Saturday, December 24, 2005 • 3:56:00 AM
I hate myself or shd i hate the ppl out thr?! yea i hate both! im totally oblivious to everything. i just found out lotz abt people tat i don noe. practically everyday see them but don noe wads happening. well, maybe also cuz they don share stuffs wif me. and who noes, in the process i offend them?! well, u ppl don tell me anything. thn later when i offend u, sae i heck care and hao lian and stuffs. wad is tis?! just cuz im the minority so everything shd nt be shared among us?! fine maybe its myself. my own self. i gave tat heck care attitude.
i wanna be known. i wan myself to be someone whom everyone can trust. and nt avoid. serious! i wan friends. i wan ppl i can share laughter wif everyday and not once in awhile. if tats the case, ive got lotz! come one, tok to me! im here. don care who i am. wad race i am. wad religion i am. tok to me! this is singapore for god sake! don keep to urself! i hate this. i hate myself. y cant i be friendly?! y cant ppl treat me as a frend?! im a human. i yearn to have friends. pls! don avoid me. i cant stand it. don give me tat attitude. pls! i beg u!!!
yea. after knowing abt LOTZ of stuffs, tis is how i feel. i feel like im among strangers. im alone. thr is no such thing as friend in my dictionary. what is this? i am human too. pls. im begging you.
went out yester but not gonna sae it. yea. felt vrrie happie and free but not now. not after this. just telling it some other time. tml im going chalet. fam chalet. i wanna go. my mum said yar, i go myself. make sure i can go. don stop me. i need fresh air! i need to c my relatives whom i c onie once in a blue moon. i don care what probs u hv. just don stop me. im a human. im onie human. pls! im begging u. let me choose my own life. let me choose my own path. let me be. show concern when needed but not everything. pls people. related to me by blood anot, just pls. stop treating me like a child. even a child has more freedom thn i do. i wanna be me. pls!
Thank You
