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I'm gonna hit this city

Ruzaina
21 and FOREVER 18
Working + Slacking

You build me up
Crime Novels (eg. Micheal Connelly, Paul Johnston, J.D. Robb)
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HUGE Stuffed Toys
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Sunday, July 30, 2006 • 1:02:00 AM
harlow ppl! i'm typing on this laptop. npe nt mine the buttons like 3D sia!!! like coming out effect. anyway, staying over @ my cousin's hse here somewhr near bishan-new hm. cool!!! the living rm spacious. thn the younger cousin's rm cool! bright! *lol*

thn got this car as a bed. haha! cool lah! but here i am @ the older cousin's rm. cuz the laptop nd to be recharged every one hr. so this rm is like the comp rm. whatever tat's suppose to mean. anyway, he's blasting the air!!! and i'm freezing here. haiz. nvm. i really can't take it, i'm going to get out and sleep.

haha..what am i doing here/ i mapled just now thn decided to blog thn maybe going back maple. it's 1.02 am now. *sigh* scared if sleep late, thn tml nv wake up to go hm. haha! tis nt my hse anyway. haha...so cant sleep late like i used to. i actually tot of staying over till monday morn, to which i straight go sch but my sis wanted to follow and i suppose my parents won't allow it lah!

anyway, told my sis that tml whn we go hm, we eat at Bk first. i got the coupons. $4.10 per meal. but single burgers lah. nt those double layers whatever...

i mean Bk's meal very EX!!! i can just go broke by eating it anytime. mac is catching up so i'm like avoiding these 2 restaurants. haha...mac if wanna eat go sch eat. nah! just ate double cheese on fri b4 gems and nuggets meal on wed after sch, shared wif liy.

i wanna buy a laptop! serious! let's c now...

1) Laptop wif bluetooth, card reader, read both dvd and cd, burn cd, at least 80gig space, fast ddram...erm..i blur abt tat.

2) Handphone. I tot of buying Z530i, even asked Jialing. but thn again...haiz. but i wan a hp with good music player (so no nd mp3), good cam, fliphone or slide or whatever, like maybe nice cute shape like 7610, but preferbaly (is tat how u spell it? eng sux here...) a fliphone. tat's y i want Z530i! and of course! expandable memory, since it's for the mp3 player function.

3)i seriously nd clothes! haha...hv to buy jeans le...

4) maybe a new dicsman since my current one is like...spoilt. -_-" had it wif me since 8 yrs ago, after shifted hse. my first ever. haha!

5) i wan shoes! sandals, sneakers...u name it!

tats all i guess FOR NOW!

haiz. going bck maple so maybe can sleep earlier and b4 i freeze to death.

Thank You

Thursday, July 27, 2006 • 5:05:00 PM
is that how to spell it? anyway...

tests in 2 wks. exams in 3 wks. yep. thr's a different in both test and exams, though now i c like no difference. but whatever it is, in 2wks? haiz. and i still have start. nt gonna get BAD marks again. but...*sigh* NATO.

*lol* i JUST learnt. as in i just heard it. haha! slow. yea. slow.

No Action Talk Only-NATO.

ok enough.

anyway, today...nothing much. this week kinda lst topic for at least...pmm and cont pro. and acc too. issit? don noe lah! anyway, tml is ct.

no! not u SETAY!

yep. and tml jean's going thru the last topic and revise abit. so any qns...to be asked. and next wk is open to all those with further qns. yep. haiz and i haven read thru all the notes. *sigh*

anyway, i'm gonna find a job during the hols cuz wanna buy new hp. i wanna buy tat Z530i. asked Jialing, she said her frend selling $200+. which i tink cheap. i mean tat hp kind of last mth or so came out. and it's a walkman phone. flip. so now i'm thinking issit cuz tat hp not gd sice the price kind of cheap? nvm...no money no talk.

my mum's back. but she went go c my cousin wif my sis too and my aunt. haiz. nv tell me! if nt, i can go to!!! so i came hm to an empty hse. and it didnt help tat it's raining heavily! it was so DARK!

all right. done blogging.

signing off. =)

and...

