Tuesday, February 28, 2006 • 2:20:00 AM
yep yep. haha! i noe, blogged yester but after i blogged thn saw Lisha blog. *lol* the tag game. and she placed my name first! cool lah u...*lol* anyway, for the sake of my name being tagged, ill do it. haha...here it goes.
The first player of this 'game' starts with the topic '5 Weird Facts About Yourself'', and people who get tagged need to write an entry about their 5 weird facts as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says Ýou are tagged' in their blog and tell them to read yours.
*My Weird Facts*
1) At times I think I'm weird and at times I think I'm not.
2) I am TOTALLY different when I'm among friends and when I'm with my own family.
3) I keep saying I hate myself. But compared to others, I'm better off. So i don't know why I hate myself.
4) I LOVE watching horror, gory movies. But will close my eyes with my bolster or anything I can get on once the exciting part appears. Like WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT?!!!
5)I know I've lots to type but I can't think of any right now.
*People Tagged*
Xinyi, Adillah, Widad, Sing Yee, Shu Ling, Fariz
all right now. *sigh* tats the most i can do. just randomly choose. and somehow...ive a feeling tat something bad gonna happen one of these days. nothing to do wif exams. its just me and ...
i dont noe. maybe im paranoid. but i tink if it ever happens, im gonna scream my heads off and just be direct. i cant just think of others and nt myself. ive suffered enough!!!
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Monday, February 27, 2006 • 11:37:00 PM
*sigh* cant stop myself frm going online. miss blogging. got so much to say!!!
anyway, had BSI just now. exam. its a night paper. i don noe y...but i like staying in sch at night. the latest was like 8++pm! its so cool..so peaceful! lol!!! aniwae...the new block, the science block... gonna hv like these overnight rooms. i don noe. tats wads i read and heard! but thn again, my parents let meh? my mum let meh? im nt sure abt tat though.
anyway, just now the paper, i tink im dead. the first qn already i didnt do. *sigh* well, its a parts qn and tat particular qn was like 6-8 marks. anyway, yea. pathetic me.
this thur is BM. tink gonna chiong study. really man. my last paper. gonna like put in lotz of efforts. to make up or something. i don noe. but shd be ba...
i wanna work! hope Fullmark wans me and
Sam back. Haha!!!
lets pray hard together, Sam!!!all right now. i tink tats it ba...my dad like done le. haiz...gotta go.
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Thursday, February 23, 2006 • 3:45:00 AM
all right now. im done wif maple. gonna continue..maybe on fri night which is sat morning. tat is if i can. or worst...or better...i don noe wad im rambling abt rite now. aniway, yep. maybe also on thurs night which is fri morning. tat is next wk. ok wadever.
im left to hunt for 250 cursed dolls. im tired now and wanna watch tv. haha! tats y i stayed up late. i liked chi dhows after midnite. its always cool. esp those on sunday mornings. abt ghosts. but these days, no lah. more on betrayal and affairs. haha! anyway...yep. stopping mapling now. my eyes had enough of staring into the comp screen. my degree gone up le. still haven check. my mum said somewhere in feb. but wth! i don care! check anot...c? my sis is more impt thn me. but thn again, i SELDOM wear specs so tats y. and the best thing is my parents esp my mum kept telling ppl...nah. ppl and my sis tat im a gd eg since my degree nv goes up. as for her, muahaha! who told her to wear specs everytime?
serve u rite!!!she actually used to think tat wearing specs is COOL!!! haha..tats y she wanna wear everytime. idiot!!!
anyway, done le. enough of comp. i don wanna wear thick specs.
morning ppl!!!
