Wednesday, January 18, 2006 • 4:26:00 PM
yea. who is the real me? i don noe myself. am i wad ppl think or otherwise? i don noe...
just now on my way to lib with
Ira (she went meet friend. don noe who and shouldnt kpo here!), talked abt it. er...cuz tml having CD lesson. Mr Ong said tat hes gonna do a char analysis on us. cant wait! or shd i not be too anxious? who noes, the real ugly truth abt myself will be revealed. *lol*
Ruzaina, you're tis bitch who goes round upsetting ppl. You're wad anyone wld fear for and wld be most thankful if u nv exist in their lives. blah3x...
all right. maybe it is true. maybe thr r ppl who doesnt wish for me to exist. i noe thr r. i mean come on! this is live. who noes? even the whole world! sheesh...i can do nothing abt it. u hate me, im so sry.
or will i hear some weird stuffs tml? i don noe. i wanna noe the real me. tats all. i tink wad my sec2 literature cher said abt me is right. im a hypocrite. yep. i admit...I ADMIT PPL! ive been a hypocrite. yes. but seriously, i tink i am. in sch im tis gd girl (esp during those pri & sec sch days!). but at hm, trust me. im tis idiot bitch! serious. i go round getting all angry over the slightest thing. tat i tink i deserve getting scolded. *sigh* tats me.
im rubbish. i don noe who am i and i wanna noe. i seriously do.
its like with some ppl, i act tis way. and with another grp, i act tat way. how hypocrite is tat?! its sickening all right? i wanna be who am i. i wanna be the real me. i don wanna act all different with different ppl. all right. wad the shit am i toking abt?
but i noe whn i was in pri 2, im tis cheeky arrogant monitress. *lol* serious! while waiting for the pe cher to come, i actually told the class to shut their mouths or ill slap their faces. sheesh! how horrible is tat? just suddenly recall abt it. *lol*
cuz whn i was in pri 1, again, im the monitress. guy chers don like me i guess. *lol* pri1, 2, 5...i am the monitress. *lol* cuz my form chers r females. don mean to BRAG but everytime meet-the-parents sessions...always got good things to say abt me. no bad thing. serious! even my parents said tat to my pri 5 cher and her answer was...but shes really a good and hardworking girl. wth!
yea. whn i was in pri 1, my form cher actually told me to slap tis guy face if he still continues wif the shitting din. *lol* maybe she didnt really mean it. maybe its just a threat to him. but wad do 7 year olds noe?! haha...and i was telling this to my pri2 classmates, sitting on a desk, cross-legged...like which bitchy old teacher who tinks shes the greatest! *lol*
but the pe cher came liao. haha! and he was giving me THIS look...and my excuse..they were so noisy. *lol* i almost shit in my shorts!!! honest!!!
ok. laugh ppl. i don care. see? im no angel. im a bitch even at pri 2. god! tats me. im bad. yea. im very bad. but who is the real me? i wanna noe. tell me ppl. how i wish tat ive wad
Ira wanted. *lol* haha! nah. she don hv it lah. duh.
as in i wnana read ppls mind. thn i can noe wad they think of me. haha! and somehow i cant stop thinking tat i will receive MANY negative thoughts abt me. haha! ppl hate me. i noe.
ok im being sadistic here. yea speaking of which..i wanna change skin. too PINK. like wad
Siti said yester. i wan something black. sadistic thing. yea. *lol*
actually found a skin but it went haywire when i added the contents. sheesh! sickening...
all right now. waiting for chi lesson to start. my frend beside me doing her assignment. yea...and here i am blogging. haha! and behind r those act-cool guys...playing games. gosh! came in like which bengs thn suddenly play don noe wad games. need armour and stuffs. and need money. cant be maple though. haha!
ok continuing wif gaiaonline. haha! my dear sister taught me. fishing game. *lol* no maple mah? so fishing lor!
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