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO DEAR KHALISAH!!! YAY! YOU OLD ALREADY! COME WE GO WATCH M18 MOVIES AND LET SETAY WAIT OUTSIDE!!! =)

Thank You

Wednesday, July 26, 2006 • 4:39:00 PM
it's just another day that i've gone through...this time i'm sure i'll know you...place my bets on all the jacks and queens...the probability being that it seems...

*sigh* yea. my favourite cd...GONE. *sigh* wan to buy a new one also can't. no more stock and no way am i gonna waste my money on ordering. haiz.

haiz. i was in a good mood to blog but that BITCH just ruined it.

so done for today.

Thank You

Monday, July 24, 2006 • 7:22:00 PM
yea. i'm bored but wanna blog more. so tis is what i've found. time for my personality stuffs!!!

Taurus (frm email)
You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will set you, so when you do lose your cool, people dont know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you've made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.

oo! beware ppl! i'll just explode to the 1 st person who consoles me. *lol*

Thank You

• 6:19:00 PM
*sigh*

i'm so sad cuz she didn't wan to listen to me and now...c?!! haiz...

now my life back to last time, abt 2 mths ago. haiz. come back to an empty hse cept for my sis maybe. thn hv to cook and stuffs. but todae, me and my sis going to vista to eat cuz the cicken haven unfroze YET.

anyway, nothing much. cept that yest my aunt said MAYBE thr's gonna be another wedding. haha! still got one more girl b4 me. well, actually it's the elder sis of the one maybe gonna get married. yea. don noe lah. don wan to assume. later wrong-die.

anyway, i wanna work. i nd money! serious. but can't. haiz.

all right now. gonna pay more attention to music. haha! maybe shd listen to radio. at least the mainstream. so using youtube. anyway...haiz.

all right now. confirm later go vista.

and blah3x.

i wan to blog but ran out of ideas to write. so i guess tat's it for todae. *lol*

Thank You

Wednesday, July 19, 2006 • 1:46:00 AM
I HATE YOU RUZAINA.











































































































i hate myself for lying to myself.

Thank You

Tuesday, July 18, 2006 • 8:07:00 PM
my hp bill has increased!!! from a mere $38 like tat to $45 last mth. and this mth, just got it just got it 5 mins ago, $57!!! OMFG!!!

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what is happening to me?! shd i realli cancel off the colour-me-tones? but like used to it leh. haiz. my msg is arnd average le. at least less thn 600. well, i gave myself a limit of 650 per mth so no prob wif that. it's my gprs!!! i must hv used it very long le! HAIZ...last time i can't sleep so i used it. thn shd be very long. *sigh* $15!!! haha!!! yea...haiz. don noe lah.

thn my colour-me-tones usually it's $4.20. but thsi one suddenly got bundle and sub?! like wth?! i only changed once a mth. as in thr's free bundle. but sub?! huh? i nv change after tat lor. don noe lah. haiz. die. $57. how? i just withdrew $20 just now. haiz. if i pay full, thn i'll be left with nothing till next mth. now is only the 18th. thr's like 13 more days. well, if sat and sun i nv go out, it's like 11 days. but usually i get my allowance like on the 2nd or 3 rd day of the mth. and who knows i spent more on certain days. so...give and take...15 days ba.

