lol* too sleepy.

and too tink my parenst said later evening go watch movie. like duh. all slept past the time le! hrmph!

Thank You

its raning heavily and my dad coming hm. don tink im going. feeel like nt going. but ive been smsing here and thr and thn if i sae nt going..won it be like TIAO?! thn they won invite me anymore. shit lah. i hate my life. period. im nt happy at all. seem happy to u ppl out thr, but once i reach hm, alls GONE.

if some read a post earlier (which ive deleted!), u will noe how im feeling rite now. its too obscene lah. this the 2nd time i deleted my TRUE feelings posts. yea tis is my blog but i don wanna get caught or something. no nothing to do wif anti-racial and stuffs. its my personal stuffs and who noes? some spy who is frm a family organisation? yea riiiteee...

aniwae to make myself happy abit (don tink im going to be happy!) lets recall my day yester.

went civic to deposit $ and pay bills and return novel. thn Shar and Azura came to me. *lol* nt i meet them. they meet me. *sigh* ever since poly, ive been late for everything. don noe its a gd thing anot. aniwae, thn we shop for Liy badae prezzie. lol! we saboed her! yea went kiddy palace. shd i announce wad we bought for her? hmm...yea. shd!!!

tis hawaii barbie doll and a toy slide-hp. lol! i rmrbed she wanted E800C whn it first came out. lol. so thr u go. haha! thn we had to wait for her to come. shes meeting us at 3pm. and we were supposed to shop at 2pm but maybe cuz of me, so drag and in the end had 10mins to shop. SUPPOSEDLY 10mins. lol. but we finished shopping 3+ like tat. thn waiting for her. called her. blah3x. and shes doing her report. haha! last min eh?

and we go lepak at the cinema thr. haha! waited till arnd almost 4 le. *lol* called her and thr. yes, so guys if u wanna wait for Liy, heres an equation for u.

10mins=30mins
on time=one hr later
...

thr u go. *lol*

thn Widad (shant address her as Dad animore. she told me to shut up tat time. she didnt like it. cuz of some police ppl!) came. tis one better! SUPPOSEDLY meet her @ 5pm but nah. an equation for her.

on time=one hr earlier

*lol* verrie unique frends i hv!

all right now. thn we straight go breeks @ amk. the travelling thr so farnie. yes tat whr the craziness starts! we were laughing so hard tat i tink everyone else were thinking tat we r some lunatics frm which LAUGHING planet. serious. ok lame. i sux at making up names. one of my failed attempt eh? forgive me for tat. aniwae read on.

yea. thn at breeks, lol! another shock! tat time i ate wif Liy @ taka, thr were lots of food. thn skali thrs only 3 meals. lol! we were complaining and stuffs and laughing and discussing whr to go. and we were the only customers and this waiter came to us and asked whether we are gonna eat thr. tat made us shut up...for awhile.

I HATE MY TYPING SKILLS. NT EVEN SKILLS!!!

yea...thn 5 of us ordered 2 meals. all budget. *lol* this chicken thing shared btw Shar, Azura and Liy. and tis CHLORINE FISH AND CHIPS btw me and Widad. yea...lol! haha!!!

OMG! Heck lah Widad. Too long lah! just call u Dad can liao.

yea and the chicken was being operated on. *lol* and we shared. haha! ok nt going into details. but seriously, we were like devils thn! laughing all the way.

ok continuing later. tat MONKEY out frm the toi liao.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Thank You

I hate myself or shd i hate the ppl out thr?! yea i hate both! im totally oblivious to everything. i just found out lotz abt people tat i don noe. practically everyday see them but don noe wads happening. well, maybe also cuz they don share stuffs wif me. and who noes, in the process i offend them?! well, u ppl don tell me anything. thn later when i offend u, sae i heck care and hao lian and stuffs. wad is tis?! just cuz im the minority so everything shd nt be shared among us?! fine maybe its myself. my own self. i gave tat heck care attitude.

i wanna be known. i wan myself to be someone whom everyone can trust. and nt avoid. serious! i wan friends. i wan ppl i can share laughter wif everyday and not once in awhile. if tats the case, ive got lotz! come one, tok to me! im here. don care who i am. wad race i am. wad religion i am. tok to me! this is singapore for god sake! don keep to urself! i hate this. i hate myself. y cant i be friendly?! y cant ppl treat me as a frend?! im a human. i yearn to have friends. pls! don avoid me. i cant stand it. don give me tat attitude. pls! i beg u!!!

yea. after knowing abt LOTZ of stuffs, tis is how i feel. i feel like im among strangers. im alone. thr is no such thing as friend in my dictionary. what is this? i am human too. pls. im begging you.

went out yester but not gonna sae it. yea. felt vrrie happie and free but not now. not after this. just telling it some other time. tml im going chalet. fam chalet. i wanna go. my mum said yar, i go myself. make sure i can go. don stop me. i need fresh air! i need to c my relatives whom i c onie once in a blue moon. i don care what probs u hv. just don stop me. im a human. im onie human. pls! im begging u. let me choose my own life. let me choose my own path. let me be. show concern when needed but not everything. pls people. related to me by blood anot, just pls. stop treating me like a child. even a child has more freedom thn i do. i wanna be me. pls!

