Ruzaina
21 and FOREVER 18
Working + Slacking

You build me up
Crime Novels (eg. Micheal Connelly, Paul Johnston, J.D. Robb)
Shopping & Never Drops
HUGE Stuffed Toys
N5800
Asus K401N
Listening Ghost Stories
Watching Scary/Gory Shows While Closing Eyes
Black/Hot Pink/Purple/Brown
Mocha

You break me down
Princesses
Self-Centered
Sore Losers
Lies
Ignored
Interrupted
Scolded
Pests
Ya-ya PapayaS
K-POsss!

Ain't got no money in ma pocket
Coach Wristlet
THAT C & K Wallet
Blue Label Burberry Black with Pink Stripes Hobo
Ipod Nano (Pink/Green/Blue/Orange)
Micheal Connelly's Harry Bosch Whole Collection
Unlimited Money




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u noe...while i was abt to wake up just now...suddenly had this...PLOT...in my mind. actually frm last time le...but thn onie todae tat i'm gonna be serious abt it. haha!!



















a girl was kidnapped. not girl. a lady. a teenager. this guy suddenly wakes her up and tell her to jump out of the window. she wants to shout for her parents but the guy told her to keep quiet or she will die. she did so, afraid. she sprained her ankle and started limping. the guy just carry her onto his motorbike and sped off. gives her his leather jacket, knowing she will be cold. she takes it relunctantly. she needs to know what is going on. the guy just speeds off, not caring what goes through her mind.

soon, they reached an apartment. no. a mansionette. whatever it is, she do not care. she just wants to be home with her family. in the wee hours of the morning and she is all alone with a stranger who looks and feel cold. icy eyes. she is afraid. she follows the guy into the mansionette. it is huge. it is grand. just like a five-star hotel. he points to the sofa. he wants her to sit down. she wants to protest but thinks otherwise. he is too cold. she sits. the guy speaks to another guy. the other guy looks smart. wears smart. he has a coat on. as though he is a bodyguard. she laughs. but she stops. there are many others like him. she looks down. confuse. do not know what to do. what to say. how to react. she keeps thinking she is in a dream. she tries to wake up. but she is already wide awake. it is too sudden for her. she is really numb. she cannot think. cannot think properly.

the icy guy left. she feels relieve. but the bodyguard approaches. her heart thumping hard. what did he want. she do not want to know. he ushers her to a room. she follows reluctantly. she sits on the bed and he closes the door. she is alone. in the spacious room. she is alone. she wants to scream. nothing comes out. she do not know what to do. she is too afraid. she is confuse. is she in a dream? or rather a nightmare?

she wants to know.



















haha! yea..it sux. i noe how it's going to end...no not end END...but how the story will go on. hah! i noe the english all sux. but hello? so long never do compo. going to start once i finish my exams. this thurs is my exam. econs. nd to study. my mum alrdy started nagging. crap.

haiz...

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yea. starting to wonder. whenever i tell ppl, it's the truth. but whn they tell me..issit the truth? like crap right? u feel cheated.

i tell them the truth and they tell lies. thn in the end, the result will show that they r telling lies all along.

i mean...such things, what for u wan to lie? console me? uh-uh! u shd be encouraging me nt making me feel like we r on the same lvl. pls...don't lie anymore.

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hello thr. yea...LONG nv update. last time, almost everyday i update. but now...

don't noe cuz i was lazy or just nothing to blog abt. nvm...here i am and i'm gonna blog.

so just had 3 tests on mon, tue and thurs.

horribly horrible. mon-ct. thr's gonna be a re-test on 2nd feb. and i tink i'm gonna be one of them. haiz...and the day b4, got exam. crap right?

thn on tue...structures. another crap. but not so crap as the other two but still CRAP. my theory like...i don noe wa i was writing. calculations...the numbers got so weird and i was like..heck care. no time. so blah3x...just went wif it. though my bdm gone. both qns. GONE!!!