$20/15= $1.30

$1.30 per day?!!! wth!!! thn on some days i eat fruits. but how can TAHAN? most of the days i finished @ 5pm. haiz. bring food frm hm? no time to prepare. and don noe wad to prepare. haiz. drinks? start bringing drinks frm hm? yea. but i don like plain water. haiz. just bring like drinks frm hm. the thing here is FROM HOME!

haiz. yea. maybe shd start le. from tml!!! gosh! tml don eat? hmm...tml is wed. wed go hm @ 12pm but SHD BE my grp taking photos outside for our proj due on fri. yea. haiz. so if i don eat on wed, tat'll be like...3 weds? no! make it 1 wed. so $1.30 saved. thn on fri also i no nd eat cuz having gems @ 1pm unti 3pm and straight go hm. hmm...so that'll be like 2 fris. and tat'll be $2.60 saved. so altogether $3.90 saved.

so...instead of 15 days, it'll be 12 days. 20/12=$1.60

like no difference leh?! 30cents?!!!

haiz. this one nt pri/se sch leh. food all ex one. haiz. can die le! i buy food alone cost $2. or $1.50 but less variety. HOW?!!!

NO!!! i just rmrbed i used my $20 just now. so now left with $17!!! OMG!!!

$17/12=$1.40

NBVFJDBHBUANSDJODSJBUFHANSUODJNDCJA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*SIGH*

i don noe. thurs and fri i don't eat. thurs buy fruits. less thn $1. fri don eat. sat and sun don go out. so tml only-eat. BUT...drinks frm hm. *sigh* pathetic le.

and i just calculated by allowance. usually got $45 (train concession) + $20 (bus) + $60 (allowance)=$125. but get $5 extra cuz my parents can't be bothered to give 5-dollar note. haha! and they say it's alot. and that's half a mth. the next half, $20 (bus) + $60 (allowance)=$80. so altogether is $130 + $80=$210

and already like this, my money not enough.

and my mum said beginning frm next mth, $200 FLAT for each mth. that's like short of $10!!! omg!!! omg!!! omg!!!

i reallie nd to budget le. my hp hv to be <$45. no allowance for that already. i'm gonna be less msging and no gprs. or whatever shit. i'm just gonna be GUAI. so i've calculated alrdy and it's like $24 (subscription) + $5 (caller-ID) + $5 (colour-me-tones, i'm not sure on this cuz they say $4.20 per mth including a free change once but thn...haiz.)=$34

but thr's still a 5% GST. so it'll be $34 * 1.05=$35.7

and i still hv like $9.30 of EXTRA smses. yep. so i hv $9.30 to do whatever else i wan. but if nv reach this limit also gd lah!!! haiz. i reallie can die!

and my mum said one day just limit to $6 per day. can't lor! $6 * 30=$180!!! and i only hv $120 of allowance. tat one also haven minus hp bill. haiz.

and i even told myself to save up at $20 per mth. haiz. HAIZ!!!

maybe shd start working but can't. my parents don't let cuz later affect studies. even now i'm not working, also everything BLUR!!! just now acc lecture, i died!!! all 3 qns posted to me i can't ans. nt even close!!! *sigh* tink the cher fed-up wif me liao.

stress!!! young age shd not think of all these. but NO!!!

am i still considered young? *lol*

young mah. 18 so what?! i'm not married. i'm not even working full-time here. hehe.

ok done. tat's it. gonna look thru the notes and redo cuz i was writing all over the place. maybe tats y i didn't understand.

-_-"

Thank You

Monday, July 17, 2006 • 7:28:00 PM
am i? i tink so. i think i am! new ppl will find me arrogant cuz i don't talk to them. but the truth is i don't know how to break the ice. i'm not one. since young, it's ppl who approach me. so yea.

those who do find me arrogant and all, sry. i don think i am. i'm just shy and blur and quiet. keep to myself when i'm arnd NEW PEOPLE. so talk to me instead. =)

and speaking of which, haha! just now in the train, i was kinda...erm...don noe. cuz tis guys standing beside the door and i'm like beside him, cuz holding the nearby pole mah. aiyah! nvnm. somewhere thr. just take it that me and the guy very near.