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• 1:21:00 AM
yep. here i am. mapling and watching cold case at the same time. though im like more to mapling. 80-20. haha!!! im killing zombie lupins now till im lvl 50 or something. tats wad my cuzin had said. yep.
but my middle finger hurts. erm...nt EXACTLY the finger but the wrist part. all right. im hopeless wif body parts. so pardon me for tis. but anyway, yea. tat part hurts.
just now tries chicken bento set. yucks!!! the rice is nt wad is always being described in japan hour. its hard and sticky. yep. no its nt even sticky. its plain HARD. like wth!!! and the sauce, omg!!! yucks! and the so-called miso soup. YUCKS! *lol* horrible!
and im nv gonna eat it again. actually wanted to try tis egg wif chicken cubes in it. but im afraid. cuz the last time, ive tried tis omelette sushi. and the egg was horrible! like they ran out of salt and used sugar instead! *sigh* so didnt try.
but
Setay bought another dish wif egg too. and rice under it. and the chicken in pieces. but its still the same idea. ok lah! i mean...if i was really hungry, i cld hv eat it. but nah! its sweet but nt the egg itself. its cuz of the sauce in the dish. so yep. but yucky experience for me.
maybe my dreams of going to japan is gone. cant tink of the word. but yep. its gone. maybe go thr shop around can lah. but staying thr and adapting to the food. im not so sure. *lol*
so its not nice. well..maybe its tat shop only. but if those norm jap restaurant its nicer. i don noe.
thn ate ice-cream.
Setay bought hers @ $1 but mine was $2.20. like wtf!!!
i don care! ate it already. ok going mapling. thn later i continue. cuz the maple now cant on stand-by mode for too long.
...
all right. back! yep. haha! my cuzin said was right. or maybe im just...nvm! i just lvled up the day b4. or the day b4 yester. aniwae...and now im like 40+% exp! cool!!! but my pure water running out. sheesh! haiz...
aniwae...don tink ill be blogging at least until thurs. i don noe. cuz im having exams. and im trying to refrain myself frm playing. i don noe. i tok big only. yep. tats me.
so lets c first yar? and i haven start studying. and i didnt go for religioug classes for like so many days liao. *sigh* im a bad girl.
ok. nothing to ramble abt now.
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006 • 7:46:00 AM
all right now. i managed to crack my brains and place the song in my bloggie. but not the full song lah! its just a midi of it. *sigh* but nvm. i like tat song. so touching and cool. *lol*
anyway, i got tis personality thingy frm
Shu blog. so decided to try it out myself.
Yep Shu!!! It was me. Blah. *lol*Anyway, ppl...do try it. Erm...as in...do it. Haha! Wadever it is. Pretty pls?! Im so obsess wif all these personality stuffs.
*lol*
Gonna place it in my profile. The link. And here too, as an intro. Haha!!!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=angelajai_METhank You
Monday, February 20, 2006 • 9:18:00 PM
haha...after mugging, thn slacking. *lol* but not slack all the way lah. by thurs i must start! BM and BSI verrie theory-wised. lots of contents. so yep.
but say only. tok big act small. *lol*
anyway, had IT test todae. i tink i died. i just died. yep. and frontpage...i was the lowest in the class. shd be ba...its like im at the top and i got 57. but wad do i care? i noe im dead. so thr.
and IT tests were hilarious!
my first uncle is here toking wif my parents. cool. missed relatives coming to my hse. like suddenly i hv lotz of freedom. cool. ok wad am i crapping.
anyway, just wanna drop by and blog. though nothing really happens today.
yep. nothng really happen todae so no point blogging. im going off now. mapling again. haha! me left <10% to lvl up!!! yep...
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Saturday, February 18, 2006 • 4:05:00 AM
hi hi ppl. yea. like kinda long i nv blog. ive tests. sheesh! ect...i don noe. reallie. i just hopw i can pass and nt repeat. i don wanna repeat, esp ect!!! OMG?!
law...like ok leh. but still must not be confident. i pass...>60, happy already. but...after wad happened last term test for law, i don dare hv high hopes anymore. tat test, i tot it was easy and i cld easily get >60!!! but wth?! i didnt even get 55 though i passed. like hello?!
tats y im nv confident in everything i do. its always 50/50. pathetic shit.
so yep. tats my tests days. thn on wed. haha! gems...tot start @ 1.55pm. cuz the lecturer said its divided into 2 shifts. thn
Helen told me tat
Felix told her tat its @ 1pm. so thr u go. and i rushed thr. and in the process, didnt bring my notes to study. i didnt even study for it. like wth!!! thn in class shared notes with
Helen and tats it.
and we kinda copied. so yea. no big deal though. i tink lotz copied. haha!!! i mean thrs lotz of laughters and deliberate coughs and nudges and whole gang leaving together and grinning frm ear to ear. isnt it like obvious?! like DUH.