Thank You

kinda just completed the lab report for BM. yea. last min. i mean enjoy 1st mah? *lol* wadever it is...tml gonna be handed up le. now wad kind of eng is that?! crap.

mapled...sheesh. wad my dad said id correct. im addictive to the game. but i did nt take it seriously! i did not! i just played whn i hv the mood. like last time, i didnt hv the mood so i didnt play. duh.

tis sat till sun, having chalet-cum bdae celebration. i wanna go but don noe can not. or rather going anot. ok wads the difference idiot? sheesh. i wanna go. i wan fresh air. i ahte my life. so restricted. sheesh.

i wanna hang out wif my relatives like the last time. i wanna c them. i miss those days. *sigh* but don noe wad the fuck happens now. stoopid. i wan to go back being a child. an innocent child who doesnt care a hoot abt all this. so innocent and bright and cute and fun. fun life. yea tats wad i wan. a fun life.

later meeting Shar @ 2pm. goin out wif them. haha. i tink tis the 2nd time we going to hang out together. *lol* and claiming to be wad?! *lol* haha...

wonder how the day will turn out. i wanna enjoy. $$$. yea. my mum said giving me $$$ to shop. nah. onie 50. pathetic 50. yea. shd be ba...and i need to pay my stoopid hp bill. stoopid. so much. caller id. 5 bucks! stoopid. so ex!!!

all right now. gonna get some exp pts thru trading and thn sleep le. tml morning wake up and do my gems e-learning. if nt scared sat and sun no time. i don wanna drag. and don wanna be a nocturnal. sickening!

Thank You

sianz lah! ive been looking arnd for new skins but nah...nothing. the skins i wan others used le. i mean some i go and c their blogs thn liked. but cant possibly go and KPO mah! yea...

aniwae, no nice skins. i wan something dark, yet colourful. and tis time, i don tink im going to change the colours of the texts and all. too tired lah! just keep it the way it is. but the prob is thr's no nice skin so far. *sigh* so hv to stick wif tis.

yea. yester i finished my online assisgn @ 5am!!! can u believe it?! and tat one also, still got my gems haven do. its 4 essays-like qns! sickening and its by sundae. but sat my fam got this bbq. don noe can goa not. my mum lah. haiyoh. don wanna explain. hope can go. i need fresh air!

omg! i don noe y but i yearn for ice-cream since like... a few wks ago. omg! wad is happening?! idiot sia...enough!

i don wanna speak broken eng. my eng standard is totally like...DOWN! even whn i typed here, its hopeless. i noe its a blog but still...and u noe, yester while doing my ect (i was rubbishing my way thru that module)..i typed lotz of shortcuts and had o delete and typed it back again. c?! sickening...i need to change the way i use eng! i HAVE TO. I MUST.

*sigh* gonna stop here now. wanna watch tat 9pm show. haha! got tat zhedoing guy. or wadever his name is. the latest guy in my tv life. haha! ming dao so passe liao. haha! crap.

haiz...so sianz. maybe maple until 9pm. yea...

ta-ta.

Thank You

sickening sia! i want to do my e-learning in peace but that FUCKING BITCH is walking around, in and out of the room. her fucking PRESENCE is irritating me. im already vexed over the question.s don noe wad the hell its toking abt and THE BITCH is making it worst! shit her!

i just hate her. ive already been so patient as to not scream at her to get off the comp during the afternoon so i can do my online assignments. she can hog for all i care! but now, just leave me alone. its my turn! go and fucking sleep u BITCH! i hate u...u make my life miserable. u can disappear for all i care! just leave me alone idiot!!!

FUCK.

Thank You

CONTINUED...

haha! wanted to update rite after i went hm, do my e-learning as well, but my dad wanna be on teh comp and thn i felt asleep on the sofa while waiting. well, was sleepy by the time i reached vista point-banquet. i was lying on the table...*lol* tats how tired i was. well serve me rite. nv stretch for a long time!

yea..so continuing but whr did i stop? hmm...wait ah...

wokay. here goes...

yea started painting. haha!!! me paired up wif Ira. but in the same area wif Jiamin, Lemon, Kaitai and Medwin. haha. fooling around tat class rep of ours. aniwae we all were painting and kinda joking arnd. me and Jiamin went to get my earpiece cuz they wan to listen radio mah. listened yes 933. *lol* im nt having prob wif tat! i listened to it since sec 2!!! *lol*

used to love perfect 10 to bits. yea u noe during those yr-end top 100 countdown, will sit near the radio for 10-12 hrs! trust me...its true. for 3-4 consecutive yrs!!! thn cuz of tat 5566 and mvp qing ren so stopped. *lol* and also cuz jean danker not on it anymore. sianz!!! lurve her. she my fave dj. yea...and issit true tat she and daniel ong got together? r they still together? actually whn daniel joined, i was like hoping for them to get together but hes married. thn i know he got a divorce. thn i don noe le. but last i heard he and her got together. r they still together?! hope so...

yea ok off-topic. aniwae yea. we were painting and talking and whining and fooling around. *lol* typical US teens. still young mah?! haha...

and thn the other grp finished liao. well, hello?! we onie had 6 or us. the other had like...the rest of the class!!! 18-6=12. haha!!! everyone was thr...issit? but aniwae, the other grp was bigger thn us. so yea...thn we went for break. alzying arnd. we had lunch. those who bring frm hm, ate. me bought egg and cheese sandwich frm 7-11. yea...sat down wif Ira and tok. thn she bought this soda water. *lol*

u noe...i actually used to tink tat soda water is ice-cream soda until she told me. how gundu?!!! haha...its just plain water wif gase. GOSH!!!