NO NO! nt what you think! nt i started liking him or anything. haha!!!

i was looking outside and down and just OUTSIDE. but somehow he looks familiar. i don dare look at his face. haha! i'm always like that tats y ppl find me arrogant! *lol*

so thruout kranji to dover...was like telling myself to look up to c if it's him-my mum cousin's son. to which i don noe the shortest word to describe tat. my cousin? whatever! yea. so thr i was. i hv nv talked to him b4 so yea. it's gonna be weird if suddenly said 'hi'. haha! crappy.

anyway, yea. so it was like that. later, he goes hm and starts telling his side (family members) that i'm arrogant! haiz. thn when thr's a gathering or something, everyone's gonna start calling me that and blah3x. haiz.

but think it's gonna be awhile-sep at least cuz my eldest cousin getting married thn. don noe lah. and he lives like 2 bustops away. haiz.

I AM NOT ARROGANT!!!

nvm. it's over. blame myself for being 'arrogant'. haha.

anyway, had crs presentation. i did the intro and i guess it kinda sux. cuz whn i was presenting on the statistic, THAT CHER was like making a ''oh, really.'' look. SHEESH!!!

but on the whole, she said our grp is gd. so yea. but who knows, they cld get better marks if nt cuz of me. =( haiz.

so sry for that guys. =(

so now left 4. gems considered done lah cept presentation. donnoe who's presenting.

cont pro this thurs. hope can finish by wed.

pmm this fri. and the pics little. and thn the report somemore! *sigh*

pm1 next wk. haiz.

HAIZ.

don noe what to say. and TESTS in 3 weeks. *sigh*

Thank You

Sunday, July 16, 2006 • 11:32:00 PM
omg! record broke! 2nd time i just shouted at my parents just like that! omg! i just went "Shut up lah. Go sleep!" in malay of course! but still! OMG!!!

now i scared my mum takes it too heart. after i shouted, both kept quiet. thn after 5 mins, my mum goes to sleep. though i tried to like talk to her. she did reply lah but i think she's hurting inside. haiz. haiz.

haiz. im a bad girl. this crs still stressing over it. now is the distributing part. who to say what. haiz. HAIZ.

i wanna disappear. serious. i wan to lead a peaceful life. school alrdy like tat. later work how? i'll die in the office. haha! just drop dead. not funny. and it was nv meant to be funny. -_-"

gosh! can die lah!

did i choose the wrong choice? maybe i shd go jc or m.i. or other places. i don noe.

it's not tat i don like poly life. but it's the stressing over projs. now one is ALMOST done. but still got 4 others!

can die!

and i'm really sorry for shouting to you, mum and dad. serious. didn't mean to.

Thank You

• 6:03:00 PM
yea. i hv 4 projcs now. well, crs tml presenting so yea. but Ira is struggling with it now. feel so bad i can't help much cept to do the points. she's doing all the fonts and format and all. haiz. my fault lah! don hv ppt. haiz. verrie troublesome leh!!!

anyway, today made pizza bread. but i didn't quite help my mum. lucky my sis is good todae. usually she wld just help the first baked and thn started eating and forget all abt the rest. but she was consistent just now. and me? i only helped stirred the fillings.

haiz. haiz. haiz.

i wanna disappear frm all these. i'm tired.

tml is presentation and it's an english one. so yea. but my presentation skills goes down alrdy. haiz. don noe lah. i pass can le. but...

Thank You

Thursday, July 13, 2006 • 9:56:00 PM
DA PIAN is SHIT. as in really, shit. u noe that dark-coloured thing and smells and comes out of ur...erm...ass. haha! yea. i had a BAD experience on it. GOSH! at fdcrt 1 toi thr lor! it was horrible!

went to one of the...erm...rm? anyway, the lid was closed. but it stank. i didn't know it was frm thr. so i went in and lifted up the lid. and guess what?! thr's SHIT all over the place!!! omg!!!