and thurs-mbw. the horror! i did brickwork first. i tink i'm the onie one. cuz that was 8 marks. but it's better tat i do the simplest and most confident first mah. but that one also, i nt too sure whether correct anot. thn did substructure. haha! smoothly done. but ans don noe correct anot. but thn i got stuck just after column stump. and i skipped steps. i just straight away did ground slab.

thn did superstructure. i did column. and thn i suddenly rmrbed abt ground beams. and yep. i sat thr thinking abt that. whether it was supposed to be in sub or super or both. crap. and i sat thr for a whole 10 or 20 mins. or btw. and yea...i just did for sub. and for super i just did column.

and still got one more-reinforcement. which i totally skipped and didn't study. cuz i cldn't get anything in my head for that. no more space. i've got pathetic space. i can't be a thumbdrive or any memory card. i'm hopeless. i guess, if i was one, i'll be left off the shelves cuz no one wans to buy. *lol*

and coming thurs, 1st feb...econs. haha!!! haven start.

thn 2nd feb, retest for ct. and yep. a HUGE part of me says i'm gonna be taking it.

thn 6th feb...i tink. bmt.

and 8th feb, last paper...bs2. the module tat i failed TERRIBLY the last time. for the test...my retest...i only improved by 6 marks. -_-"

and i got my itp alrdy. attachment. i'm going to IRAS-Inland Revenue Authority of Singapore. at novena. u noe..whr ur parents pay for taxes. though i tink my department will be at the property taxes. yea...since my course is that. property thingy.

government building. and my pay-S$440/mth. sheesh?! some got 500 bucks.

gonna work hard and hope i'm gonna get into their good books and after i graduate, gonna work thr. haha!!! i don like to change job. i'm not someone who adapts well...nono.

and u noe...i miss those days whn i go out wif friends and watch movies...just hang out...eat. haiz...

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internet was down...and i've been so lazy to log in and blog. cuz nothing to blog abt. but thr's something now.

fed up! i'm so fed up!!! i don noe whether to be fed-up wi myself or wif others. but i guess it's myself. the idiotic ME is back...i'm back to losing temper just like that. but i thanked my fam for being so patient. they still can make a joke out of it to make me smile. forget abt the bad stuffs. forget abt the bad mood.

so...don't EVER throw away ur family. they're your gems. they can't be replace. when ur down...they are the CONFIRM 100% to be thr for u. so ppl. treasure ur fam!!!

i reallie don noe what is wrong with me!!! get so angry just like that. if i c something i don't like...that's it. ERUPT. gosh!!! like yest. i wanted to watch tv. last epi somemore. but my sis was doing her proj and don noe do what. the printer used another plug cuz nt enough. or whatever shit. everything in my hse...almost all r spoilt. dvd player jammed. and don noe what else...

so blah3x. 7pm and haven finish. so i was lying on my bed. thn i woke up arnd close to 8pm. and still haven finish! tok to my mum so loudly somemore!!! and i got angry and just locked myself in the dark and try to sleep. thn all kinds of emotions came out. and blah3x.

i don noe. i reallie don noe. maybe nd to go c doctor or go hougang. haiz...i'm sick. yea..i'm like everytime sick this and that.

i really don noe. i seriously don noe what i want.

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yoyo! haha...

uploading pix for the bmt report. the pix so big lor!!! thn very slow to upload. haiz...hv to upload one by one and it takes time. *sigh*

c lah. don wan own a cam. if nt..won't bother others to upload pix for me and i can do straight away. haiz...so gonna get my parents to buy a cam soon. just a cheap one will do. so long can shoot nice pix, hv gd zoom and basic stuffs.

in no situation to demand gd things. i wan gd things...wait till i work and earn enough. thn slowly2x...that's what my parents did whn they were younger. =)

take my time. no nd rush. i'm still young. haha!!!

haiz. just now had the yr 3 talk. cuz my course nd to choose which paths to take in yr 3. i was thinking of pmm. since i cant handle mbw. but thn again. just now that cher said that pmm mostly work as real estate agents, maintenance officer....and just like tat.