thn Zhen An and Joshua joined in. we tok. and it was somewhr here tat me an Ira realised tat everything is on the house. and of course, started taking drinks. *lol* and played this stick game wif Joshua. *lol* liked tat game. we used those sugar in a packet. haha!!! don noe lah...joking and lazying arnd. and blah3x. the rest wanted to go back. don wan to slack mah but Zhen An said no. so we 3 stayed thr. nt Joshua though. and within mins, the host came to us, asking whether we brought packed food anot. thn whn we said not all, she told her...frend to buy food. and she was like "buy huge pizza for 18000 kids." *lol* it has to be huge. well, those american pizzas verrie huge as compared to ours, pizza hut and canadian pizza.

yea...thn we went to carry on wif our work. told the rest and they were like "should hv stayed thr." *lol* no comments.

aniwae, me and Ira...we lost one pail and brush. so we had to share. someone took tat. aniwae, we had to paint down a slope. this slope. haiz...scary!!! i almost slipped tons of times. and its nt helpful at all tat thr r horses dungs! shit...yea shit.

and the guy came and told us tat the food had arrived. and we went back. aww...me cant eat. not Halal. so we ate only this oreo biscuit and ferrero roucher...wadever it is spelled. haha!!! though Zhen An kept telling us to eat the veggies ones.

nah sry frend. aniwae thx for the offer.

yea yea yea. thn Sing Yee and Jen came. and Jen kept singing this 2 sentence of the rainbow connection theme song. its nice. and Sing Yee was like..." the radio is spoilt. onie sang the same part." *lol* no comments.

but i agree wif u. *lol* shhh...

all right. thn we waited. a few started sleeping. haha. cant blame them. tiring u noe. under the hot sun. thn after an hr i guess, we went back and painted until finished.

oh yea. the painting. frm the beginning, the paint will drip though the host said tat try nt to drip cuz the horse will eat the grass and ta-da!!! haha....but cannot lah. we nt born wif special powers. and the pant wont stick. some painted and the whiteness came out. me?! the whiteness went off. haiz...no choice lah so had to do it several times. but towards the end, got tired and haha. but still, i had two coats of it. yea...wadever im saying here.

thn done liao. its onie 3++pm. we still hv until 5pm. but nvm. we sat and they wanted to play games. thn tok and don noe wad went back. too tired and hot and itchy. haha!!! lots of HUGE ants ya noe.

went back. we girls, took a long time to get ready. change clothes mah! my top got stained. nt gonna wear tat t-shirt to sch animore. and my jeans too! one lost jeans...haiz...hv to buy a new one. going bugis maybe...

thn we walked to the outside. and tok and sing along the way. the path reminded me of the scenes frm incredible tales. *lol* cept tat still got sun. haha!!!

and after 20mins i guess...stopped at the traffic light thr. the pavement and discuss whr to go eat. they wanted to go eat at this nearby western food so i declined. cuz scared nt Halal. they offered to go see and if nt Halal, go another place. but i declined again. Ma Fan mah?

so i went hm. walked towards the bustop take, 961. at first be4 tat Xinyi said she going woodlands so take 961 wif me, if i go hm. thn she said shes going newton. so she took 147 i tink. don noe lah. and Yanling also. said her wallet wif Wei Xiang so ahs might as well, go follow them eat. so left me and Joshua to atke 961. the boon lay bus came 1st so Ira and Zhen An went hm 1st. thn 5mins or so, 961 came.

tot can sit, skali full sia! haiz. my hand went red and crammed while holding the railing or wadever it is. haiz...stayed on till woodlands interchange. haha!!! and on my final way back hm i 962, i slept. haha!!! lucky manage to wake up. if nt, miss my stop. haiz...

reached hm and my mum said we eating out. so yea...and blah3x.

haiz...

and i got slight sunburn. didnt realise at first until Ira asked. actually whn i got hm, realised my neck got red2x. tot nothing of it. and my arms too. and my mum and monkey said my face red, so thr u go. *lol* blur!

actually just now, was reading thru the law powerpoint slides @ blackboard. but cannot concentrate. later my dad come hma nd hwa wanna play solitaire and ill end up shouting and totally no mood. worst rite?! tml is wednesday already. and in the afternoon tat monkey bitch on the comp. she won give face to me. so might as well, after my dad sleep and she too, thn i go do. peace mah! haha...just make sure TAT HUGE LIZARD don disturb me. cuz a few days ago, it actually hit my toe!!! eeks!!! disgusting!!! creep.

ok noe. maple until my dad get hm frm sending my mum to work. thn if he wans to play, play lor. if nt also i play until they sleep. peace.

yea...peace.

psst: tats a LONG post. my spelling and everthing...mind them, thx.