WHICH LADY HAS SHITTED LIKE WHICH LITTLE KID?! i tink little kid also noe how to shit properly. -_-"

improper, disgusting piece of shit i tell u! omg! and i tot tat i wanted to buy some food after tat. and it was obvious! I DIDN'T! and even when i wanted to piss, almost can't come out. -_-" tat was how bad it was! totally ruined my mood. omg!

ok enough. or i'm gonna dream abt it.

anyway, harlow. i have 5 projs in hand. can die. yes. i can die. haiz. can die. i wanna disappear. just transported to another place. and enjoy myself. *sigh*

and i met Masliyanah. my gg junior. just now on my way to sch. and i found out something. felt sad. GIRL GUIDES...wrss guides has been...done with. yes. it's gone. no more guides in wrss. how sad? i was sad. had wanted to come back to help out right after i graduated frm sec sch. the cher even told me that she will call. but no calls. and i even msged the seniors who came back and they said nope. so yea. and just now my junior told me that last yr, they had stopped seniors frm coming back cuz they don't like. -_-" thn other cca grps can?!!! wtf!!!

but i tink like nvm leh. cuz the gg thr like nothing. like BLANK. haiz. so nvm. guess i hv to stop my guiding now. but like they said, ONCE A GUIDE ALWAYS A GUIDE. so nvm. besides, i've forgottten all the drills and rules and all. haha. funny.

ok. so now doing the pm1. i nd to start off first. but i don't know what the first para is talking abt. so now asking Ira. haiz. everything she do. so kelian. haiz.

and actually did something which i should not.

sry again. really. no lah. nt angry with you but just like getting impatient cuz i really wanted to start off the proj first and don wanna waste time.

haiz. i'm bad.

anyway, haiz. 5 projs on hand. don noe how gonna survive it. but for sure, not gonna sleep late tonite. if not like last wk, came super late! 9.40am. haha!!!

haiz. i'm becoming a bad girl.

so nothing more to say. tats all i guess. lazy to recall and type it all down. haha! let me be the only one to noe what has happened the past days. =)

Thank You

Monday, July 10, 2006 • 12:20:00 PM
harlow. yest went my cousin's wedding. it was simple lah. she loked so pretty. well, all brides r pretty. and she's always pretty. *lol*

wishing you a happy married life ahead. =)

*sigh* in sch now. in the class alone. told the cher nt to lock the rm. nt hungry so didn't eat. so now maybe can start on the crs ppt. next wk presentation. wth!!! only 1 wk. and almost everyday go hm late. and at hm no ppt. CRAP.

*sigh*

that's my life. very sad. haiz. wan to go out also can't. no $$$. haiz. but shd be getting my allowance this wk or something. i wanna buy shoes first. i wanna buy sandal or something. thn next mth buy bag or something. each mth buy ONE THING. yep. i'm poor. =(

and if i ever go out, this means tat i can't buy stuff. so haiz. don noe lah. i wan hols now. i wanna work and tis time, nt gonna splurge it on many stuffs at one go. gonna save up. besides i wanna buy hp. =)

all right. later the guys come back cuz they wanna ta pao. it's luch now. many ppl.

ok. bye bye.

Thank You

Sunday, July 09, 2006 • 1:10:00 AM
yep! the weather is KILLING me. i can just PERSPIRE...just like that. -_-" even now. haiz.

anyway, friday i came late! i tink at least by half an hr. *lol* it's funny and weird lor. cuz usally i'll be AMONG THE FIRST to be thr and the class will be empty. but on fri, it so WAS NOT! i came in and ms jean was lecturing. and thr. the class was almost full! haha! shock lor. and embarassing. haha! thn when ms jean was asking who wanna go to the site visit, i didn't raise up my hand. and she ACTUALLY asked me, "ruzaina, you're not going?"

haha! i don noe how u guys interpret. i mean issit shocking that i didn't want to go? i can only laugh at that.