tats the last gems lesson for tat gem module tat i took. ok wad the shit am i toking abt?! nvm...
after tat, thrs chi test. haha...tis one another wan. i don noe. the strokes i anyhow write. haha!!! just hope it wont turn out to be bad words or something. the lecturer will hack me!
so tats tests day.
thn just now. no! yester, had last revision IT test. i had wanted to stay back to revise with Ira cuz we kinda discussed abt it since weeks ago. but i was lazy and no mood and hungry. so skipped. thn me and
Ira went JEC drank the milkshake. she said not so nice as compared to the last time wans. ive nv tried b4 so thr u go. i was like...anything lah. can lah! *lol* if it was like any other day, maybe we wld hv gone hm late. like 6+pm or something. but nah! cuz my grandma is sick again. shes really like sick. so hv to visit her. so yep. *sigh* i just hope she gets better though...
nvm thn. thn later in the afternoon my mother said she wans to visit again. thn now its like 4.11am! nv sleep. how? nvm. tml at my grandma hse, actually my aunt hse but..NVM. can sleep. haha! anything ba...
and of course, ive changed the skin. cuz the last wan, the picture has extinct. *lol* so i changed to tis depressing wan. abt...LOVE. *lol* vdae mah!!! haha...
and speaking of which, yea. ive created a new diary. erm...blog? ok wadever it is. and no one can know abt it cept for god and me. yep.
im so sry guys but just need to express myself. maybe if one day, ill find it all ridiculous, just like now whn i read back my sec sch diaries...*lol* so ridiculous! *lol*
and i still rmrbr wad my sec 2 form cher said.
"keep a diary and over the years, you'll c how ur eng has improved."
and it did!! last time, my eng so rubbishy! *lol*
all right now. my eyes drooping already!
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Saturday, February 11, 2006 • 5:01:00 AM
read one of my frends blog. realised tat..yea. happening to me too. i cant really say out my feelings. i noe. blog is something like a diary cept tat ppl can c. like wth!
i tink im gonna create another one, be it xanga or blogger or wadever thr is...and thrs whn ill pour out everything. mentioned names tat has affected me. i don care! and no one can c. i don care. unless ur some psychic...wadever the spelling is...too bad. u cant read. period.
realised too tat i still hv some feelings, anger, hatred...deep in me. i need to let it all out but to who? frends? well yea. but no one knoews my deepest secrets. to tis blog? no! ill be condemned. all right. wadever it is.
im so gonna create another one. i don care! but whn? i don noe. maybe during the start of hols? beginning of a new term? my 2nd yr? if i ever reach thr.
speaking of which, hv nt studied. nope. told myself to study todae but nope. left sat and sun and mon. how can? ect leh! lotz of COMPLICATED, OUT OF THE WORLD DRAWINGS!!! OMG?
yea. omg?
*sigh* my resolution. they r all rubbish! i don hv the determination. wth!!!
i tok big, act small. yea. im tat kinda person. if u even understand tat.
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Friday, February 10, 2006 • 1:09:00 AM
later..i don noe wad time though...its the o level results! yep...so those who sat for o lvls last yr, gd luck to u yar?!!!
i still remembered my days back thn. was slacking and hecking care real hard. onlie studied after prelims. yea..got scolded and sounded by Mrs Whelan. haiz...she hates me i guess. cuz of my terrible results. *sigh*
even days b4 the results, i wasnt scared or anything. even on tat day itself. well, don mean to brag but...still. though i cldnt sleep the night b4. i tink so. so recollection wadsoever.
anyway, yea. met
Lala under my block. supposed to meet
Siti too, but nah. don noe wad happens. oh yea! she was LATE. as usual. and me and
Lala decided nt to wait for her. but in the end, we met @ the traffic light. and thr we go, the 3 musketeers! *lol*
Miss Tan lah!!! our beloved maths teacher.
thn we sat down in the hall. most r really anxious and started chattering away. haha! thn the
Ms Cheah gave us the overview. the summary of how we had done. she said its bad. eng, onlie 60+% passed. yep. everyone was gasping! yea. for our batch, eng was a nightmare!!! so whn we heard only 60+% passed, we felt like its over. physics, 100% passed. and
Lala joked tat cuz i dropped.