Thank You

OMG!!! my feet hurt! don noe y maybe staood and walked too much. c no exercise for a long time?!

so called just came back from saddle club at bukit timah, near the old turf city. went thr to complete 7 hrs of cip. but trust me, its less thn tat. haha. but wth! the person-in-charge was like pleased....*lol*

yea. i thought we had groom the horse or something and also paint fences. but only painting leh. but tiring lor!

all right. start frm the beginning...

supposed to wake up @ 5am but dragged 30mins and in the end i was late for like a whole 15mins. haha!!! and i kept thinking tat when i reach newton mrt, the WHOLE class will be waiting and staring at me! *lol* paranoid...as usual.

msg Ira @ the bustop but nv reply. haiz...so i just heck care and decided to just go myself. thn somehow, she msg back saying she didnt realise and tat she was still @ je. *lol* so yea. had to go myself. how bad i am...

thn reached and onlie Xinyi, Medwin, Lemon, Flora, Jialing, Jiamin were thr. Thn Wei Xiang and Jen came. Thn Yanling and Kaitai came. they were the last to arrive. Jiang Yao and Jocelyn went by bus so they were waiting for us at the bustop. Had to call Ira but her hp cannot make it. *lol* something wrong she said.

so we took the bus. I sat alone, wanted to sit wif Jen but heard tat onlie few bustops so didnt move. lazy lah!!! thn Kaitai came to sit and talk. sae I like keeping my distance. *lol*

Whr got?!

aniwae, reached le and we took taxi after walking here and thr. oh..the other side of the bustop, met Zhen Lin. i went wif Jen, Jiang Yao and Jocelyn. and wtf!!! the driver omg!!! was yelling....saying he didnt wan to drive us thr and wad crap he was shooting. omg!!! i cant really speak chi well, but i noe wad he saying. if only my chi verrie li hai, thn i wld hv told him off man! but whn he knew the way liao, he was kinda friendly lah. asking y we go thr and stuffs. so maybe i guess, its morning ba and maybe we his first passengers or something. haiz...

got thr, went to look at the horses. *lol* got this Sally-O-Mally or something, verrie fierce sia! thn i wanted to take tis cute cat. ermm take pic. but it moved and nothing was caught. haiz...gave up. i mean, my hp cam like shit man.

thn Sing Yee came or is it Zhen An? don who came 1st but aniwae i noe everyone was thr cept for Ira. *lol*

thn we go to tat hse thing. the restaurant or wadever and Ira came. It was like 9++am. supposedly to start @ 8am but haiz...nvm. thn sat thr, almost fell asleep sia. haiz...so sianz. thn 10am or so start painting le.

haha! nt gonna elaborate. tired lah. and me going out if my fam to eat. gosh! tis is the 3rd wk lia eat outside. can die i tell u!!! all right, maybe later at night i continue...cuz i wanna finish my e-learning assignment fast so can relax mah. yea....so...

TO BE CONTINUED...

Thank You

As I am typing this, I cant help having this feeling. This feeling of being betrayed, backstabbed. Its so scary. Like theres ppl out there whom I know and trust, talking bad about me. Ganging up with others against me. Planning what is to be done the next time they see me. I dont know. Its just so scary.

So scary. Im scared.

Thank You

yo ppl! miss blogging. *lol* now, i guess tis will be a long post since like...aug! lol. wadever crap. aniwae, me wanna change skin cuz like u noe...wan something new. but thrs nothing i like. i mean. i wan it to be black and colourful and also...i wan huge space for the post section. i don wan everything to br crammed up. haha. even the current one i tink its cram lor!

all right. gonna start recalling my test wk.


MONDAY...

actually i blogged rite saying tat i won be blogging till fri at least. yea. had ect. and i was doing craps. i was drawing shit man! i tink the lecturer gonna laugh or just cross my paper out. *sigh* its ect, cant blame me. well, actually wadever result i get, its my fault. all last min. but thn again, yea. its ect. die le. si ding le. dui bu dui? im trying to write chi here cuz i wanna practice me. use my knowledge. my parents paid 300+ and i didnt practice, for wad rite? aniwae...yea. tats my life on mon.

went hm and...oops. forgot. long time le. but all i noe, i studied build mat. at night. sheesh! go and die lah.


TUESDAY...

hmm...had building materials. yea. it was new to us. so almost everyone was like...wth?! gosh. lots of SURE DIE, SURE FAIL outside the class, after the exam. haha. so me also lah. but it always like...SURE DIE and everything but in the end, pass also wif gd marks somemore! nt me. whn i sae something, i mean it. serious. period. no hiding. no use hiding ur in tention. someday it will soon be discovered too.

yea so lotz of SURE DIE. and thn got hm wif Yanling and Joshua and of course, Ira but until je onie. cuz she lives bl mah. haha! aniwae yar...and Yanling was like saying this and that. haha.

yo ger, frm wad u sae ah...i tink u surely can make it lah! u write and rmrb lotz of stuffs tat i did not. so yar..and also u clever mah! *lol*

thn alighted @ admiralty but Yanling go her frends hse. and i walked hm. and again, the next day is bsi. hmm...i slept. yea. cuz my mum sae wanna go out and shop for awhile. but in the end, its too long to wait. its at 2pm. and i reached hm at 12pm. so slept. haha. me, my mum, and my monkey slept on my parents bed. *lol* i woke up at 3pm. *lol* and my mum was like we shop on sat or something. now too late le. haha. ok ok. and blah3x. i studied at nite i tink. did the tuts. and realised tat my 1st tut was wif Xinyi. *lol*

nvm lah ger! besides i also owe u the tut 4 answers. but u sae u nv refer to tut. so...haha!!!