nvm. so fri after gems went to Xinyi's hse to do projs. kinda 3/4 for cont pro. but don noe. didn't hear any news frm the rest after that. and for pm1. don noe whether to start anot. haiz.

all right. so after that went hm wif Yanling, alighted at admiralty and bought instant noodle but i didn't eat cuz was quite full. so walked hm too. making up for the $1 i used to top up the printing thingy. yea.

and Ira scolded me for doing the ct report until 12 pages. *boohoo*

i cry u noe! =(

anyway, actually if nt yest i online but my dad lah! made a huge fuss. don noe lah! thn i just shut off the comp and went to sleep, closed the door. and woke up at 11+am. *lol*

i'm perspiring!!!

and watched sleepy hollow. haha! johnny depp. *evil laugh* he's so hot! yep yep. i've always hv a thing for PALE, cool guys. just like him in sleepy hollow and from hell. or better! any vampires with that pale look. muahaha...

crazy. period.

Thank You

Thursday, July 06, 2006 • 10:36:00 PM
haiz! i'm alrdy fed up wif this report. wreaking my brains on what to type. but still ok.

BUT THE FUCKING THING IS THE BITCH IS SCREAMING AT MY DAD BECAUSE OF HER FUCKING HW!!! like wth?! she's the one going to sch and my dad gives pointers and thr, she's screaming! haiz. who is going to sch? she or my dad? fuck her lah. she thinks she's a princess. OMFG?!

anyway, doing my ct report. i'm rearranging everything and typing all over again. haiz. but nvm. cuz the ppt we kinda did wrong. though 70%. so now trying to make up for the 30%. haiz.

anyhow, haiz. doing the report now. and blahx.

ok. maybe stop blogging today. tml thn cont. or haiz. don noe lah. cuz tml going Xinyi's hse to do all the projects we have at hand. and thn sat too. and sun maybe.

HAIZ...

Thank You

Monday, July 03, 2006 • 8:54:00 PM
haiz. the presentation just now was..haiz. don noe. the cher was like saying we did it wrongly. well, nt reallie wrong lah. just tat we focus on wrong things. but wth! end liao. and the report wif me. the cher said by this wk. so haiz. guess, hv to redo. haiz. maybe wed stay back, but thn going c movie wif Liy. haiz. c first ba.

oh yea! mbw! forgot! i got the ans now nd to work out the side cast. how to get the ans. cuz Ira emailed me hers yest. haiz. nvm. doing it later.

i seriously nd a NEW WARDROBE! i've been wearing the same piece since yr 1! gosh! and now, i'm left wif 3 pants. 1 cargo and 2 jeans. hw pathetic! and this another one cargo, but the coloyur is horrible. and i wore it b4 and i was horrible lor! it was LONG! and basically sweeping the floor. but wad i care? no clothes! haiz. maybe shd reallie start saving money for clothes. buy at least one piece a mth. but minusing off my hp bill and don noe what-gone! haiz. how?

and i calculated tat if i save $20 per mth, i'm gonna get $100 by end of yr. haiz. don noe lah. my money seems to disappear just like tat! sheesh!

i wanna work but my parents don let and besides i cant. my mum rmrbr? haiz. yea got tat idiot sis of mine. but she's of no help lor! it's like thr's only 1 daughter here.

and this morning was doing last min reserach for the ct, and don noe what happen, i got real pissed off with my dad and...mum. yea. cuz of my childhood. i just blurt it out. and they just brushed it off like that. gosh! they think it's not serious. nvm. they'll find out one day when i REALLY AM PISSED OFF.

haiz. the bad thing abt me. i keep things to myself and bottle it up. who knows one day, whn i'm really up thr, i just carry out revenges on whoever has offended me. haha! wonder what will happen thn.

and i realised, after lotz of recalling and thinking, that ppl don treat me like i treat them. they just c me as another person in their lives. tats how i feel right now. i'm just a passer-by. come and go.

all right. gonna catch my CID. haha! my qi yuwu. haha! and ivy lee. i've always liked her.

and my parents seemed bent on moving house. haiz. i can't really say anything. just agree lor. and who noes my luck changes after moving hse? i seriously nd luck now. LUCK COME TO ME!

tml nt logging in. maybe on wed. do the report also. all right. 9.01pm liao!