EVIL!!!aniwae, yea. i thought of tat too. i mean wad if i didnt drop it ? and wad will happen? 99+% passed? cuz of tis one failure and tats gonna be me? yea. cuz my prelim..omg! it was as though, i didnt do anything to the paper. every page less thn 4 marks!!! so how?!
thn the result time. we lined up according to register numbers. i was 15. yep. i tink i was 15 or issit 16? nah!!! sec sch, im always 15 or 16. its always like tat. thn now poly...1st!!! HAHA...
aniwae, yea. i still remembered. Julie. the girl b4 me. her results was superb! and she was in tears of joy of course! she took the longest whn collecting result.
and thn it was me. i was shaking. suddenly i was shaking. i just took wadever tat was given to me without looking at it. i don care. though
Mrs Whelan knew frm tis list. she didnt comment wadsoever. and she called me wrongly. omg!!! tat goes to show shes nt sincere. but wad to do? she don like me. oh well...
thn had to write our particulars in tis sticker. i wasted 2 stickers and she saw it and still can scold me!!! like WTF!!! she hates me u see...tats y!
thn i went right to the back of the line. and c my result. i saw A and B and C. just glanced thru. they didnt include our aggregates. so hv to calculate ourselves. i asked
Esther to calculate my lowest point. she said 18. and i asked her. R5 issit? and she said yes. omg! it got me!!! i was jumping like mad! everyone looked.
Yanti approached and i was still jumping. until...
Syed counted for me. and he said its the R4. wad the...i suddenly felt like a fool. omg! cant go jc by 1 point. oh shucks! hv told myself tat jc for me is whn i get 15 and below for R5. cuz i don wan like just made it kinda thing. im gonna struggle!
like even now, my frends who got like <15,>15?!!! so yea.
thn
Siti came. and we compared. tat was whn i really c my grades. cant believe i passed my eng! haha...wokay.
thn its
Lala. though she passed, but shes sad. but its ok now. just tat maybe she didnt expect to get wad she got. but its ok now.
ok right, Lala?thn we stayed at the canteen. i had wanted to tell
Miss Tan abt my maths. my A Maths!!! F9 straight since sec 3. thn suddenly B4!!! haha...so shocked! but didnt manage to tok to her so yea. and Siti got a call frm her dad and her parents gonna buy for her a new hp. haiz...so cool...but she dserved it lah. shes been stuck wif tat old model for so long. *lol*
thn we took the same path to go hm since sec3. send
Lala to the bustop first. while waiting, i called my pri sch frend,
Zakiah. haha!!! her results. no need to sae lah!!! so high!!! *sigh*
thn sent
Siti to the 962 bustop just in front of my block.
thn reached hm. my mum was happy and satisfied tat i passed. my dad called and happy too. if nt, i tink my mum wont. cuz she had wanted me to go jc. saying poly is not good. wad the...yea. i don agree. in fact, poly is now more popular! but i tink cuz of my mid-yr and prelim results...thn she lowered her expectations. so yea.
and here i am now. in SP. property dev & facilites mngt. *sigh* did i regret? cuz i kinda like struggling here too. but maybe cuz i didnt study. but like..the main topic is like so dull. i mean totally nt wad i wld expect to study. abt buildings. the structures and all. i tink nt.
maybe now i shd just accept wadever im facing now and just do my best.
tests is next wk and still haven start. C?!!!
gonna start tml. my mum just now told me to start. didnt wanna tell her but todae i no sch cuz todae is study day. tml too. so no choice. anyway, gonna start. i don wanna repeat. waste time and money!
btw, HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO SUDRIYANTI!!! though its over but just one day only. Thank You
Wednesday, February 08, 2006 • 9:51:00 PM
PEOPLE DONT START SWEARING AT ME!!!
i don noe. i logged on just now, maple got patch so yea. but thrs tis new thing, called nProtect GameMon...wadever. i dont noe. aniwae, yep. thn i was shifting frm mapling to webbies and again. as usual. thn suddenly, my frend send me a pm. told me to click on tis webbie. got her pic and me together. so i did. and everything went haywire!!! OMG!!!
serious!