WEDNESDAY

the long day and wtf day. haha. 3 tests in a day! idiot sia. first is bsi. well, its kinda ok lah. maybe cuz i practice mah. but thr r qns i cant do lor. esp tat don noe wa. all give cept for the cross-sect and i was like cracking my brains. yea i did. don noe correct anot. but i tink wrong lah. crap lah!

thn got gems test. haha! went to lib to study and wif Ira and we ended up toking. *lol*

nt ur fault lah. even if u nt thr, i cant concentrate also! so don worry.

thn blah3x. broadband, and don noe wad came out. forget liao. haha...but we talked lor. haha. everytime go lib wif Ira, sure tok. haha!!! cool...nt tat im complaining...oh yea. she was like decding whether to go cca anot and stuffs. ask me to choose thrice. haha. and all choices told her to go. *lol* but she didnt go lah in the end. haha. lazy. cuz her other frends also nt going mah. *lol* wadever lah ger.

thn gems...i actually didnt wan to take my notes and read as i go to the class. cuz i scared later paisey since my gems classmates like heck care. skali, i reach...(which at the usual timing, thr ll be less ppl and seriously, LESS!)...so MANY PPL sia!!! even those whose faces ive nt seen, all thr. and most wif the notes in their faces. *lol* crap sia...gd lah u all!!! *lol* in the end, i ended up near the stairs reading thru. *lol* tat one also nv go inside head.

thn went inside. walking towards my usual seat, saw Helen and tis newly-met-last-2-wks ger and Bun...yea Bun. Helen was waving at me and calling and blah3x. and they were like asking whether i studied anot and blah3x. *lol* thn the test. omg!!! wadever crap sia!!! i only confident of 2-3 qns out of 20. *lol* and guess wad?!

the lecturer very clever sia!!! he made two sets of qn papers and (A and B) and jumbled them up together. so ppl cant copy. wad the hell!!!! *lol*

felt almost like CRYING AN CURSING...but thn again, my fault. who sae to study last min?!

thn over liao straight go business block. go booked comp. wanted to blog or something but do wan lah. got ppl. and my ex-classmate thr. haha!!! Yanting...issit? *lol* i noe her new name onie...Vivien...Huiying or something. haha!!! yar thn...blah3x. got kicked out at 3pm. wth!!! thn nowhr to go. go fdcrt eat lor. abt to put the rice down, Nike msg saying shes at the comp lab. haha. after i finish, she sae she out le. got kicked out also. thn we ended up going to test earlier but onlie took the test @ abt 6.30pm like tat. imagine! frm 4++pm-6.30pm?! wad crap! haha...

i got 95 for the oral!!! haha! woohoo...but its easy mah. as in, to u chi frends. u most prb go CHEY!!! so yea...thn waited for my dad and blah3x. ate outside. i mean, for the past 3 wks liao...die lah! gained weight liao and gaining somemore i guess...


THURSDAY

no sch todae. and tot wanted to wake up early to study law. cuz i got religious class mah? but thn slept for 12 hrs. gosh!!! thn told myself to study @ 1pm. but got dragged and don noe wad to 5pm. wth! frm mag, posters to wadever. *lol*


FRIDAY

yea last test. law...miraculously, i finished so fast! both Ira and Setay said tats a gd sign. but its like considered too fast le! i mean...haiz. shd be i leave out stuffs rite, i answered all th qns but don noe correct anot lah. wth! wadever lah its over. don wanna tink abt it.

thn went lib to read tat novel. wanted to finish and return but nope. was like sitting in manie positions. and lucky i wore shoes. if slippers, can easily slipped off, haha!!! cant imagine wad ill do. *lol*

waited until 2++pm. haha!!! thruout, was reading and msging Ira. she went Novena mah...and bored. haha.

thn we met at wdlnds control stat. and walked all the way to vista point. and i ate chicken noodle. and Setay ate dumpling noodle. haha...and thn we walked back to cwp. wth!!! yea. i was wearing white and sweating. *lol* wadever lah! thn bought waffles. thn me buy mac for my mum and monkey. thn bought bubble tea. me bought peach and Setay bought mango. and as we were abt to exit, saw Karim, Hafiz and Shamsul. No, they were the ones who saw us. Either one calles Setay. haha...i don noe y felt so akward. like i don noe them. but they are my ex-classmates. wth!!! my fault. i don mix wif ppl. haiz...my fault.

thn we walked to the bustop in frnt of my hse. *lol* yea..walked to and fro. wth, my mum wld sae. but i liked it lor! and Setay ended up finishing my peach cuz i cant take it anymore. too cold. le.

thn said wanna maple and blah2x. and now she went off le. and me alone. i wanna lvl up, and now it is hols, i wanna catch up wif Setay!!! haiz...but like verrie slow to lvl up. wth.

all right now. write too long le. i tink LOTZ of mistakes!!! bear wif it ok ppl!!!

mapling now...

Thank You

yo! ill be gone for tis wk, at least until fri. *lol* like tat also wanna sae meh...haha! just telling mah!

yea studying. and just now ect i was like...crap. gonna fail. had tat same feeling like last term. so yep. gonna fail. will fail. of course, i don wan to fail lah!!! but wad to do? all last min!!! serve me rite. yea.

tml is bm. so much to study. studied just now but fell asleep on the sofa. gosh!!! and nt even one topic. die le...

ok gonna chiong now. wish me luck ppl!!!

