Tuesday, June 06, 2006 • 12:01:00 PM
i'm back after a LONG...*sigh* tests. don talk abt it. i noe i'm doom. seriosuly. study only at the last min. on tat day itself. the day b4, tat one also a bit. and didn't go inside my head. haiz. what is gonna happen to me?
now. thr's e-learning wk. sheesh! i went yest, and some modules haven load up yet. shit. thn my slot is on wed. some comp timetable. but wed, which is tml, hv to send my mum for her dressing. haiz. i'm so tired.
i don wan tis life. i wan my old life back. i can do wad i wan. i'm seriously tired. morining wake up, nd to go market buy food and stuffs. thn come back must cook. thn afternoon somtimes slack, sometimes don noe do wad. only at night i can rest and watch tv. but if got visitors, like my aunts and stuffs, NO! i can't sit down and rest abit. come on! got TWO daughters leh. at least my sis can help carry drinks or do simple stuffs. but NO! she only noe how to act cute in front of everyone! sheesh! i can die just like tat!
i'm reallie tired. what's the definition for HOLIDAY? to rest. but NO! got so many hws! project. grp work. and actually yest i was planning to go sch but i can't get out of the hse. nd to look after my mum mah. haiz. i don noe wad to feel reallie. tired. yea. sad. yea.
i just hope i won't break down.
i cried the last time. after my last test. i was supposed to go hm and buy stuffs. and whatever i do? WRONG! wrong veg, wrong cup, wrong EVERYTHING! WRONG. WRONG. WRONG.
haiz.
i can only grit my teeth. my heart has turned black. i tink it's rotting. from the day i was born till now. serious. i'm not kidding.
haiz.
i don't know what else to say. don't feel sympathy for me. don't.
Thank You