Jiang Yao,
Sing Yee and
Zhen An thn asked me. OMG!!! but i tink they ok le. i mean they didnt click. i hope so. i don noe. cuz once i clicked tat link, automatically the msn pm everyone online. like wad the HELL!!! OMG...tis wk is reallie bad for me. first tat murder-turned-out-unnatural death. thn now tis!!! like...OMG?!!!
anyway people who r online, im really so sorry abt tat link thing. i didnt know...
*sigh* cant help it. im paranoid so yea. omg...i reallie3x hope nothing happens to their comp. serious!!!!
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006 • 8:05:00 AM
*sigh* here i am in sch for IT lesson. last wk, during make-up class, the mr patrick said test may be todae. sianz...but wad do i care?! i didnt study...aniwae, wadever it is...
yea. came to sch wif ex-schmates.
Hazmi and
Izzat. haha! yea.
Hazmi was like calling me and i actually tot hes which APEK asking fo direction. haha!!!
thn blah3x. they were toking and laughing and intro me wif tis indian comedian-russell peter. or something. i don noe. check it out later at hm ba...
aniwae yea. toking and making fun of
Hazmi for being slow...haha! and desperate for a romantic valentine wif his gf. wth!!! and didnt even noe whr mount faber is. haha!
ok the lecturer next door has wrote on the board. test is next mondae! wth!!! sianz... afternoon somemore! seems like cant study last min le. actually onie tue and thur got tests. but wed for mie, chi and gems test. thn now mon also got IT test.
ok...wth! c wrongly. its next next mondae. 20/2. haiz...nvm. but still nope. cannot study last min, esp for ect. i need the marks. i calculated and roughly if i wanna pass, need 60+ marks for tis test. HOW?!!!
all right noe. maybe end here ba. more ppl r coming in. *sigh*
if nt lazy, tonite update again. tat is...if got anything tot ok abt.
mentioned something but deleted it le. haiz...im nt tat brave to express my thoughts.
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Monday, February 06, 2006 • 9:29:00 PM
yea. didja ppl listen to the news?! shocking sia...aniwae...
went to sch as usual. yea. nothing much to report. so sianz. just tat during BSI,
Xinyi taught me and
Ira mandarin!!! *lol* well, she started off wif asking me to write her the sentences tat the mrt ppl said when the train approaches. in MALAY! yea...she noes how to sae but not write so yea. aniwae. i myself didnt noe whr to start. and
Xinyi just said it out. OMG!!! *lol* im so ashamed here...
yea. so thr u go. my dae at sch. nothing fun. nothing extraordinary. just typical. cept tat i was the first to arrive for law lecture. i arrived and the lecturer also arrived. *lol* so i was early...AS USUAL.
my mum told me to go hm straight cuz she wanted to visit my grandma and my sis got cca until 5.30pm. so yea. told me to go hm straight. thn after i finished sch, called her and she said, my sis don wanna go and tat both of them going to visit my granny. HAIZ...
thn i said im going but halfway in the train, i wanna go hm. put bag and some urgent stuffs. so called my mum. and she was like fussing over!!! sheesh!!! haiz...
thn i reached hm le, called her. and she said just now got a murder in the next block. just opp our kitchen. WTH!!! and i just suddenly wanted to go. i was paranoid...serious! till whn i reached hm, my dad made me drink water. er...malay...er...don noe how to explain.
yea. thn came straight to hosp. i was still paranoid! even tot of seeing blood patch on the ground. sheesh! tats how paranoid i am!
my mum said she saw lotz of police cars, reporters and those csi ppl. haha! CSI!!!
thn reached hosp liao. thn blah3x. thn skali @ hm, watching the malay news...haiz. tink too much. turned out tis staff sergent..er...found dead with a gunshot on his head, slumped on the chair in the study room with the gun on his belly. don noe wad happen. the police stated tis as an unnatural death case. ok.
i felt relieved. tot really a murder or something. like cut-up bosy parts. scary u noe! just opp the kitchen!
aniwae, i sympathise wif the family.