Thank You

yea..im not discipline at all!!! its sunday and tml is the beginning of test wk but still haven study. yea..y am i even blogging? cuz i wanna tell the whole world out thr tat im lazy. fucking lazy. serious.

told myself tis and tat. but nah! just go and die lah u!!! everyones studying but here i am, lazying arnd. wth!!!

i tell ya, if i fail, i deserve it. nah. maybe fail is just too light a punishment. hate myself. so lazy.

ive to study. its reallie the last min le. cannot make it lah. tml is ect. ect onie 2 topics. shd be can rite? yea..maybe just pass range, can lah.

thn the rest? bsi? bm? how? law at least still got the whole of thurs. and gems somemore. and tat gems is so complicated. and my chi. chi...hm..maybe can scrap thru cuz tat teacher likes me. *lol*

go and die lah!!! go study le.

hv to log off now. log off. nope, my monkey was here earlier thn i was eating and share wif her. thn she don wan to play and i took over. but less thn half an hr ago. yea...maybe tats y no one likes me. im lazy. yea...RUZAINA IS DAMN LAZY. SHES GONNA FAIL!!!

Thank You

yea..now wad time le? 1.06am!!! Gosh and still haven sleep. y? cuz i mapling. wtf.

RUZAINA, U GONE CASE LE. DON HOPE FOR SO HIGH AND GD RESULT!!! IDIOT. TALK BIG ONLY. WAN TO STUDY AND RUBBISH. ALL RUBBISH LE. STOOPID.

yea scolding myself. angry wif myself. y cant i hv a normal life? y must my life be so miserable and revengeful? haha..revengeful? tats nt exactly the word lah. nt like i wan to kill ppl mah. yea rite..who noes? 10 yrs down the road, newspaper headline. rubbish sia. tink i too sleepy le.

speaking of which...

just now ect i slept during the break sia. yea. i reallie slept. not just lie down u noe. its sleeping!!! tat goes to show im verrie tired le. haiz...aniwae, came late and caused Ira to be late too. so bad lah me.

sry yar Ira. u cld hv made it in time but u go wait for me? sry sry sry!!!

haha...just now cd we had geography-cum-history-cum-cme. *lol* reallie! the lecturer talked abt the past relation btw sg and my and don noe wad. chi and tw also got. us and rus also got le!!! *lol* but fun lah. i like history between these countries but don like to actually do it for tests. *lol*

bad...

thn ect...slept, like i said above. gosh!

thn tml also. ect. tot can go hm early le but roteract need to clean and shift the stuffs to new clubhse. haiz...

sianz...sleepy le. i tink go sleep now ba. if nt tml late again! haiz...

Thank You

yea...actually if nt i wld hv blogged earlier @ sch. but thn the comp system kicked everyone out @ 5pm. the business block. if im nt wrong, the other blocks at 6pm rite? all right, nvm.

yea. i tink my blog got something wrong le. or the server. like last time at hm, i cant tag. and itll take so long to load. gosh! thn just now at sch, also. i tagged twice. but whn i refreshed, nothing. so i tot nothing. thn just earlier went in, and thrs two of the tags. crap.

aniwae deleted one of it. haha! ok...sianz.

ate outside cuz my mum overslept again. haiz. i was nt full. ate tis not so nice kway teow hongkong. lots of tat veggie tat gives out this fragrant smell. too fragrant! haiz...nvm.

but now kinda full le. haiz...still haven study. how?

stayed at lib. did expt 5 but 3/4 way cuz didnt bring notes to refer to. but slept twice. for like abt 15mins each. haha. did i snore?! *lol* cuz my nose kinda block and cant really breathe mah. haha! and to think tat im the only GIRL in tat silence enclosed area. haha!!! wouldnt it be embarrassing?! is tat how u spell it?

yea. thn the 2nd time slept, didnt realise Ira was sitting beside me. haha. tats how sleepy i was. gosh! its the 2nd time i slept in the lib. but at least teh first wan was longer. tis only lasted 15 mins or so. haha. but still!

all right. maple cannot play le. wtheck. but thn again, maybe its a sign for me to start studying?! yea i need to study NOW!!!

Thank You

hi hi. went swenson to eat wif Setay. *lol* didnt eat main course cuz budget prob. haha...ate tis coit tower or issit tower coit? wadever it is, its the tall, slim ice-cream wif banana inside. thn also ordered garlic pita. ate 3 out of 4. Setay ate one and my ice-cream biscuit too. *lol*

and obviously wasnt full! duh. i didnt eat since morning. well, ate abit lah but still!!! thn only ate ice-cream and pitas. gosh! so was hungry. and Setay TOO!!! she ate this black pepper pasta i tink. always eat tat one. yea everytime go swenson wif her, she always eat tat one. her fave maybe...nvm.

just next time, go order tat salmon thing!!! i wanna try!!! *lol*

thn we talked abt sch, ppl and other stuffs. yea catchin up wif stuffs. talked and ate.

yea and tis guy kept popping out. haha! took our orders and sent out the dishes. serve i mean. *lol* my eng!!! no, my vocab sux. well, since last time my vocab just sux big time. all right...yea tis guy. *lol* i thought Taufik relative sia. haha!!! yea as in Taufik Batisah!!!