Thank You

Sunday, July 02, 2006 • 9:56:00 PM
*lol* today went out wif Setay and Lisha. yep. finally, after 1 mth in the hse.

met Setay at my bustop thr. thn we walked to vista. supposed to meet Lisha too but she last min say meet her thr. so thr we went. and whn we reached, we were deciding on what to eat. i chose wanton noodles while Setay chose hokkien mee. thn 5 mins or less, Lisha came. and me and Setay ordered first cuz Lisha can't make up her mind, to which she finally bought carrot cake (black).

and i was the slowest to finish eating. they were talking abt their jc life mostly so i was kinda blur. but wad the heck. just listen lor! i got nothing to say abt my poly life anyway.

so thr we were. thn we went to cwp cuz Setay wanted to eat hershey (is that how u spell it?!) and i wanted some cold food. so thr we go. bk. 3 of us ate the same thing. we didn't really talk that much. haha! ran out of topics? i was too quiet that i felt guilty!

thn Setay wanted bubble tea. GOSH! me and Lisha were rolling our eyes! haha! she eats ALOT but nv get FAT! sheesh! high metabolism. haiz.

so thr we go. she bought lychee ice blended. thn we go interchange, sat at the bench thr or whatever u call it and just slack thr. haha! mostly talk abt their jc life again and UK trip for Lisha and stuffs. so laughter and stuffs. thn quiet moments. thn talked again. haha! thn met Idhzuan wif his bball. thn blah3x. thn bye2x to him whn his bus came. and we continued our talking and quiet moments. thn thr was this moment, so long! a quiet moment. we were looking here and thr. haha! so it was like 3+ to 7pm. abt 4 hrs thr. thn decided to go hm. my mum told me didn't cook so i went to cold storage to buy instant noodles (to which my prediction came true!). Setay followed while Lisha went off first.

yep guys. maybe shd hv bought 2. haha!

so now, here i am. online doing my poly stuffs. going to do mbw cuz i don wanna drag. later ended up didnt do.

and i wanna watch scary movie 4! yep. i noe it's a lame show but wth! i wanna watch! anyone! absolutely anyone! wanna pei me watch? PLEASEEEE??????????

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Saturday, July 01, 2006 • 10:15:00 PM
yep. it's the weekend. haiz.

hmm. my 1st wk of sch? i spent 3 days in the lib comp lab. haha! doing ppt. yep. cuz my comp at hm now doesn't hv any ppt. crap! only can view. crap! haiz.

my hols? they sux BIG TIME! seriously.

the whole 3 weeks of hols?! stayed at home. just sent my mum to her appointments and done. go market and buy food. and cook. yes. cook. nope. didn't really cook those dishes. just fry here and thr. haha! that's how GOOD i am as a cooker.

Setay, Liy and some others kept asking me to go out but i can't. why? cuz i HAD to stay at hm and not leave my mum out of sight. yep. and i flared up many times! my sis lah! what's the use of having TWO daughters when only ONE is doing the work? u tell me? i'm so angry with that. and she created lotz of troubles! not doing her fucking hw and leaving it till on sunday NIGHT!!! crap! i hate her for that.

so i just mapled whenever i go online and of course do the projects in hand. but the prob is i don hv ppt so hv to wait till the rest online. and which is the days i can, they can't. and vice versa. haiz. yea. i'm troubling everyone. really sorry for that. i don noe what else to say.

haiz.

so basically my hols just sux. can't work. can't go out. haiz. so no use talking abt it.

my first week of sch. hmm.