I WANT EVENTS MANAGEMENT!!!

the other time, that was mentioned. how come now don hv?!

haiz..

thn by this fri nd to hand in the form le. i seriously don noe what to choose now. maybe tml during mbw tut, can ask Winnie abt the career prospects for pmm. hehe...the director...she's nice!!!

haha!

haiz...thr's like 23 pix and i've only saved 2. the 3rd one is uploading. *sigh*

i wanna watch cold case ltr at 11pm!!! nvm abt csi miami. i don't like miami series anyway...haha!!!

and i'm so gonna get my dad to go and buy a new burner!!! gonna burn animes, tv series...=)

muahaha...

haiz...

SO SLOW!!!

but what to do? Ira and Sing Yee are relying on me to do their parts. cuz i'm doing the first qn, since i'm the earliest to go hm. yepyep. cuz they got work and all...

haiz...seems to me the uploading process is not moving!!! so slow...stupid internet. maybe shd upgrade to the latest and fastest, 10mbps!!! haha!!! that is...someone to sponsor me...=)

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my hot-headedness is back again! gosh! it went away and i stayed cool for at least a mth. thn now it's back. i reallie don noe lah...this sux. i sux.

ok. yest had steamboat at Caca's hse. cool! haha...and damn full lah. though no rice and all. but still. all the satays and the what hv u. haiz...

tml starts sch alrdy. i don wan go. i don wan sch. it sux. everything abt sch sux. seriously speaking...i used to look forward to sch but thn...i hate sch. i really hate sch.

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come this feb...it's gonna be back to the me-taking-huge-responsibility AGAIN. *sigh* i just hope that this will be the last.

in fact, NOW, she's sick again. that fever-no-appetite. *sigh*

i just want all this to stop! please!!!

i noe..thr will come a day that i will be in this situation but not now pls.

i just want everything to stop! take my life away...i just want this to stop. so pls!!!

i'm tired. it haven't start yet but i'm alrdy tired thinking of it.

PLEASE.

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yest was supposed to be hari raya haji. my fam went to Abang Ali's open hse. thn at 4pm like tat...we went out. go to Caca's hse to make roti boyan. haha!!! and thn arnd 9.30pm..we went off to go see fireworks at esplanade thr. wooo!!!

i went hm wif my dad and sis to changed clothes. cuz my dad wanted to take his specs also...tat's y lah.

and blah3x. i saw it! wif Wak Ni, Wak Salim and Caca. we went to that marina park...thn got close to the roadside thr...Wak Ni, Wak Salim and Caca and ME went closer, trying to get closer to the opposite of the esplanade. the rest were behind. haha!!!

it was nice lah! the finale was KA-BOOM! everything just went up into the sky...and Wak Ni was like "mandi bunga api". meaning...bathe with fireworks...haha! my translation sux. but it mean something like that. *lol*

by the time, my fam reached hm...it was close to 3am. if nt, we wld hv reached abt 4.30am or later. but since Wak Ni and Wak Salim stayed over at Caca's hse...so saved us the journey to boon lay. *lol*

cuz apparantly today they wanna go catch crabs, fishes at sembawang thr.

and i've watched Charlotte's Web. latest movie in my life. *lol* i wanna watch eragorn. but by the time...finish liao. thn tat museum thingy. thn...haiz. just HAIZ.

january 2007 alrdy! better don start writing 2006. it's 2007 alrdy!!!

woohoo!!!

haiz.

hope it'll be a gd yr for me ahead.

resolution? forget it. i just live day by day.

i still rmbr 2006's resolutions. even put in in my profile here. but didn't follow. in fact! nt even halfway thru the year, deleted alrdy.

*sigh*

i just want a happy year ahead of me. todae is the first day. so far..nothing bad happens. so that's a gd start. =)

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