Setay shd noe why....*lol*

aint telling...

all right, thn we paid and we walked arnd. just walked arnd. thinking hard whr to get some meat. yea i need meat!!! hungry mah! Setay also...and she suggested cold storage. tat chicken piece. i bought honey, she bought black-pepper. paid and the cashier...haha!!! she thanked her in malay and me in eng. haha!!!

tats a hint!!!

thn went to the interchange, sat down and eat cuz the cwp basement no space. well, its late afternoon. duh. ate and talked abt...ppl and many stuffs. haha!!! thn went back to the shop. don noe wad shop. bought mango tea. haha!!! no, nt bubble tea. thn went to delifrance. Setay bought eclairs!!! nt fair! I like the ecalirs...and tis Mini...Brest!!! *lol*

Setay was like blushing and don noe wad and the ger was smiling too. haha!!! Brest get it? the pronounciation. duh.

shy?! oh puleaseeeeeeeeeeee...SPARE ME!!! u shy?!

thn went hm. yea...we walked hm. as in me. walked hm wif her. to my bustop and thn she took bus. haha. those days. we walked to my bustop and waited for the bus to arrive. thn even skipped up to 4 buses cuz we eating and talking and crap. *lol*

thn we seperated. *lol* rubbish.

and i realised something. while WAITING for SETAY...yea as usual, typical person...i went to lib. and just sat thr for a whole 20-30mins and read. its peaceful cept for these two aunties talking in cantonese, or hokkien or wadever dialects. Liza Marklund. yea. i tink her 3rd bk or something. don noe lah. and i realised tat i wasted my post-o levels days. i mean i can go lib and read. but nah!!! haiz...c? regret liao. last time wan sch to faster start. now don wan. wad rubbish!

ok. tml is wed. practical. no gems. but still im staying back in sch cuz got chi. don wanna go hm. i mean reast only 2 hrs and travel again in the afternoon. oh please!!! might as well go lib and sleep. haha!!! a full 4.5hrs leh!!! pei Ira till 1pm mah. who noes? can read bk or something? can study also? *lol*

yea speaking of which, test next wk but me no reaction leh. 5 days left le. haiyoh. hv to start already. actually just after reached hm and bathe, sat down in my rm and took out ect&p. *lol* read 1st pg of the 1st topic liao..sianz. cuz my dad come hm le wif food. again my mum didn cook. gosh! and guess wad?! its mac!!! gosh!!! pig out really man...hv to exercise le. if nt die le. haiz...

all right. maybe online for awhile thn off le. if nt tml delay again. thn come late. haiyoh. these 3 wks, always delay and come late. *sigh*

Thank You

just kinda did my BM. u noe, the review qns. some goes in my head lah but majority nopez. but thn again, tis nt considered studying.

mapling till later lah. don wan to sleep late le. later tml wake up late. aniwae, maple got these new drops. r they useful? i c ppl nt taking them but my frend sae maybe just take. i go the webbie like nt helpful leh. just cuz its thanksgiving in korea or something. don noe lah. aiyah! just play lah. so luo so.

all right now. just now, went out wif my monkey to Yishun. she wanna buy yarn cuz she wanna do something for my dad. his bdae coming btw. but in the end, gave up. stoopid rite?! wasted my time. went out @ 11.30am. reached hm arnd 3pm like tat. sianz...but oklah. bought two shirts frm hang ten. *lol* its december and since i got the card, 50% off lor! haha...but cuz my bank acc onie so pathetic, tats y didnt buy lotz. sianz...

thn went sembawang. bought earrings...haha! spent 7 bucks plus on them. haha!!! thn she wanna buy pen but realised at sunplaza, no popular. *lol*

youre right! dont ever shop at sunplaza. haha...but maybe can buy earrings and stuffs. even the movie also nt tat gd. cwp more good. *lol*

so in the end, went back cwp go popular. thn bought burger king. the guy kinda like sianz sianz leh. wad did i do? i asked for the rendang burger without meal and he gave me meal. so lazy wanna sae. so just heck lor. aiyah. thn walked hm frm cwp to my hse. haha!!! my mum sae crazy. *lol* save $$$ and can exercise mah?! *lol*

all right. back to maple. don wanna sleep late!

Thank You

Yo ppl! Haha...just got hm frm sch. wth!!! i was late leh...for 10mins or so i tink. so its like less thn an hour of lecture. thn tut...waah sey! 2hrs become 30min!!! Gosh-cuz thrs no tut worksheets and the lecturer got important stuffs to do. tats y i like and don like fridays. *lol*

yea...i reached hm even b4 the official end time of the tut lessons. gosh! haha!!! thn next sem, confirm onie one hr on fridae. morning spent lotz of times pushing and shoving and getting all fed-up, thn stay in sch for one hr onie. wth!!! haiz...

and i wan to sae is this! ppl!!! can u pls don be impatient and rubbishy here?! learn to respect and wait leh. courtesy pls!!! wtf! lots of times liao!!! i wan to go in and out of mrt, ppl kept shoving!!! wtf! pls lah! can wait anot! its better if one miss the train thn miss the destination, ok?! so pls! don shove me and don hog the poles to urself. thr r others u noe. the train can be jerky sometimes so ppl need to hold on to something. later i pull u thn u noe. we both fall, fair mah?! hogging...pls lah! be courteous please!!! i beg u!!!! BUAY TAHAN SIA!!!!