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Saturday, February 04, 2006 • 12:58:00 AM
*sigh* i hate myself. i wan my own identity. i don wan to be diff with him, thn wif her and thn wif him and thn wif her. wth is wrong wif me?!
i just want to be myself. just myself. no one else. like if im wif tis person, im different as compared to when im wif another person. i noe ive repeated tis before. *sigh*
i wan my own identity. i wan to be unique. i hv my own taste. but...
but...
but circumstances dont allow it to happen. *SIGH*
all right now. tests is coming up in 2 wks, and ive still nt touch a thing. serious. i got 2 assignments in hand. one is ect and the other...ect too. a report and tut. haiz...
the report, whn wanna do? i don noe. both by tues. i hv to start studying. serious. its like...tis my final try in yr one. tis will so-called determine whether ill be promoted to yr 2 anot. i don wanna stay back. the $$$. one yr...$2000+ leh. i tink. though its deducted frm my dad cpf...but still...its money u noe. cpf is for retirement. yea.
don tell me ive matured cuz i don tink i am. im still as childish. im still a kid. i still whine. i still sulk over the slightest thing. im still a kid. though ive passed the 17th yr of my life.
im supposed to be mature, but im not. ive not even found my own identity, much less being matured.
OH PLEASE!
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 • 2:55:00 PM
*lol* im so happie! yester finally watched Memoirs of a Geisha wif
Liy. Cool!
hey you two, i watched le!!! muahaha...aniwae...yea. saw it. nice lah! the storyline verrie touching. cool. but i don like the ending, just like wad
Lisha and
Siti said. Yea...to me, too abrupt lah. like suddenly her hope came true. wth?! *lol* but heard the book version nicer, so i wanna read it. yea. in sec 2, the book was passed arnd the class but it nv got to mie. *sigh*
yea. and hv to agree wif the both of them again. I tink Gong Li more beautiful. wads her name again? the char? Hanamomo issit? *lol* Zhang Ziyi is just pretty lah. those cute girl. cuz shes young. pretty and innocent. its her eyes of course! Gong Li is beautiful and...er...very...er...seductive? *lol* cool. yea. and the main char...it was at first Chiyo, thn Sayuri thn Nitta Sayuri. *lol* but she lost her virginity to someone else...er...haha! am i being a spoiler here? all right ill keep quiet. *lol*
but i wanna tok!!! maybe...hm...highlight. use a diff colour font? haha!!! or maybe ill...ok. those who don wan to noe, just scroll right to the bottom. the paras in different colour r spoilers. BEWARE!
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ok. i don tink got spoiler lah. haha! yea...aiyah! just tok. those who don reallie wanna noe anything, just don read tis post! stop here...*lol* ill just sae wad i want!
yea. this term..miza-don noe wad...at first i was like...wth is tat?
Liy also asked me. thn that Michelle Yeo char...forgot her name...explained. *lol* got eels and caves...haha! thn it suddenly struck me. HAHA!!! yea..im slow. i noe. im innocent nonsense, yar?
and got tis another term,
danna...i tink is the first partner or some sugar daddy or important client or something. wadever lah.
and yep. hv to agree wif
Lisha and
Siti, yet again! the guy is too old for her! gosh! they shd take some younger looking guys who r actually old. *lol* but no choice mah...she likes him since she was young. so now tat she grows up, hes more older. haha!
love knows no bounderies...quoted by....SOMEONE!!!
*lol* u shd noe who u r...if ur even reading tis! haha...wokays. todae im at hm cuz i went hm and didnt stay in sch. no gems. thn im verrie tired. didnt wan to go sch actually but my mum forced me to. yester night, my grandma felt really sick. everyone was frantically calling each other and all the siblings came. but once everyone was thr, she was okay le. can sit. yea. and just now, my aunt said shes fine. so yea. thank god.
yea. so yester went back...reached hm @ 2am. tats y tired. i was standing up and leaning by the side in the mrt just now, on my way to sch. usually at tat time, got lotz of seats wan. but don noe y...maybe after hols.
tml is 9.30am. cld be @ 1pm but got make-up class. haiz...at business block somemore! and share class wif business class somemore. haiz...got space meh? we ll c tml.
going off @ 4.30pm. yea...haiz....now. all my fam members r sleeping. *sigh* i wanna sleep but no time mah! its 3.13pm liao. i sleep..less thn an hr, whr got enough? *sigh* so login lor! maple...haha!!!
study lah u!!!
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