on mon, less thn 10 came and the cher was fuming and nagging till on tue, our pt had to 'confron't' us. haha! haiz. don noe lah. her attitude just sux! she gave us 15mins grace but whn it's only 10am, she started her CRAP! she's crappy. haiz. and we r suppose to present our ct project that day. but most hv not finish. haha! so the chers gave us another 1 wk. for now, my grp has done the ppt. maybe abit touch-up but so far, done lah. the report. with Yanling and Xinyi. supposedly i do but nah. nvm. it's all over the place. so our strategy is do and pass. haha! didn't get any marks.

on tue, yep. first paper! acc! i was telling myself that i'm gonna fail but nope. haha! just passed by 2 marks. how lucky? anyway, it was still horrible cuz my marks was like horrible. the rest got like so high. maybe to them not high. but to me? it's high all right. nvm. diff ppl diff opinion. so it was horrible. the cher came to me and asked what has happened. thn she told me wanna talk to me. in the end, she forget so i don care. thn during tut, i wasn't concentrating at all! whatever Ira was saying i was.."ok." haha! maybe she got pissed after some time. cuz whatever she said i just nodded thn i asked her again. haha!

sry lah!

and thr's this qn, i totally just lift frm the notes. thn whn the cher marked, she was saying that everything was a GOOD one! *lol* and she gave us full marks! *lol* a miracle eh? thn mbw. haiz. was supposed to pass up the hols tut. but everyone was like "don noe how to do!" haha! me and Ira went lib earlier to do abit. so the cher went thru. and haha! me and Ira were like boasting that we understood out steps better and stuffs. but seriously, yes. i understood ours better. and blah3x.

on wed. hmm...got back pm1. haiz. same marks as acc. crap! nvm. don care. serve me right anyway. so blah3x. thn mbw again. and we had to do our e-learning ahai. cuz the cher said it was nonsense! and the cher said she will upload the qn again after she edited some parts. but till today don hv le. haiz. so how to do? i wanna do over the weekend. thn now until like this. haiz. crap! and we also kind of get a rough marks of our mbw. haiz. just pass AGAIN. but this time by 4 marks. but i tink if nt cuz of that 5 marks format thingy, i wld hv failed. haiz. so i didn't really do well for this. my worst paper.

thurs, got back pmm. haha! actually got 67. was so happy cuz finally! 60+!!! told Ira to congratulate me. yea. i was so naive and crappy. cuz like FINALLY!thn calculate again, wrong! 63. so told the cher lor. so he was grinning. cuz i was so HONEST! *lol* 67. 63. nvm. just a one mark different. as in after taking 25% of it. haiz. nvm. i don care le. still 60+. so yea. and thruout the lecture, was not listening at all. was crapping with Ira. haha! we did this love token for our hp. haha! not gonna elaborate. basically we were CRAPPING. *lol*

thn got back my most confidence paper. despite getting the highest among my other papers, but kinda NOT tat happy. cuz even though, 71, but it was open book. and i skipped ONE QN! and i tot i did everything. and that one qn, maybe can get 1 or 2 marks out of it or whatever. haiz. so sad. open book leh! my only chance. haiz. stoopid. and the cher reminded me of Apple Hong. don noe why. frm 1st day of yr 2. haiz. that's how i am. i always link ppl with ppl i noe.

on fri, which was yest. ct lecture, was highlighting here and thr but didnt really go inside my head. don noe lah. and thn gems presentation. i fumbled. cuz i was worrying abt the space. haiz. so paisey. haiz. but it's over le. but still! haiz. HAIZ.

my 1st wk of sch. crap! yea. what a way to start 1st wk of term 2. and i rmbred! my first day, which was on monday, i was in a bad mood whn i got out of the hse. cuz of...my sis. my family lah. don noe y also. i keep losing my temper these weeks. haiz.

i wan my old life back. i wanna be a kid. i don wanna grow up.

Thank You