so guilty cuz cant keep Ira company. shes going out at 1pm. meeting someone-i didnt quite catch who. maybe her sister. every fridae she meet her sister. so gd! abt same age. me and my monkey-lol! so manie yrs apart. but i shouldnt complain-cuz thr r others whose age gap MORE bigger.

sry yar Ira!!!

went hm wif Zhen An and Joshua. as usual Joshua wif his books and he met his frend but they still didnt quite talk. haha!!! he can ACTUALLY concentrate reading in the train and even walking!!! me?! 1 NOVEL TAKES 4 MONTHS OR SO TO FINISH!!! *lol* someone shd noe...tsk tsk.

yea my mum actually said tat since i go hm early, we go out eat. but here they are! everyone still nt ready. haiz...my mum went back to sleep-night shift mah and besides she hates waiting. and my sis still haven wake up. now thn in the toilet. gosh! lazy bum...haha...but its the hols. me also last time like tat. but at least i slept 6am and woke up late u noe. she sleeps 11pm or so but wakes up so late. i am better all right!

haiz...lesson learnt. "Dont get too close with somebody (can be more thn 2 though!) whom you thought you can trust." In this world, you cant trust anyone. Nt even yourself. Well, not abt trust actually but...just don get too close or youll end up having heartbreaks. No, nt just guy-girl thing. Girl-girl or guy-guy also can! Correct mah?! Im not toking abt lesbians and gays ok? im toking abt general. its true!

all right. the word is nt 'trust' but rather 'comfortable'. yea comfortable. you may think youre comfortable wif a person and tat u can depend on him/her, hang out wif him/her, talk to him/her. but nah! you dont noe wad the other party is thinking. maybe he/she don like u in actual fact (nt don like as in hate, loathe)...but see u so kelian and tat got something in common like in last time history 'marriage in convenience' or wadever shit tat is! i noe it has something to do wif communist and Kuomintang. Haha!!! wad crap. yea yea...its in China lah. last time...

yea so like i said, its just convenient and blah3x so tats y. but the stoopid you go and think otherwise. so yea.

well, those who read this and feel something, like im toking abt you or anything...nah! im just like reflecting the surroundings around me. haha! just some inspirational stuffs. u noe...its my blog wad! i can rubbish wadever i want!

and another lesson learnt. haha. nt reallie lesson lah!!! just some coincidence. 'go home alone or rather be alone' if you want to meet ppl whom you know.' *lol* yea i mean alot of times liao! im nt saying i wanna be alone. no, no, no. who wants to be alone?! not shooing you ppl away lah! but u noe...whenever im alone, i c ppl. haha. yes. ppl. alive and kicking. like just now, saw my cousins fiancee, auntie, cousins, ex-classmate. and last time also. *lol*

is it cuz whn ur alone, ur attentive to your surroundings? i tink so...i tink nt. *lol* rubbish!

all right, while waiting for my mum and monkey, ill just maple. haha! my mum sleeping so can hog the comp. but thn again...im hungry. maybe eat tidbits ba...and grow much fatter thn i am NOW. *lmfao*

Thank You

yea...tests is next next wk. die le. still haven study! and lots of things to rmrbr leh. *sigh* my fault lor. beginning don wan to study. haiz..siao liao. later go test siao siao le. die lah, die lah. sianz...

all right. next wk no gems cuz the lecturer said finish teaching liao. cuz test is onlie 2 topics. haha! aniting lah cher...but shd be i stayback till 5.30pm ba cuz if i go hm also, no use. sit at hm for nothing. cannot play comp. tat idiot monkey surely play wan. and speaking of which...

she actually go and create an account! as in comp acc! idiot. wan to act wad?! and the thing is my dad didnt sae anything leh!!! rubbish sia...later she go save stuffs inside and the comp will hang. she whr got noe limits wan?! virus virus lor. big big lor. later crash thn my things all gone, she die le. stoopid. think she so mature liao?! go and die lah u!

c c?! everytime blog surely got things to sae abt her. i buay tahan wif her already lah. crazy! i can go crazy le. i wan to buy my own laptop le! haiz...thn later if she go and play while im nt at hm how?! she whr got noe limits wan?! nt accusing her or anything but she does all these before. go in my room without permission is one thing. TAKING STUFFS WITHOUT PERMISSION IS ANOTHER THING! permission pls. u don noe wad is respect is it?! haiz...i noe shes my sister must tolerate. but i cannot lah.

all right lah. later cannot sleep. thn tml someone or rather someTWO will sae i sulk. haha! if ur reading this, u noe who u r...

all right. these days, i keep sleeping le. come 9pm, sleep. thn wake up 12-1am like tat. siao liao. so tired. thn my mother also red-eye le. yea she didnt sae nowadays but in her heart surely boiling le. waah! my eng verrie the nice horz! terrible terrible. but my blog nvm. MY BLOG. ITS MY BLOG.

later start sch @ 9am finish @ 12pm. go hm le. go hm le. finish up all my unsettled stuffs. thn wan to sleep, go sleep. thn at night do something meaningful.

waah! 2.07am liao. tml surely sleepy again. my fault again lor. who told me to sleep just now?! serve me rite...

all right le. i tink stop here ba...tml maybe blog again since its fridae...sat...sun. wadever rubbish lah!

ok...morningz morningz!

Thank You