Ruzaina
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i've sent Fieza what i've done. actually got alot more but i very sleepy le.

tml nd accompany my mum to her app. lucky in the afternoon. so planning to wake up late. haha!!!

everyday i wake up late. but just now my head reallie hurts. sleep too much.

but now really sleepy le.

can i just go to bed w/o brushing my teeth???

haiz...

wad í've done..tink only 10% of the whole report. haha...but lucky for us..Mrs Sia said do as much as u can. no nd 40%.

report must aim to finish by oct or something. or maybe earlier. thn do ppt. powerpoint...

very hard czu why? i no ppt at hm. so evreytime must do at sch or maybe go Fieza's hse.

don noe lah. report finish thn talk.

ok lor. bye bye...

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cuz i wan do my OWN things at my own time and in my own room.

make sense? no? nvm.

i'm on epi 2 of Ai Sha 17. haha!!! nice thriller.

but nope. not now. doing fyp report. compiling wad i can. seems that Fieza haven send me her part so tink i send her mine thn let her cont and send to Mrs Sia for submission.

next tue gg facial. my first time! haha...heard tat it's gonna hurt abit cuz they gonna squeeze ur pimples. hm..i don tink i hv. considered my face now clean lah cept for this STUBBORN spot on my right cheek. grr...

every single time..the SAME spot somemore! irritating u noe...

tat is why i don quite like the right side of face. the cheeks i mean. but i like my hair parting thr. haha! ok nvm.

and my hair...it's always shorter or pointing out on my right. i honestly don noe why.

ok lah. gonna do now thn c ltr if i nt tired after doing the report, thn blog again. =)

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FINE! ALL MY FAULTS LAH...VERY ANGRY U NOE.

serious..i don noe whr i stand in here.

oh..todae is the 2nd anniversary. "anniversary".

but no mood. cuz it's my fault.

can't wait for money to start falling into MY account. MY account.

happily used my property for ur needs, w/o telling me rite?

fine...thn. i'll keep quiet. u'll get ur JUST desserts.

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my friendster is SO OUTDATED...tat i can't be bothered to edit anything frm thr...haha!!!

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yep. just now went to blackboard and realised tat nd to hand in 40% of the fyp thingy by next fri ie 31st aug.

but Fieza said it actually depends on our own facilitator. well..ok.

she's been telling me to relax frm the first dae we knew each other. haha!!!

so next mon and wed we meeting in sch to pile up into a decent report. cuz our infos and things r like one paper one paper and all over the place. i myself very...HEADACHE!

thn wed afternoon or so, we go meet Mrs Sia. so long nv meet her liao. to update her on wad we've done so far.

so i'm left with 2 more days to relax my mind frm sch stuffs.

anyway, yest met Widad. supposedly eat at this thai restaurant at city hall. but she finished earlier. and she didn't wan wait. so we met at amk hub to eat fish and co.

ok lah. the servings quite worth it. but the thing is i ordered new york fish and chips i tink. we both ordered the same thing cept tat my fish supposedly hv cheese. but NO!

i don taste any cheese. haha!!!

but ok lah. next time wan try the stingray. actually was tinking of eating tat but cuz the dae b4, i already ate stingray mah.

and we talked. wow! uni...one day only 3hrs or so. and recommended must hv laptop.

hmm...cool.

and she got debit card! i also wan!!!

but yest. the card no $ so no use lah.

actually frm last time i wan cuz easier buy things online. just now looked up for debit cards.

gonna apply after i graduate. u noe..ive plan my future salary u noe.

if i really get at least 1.4k per mth, after minusing cpf and everything else...i can save abt 5000+ in a year! yea..maybe so little. but wth!

very cool lor! thn can apply for debit cards. haha!!!

BUT PROVIDED i get 1.4k for my salary. hope so lah. least i wan get 1.3k. hrmph.

and another thing, i looked up on university. hmm..i reaised tat i can only go NUS if my grades r good. full time or part time. haiz...

NTU...full time. part time..must hv at least 2 yrs experience or gd results if no experience. haiz...

SMU...don hv my course.

and another university of south australia.

i don noe wan take full time or part time. but seriously, i tink i'm better off part time. cuz financial and grades. haiz...don noe lah.

i don noe. i don noe.

i wan go university. i wan get degree, masters...thn if can PHD!!! muahaha....thn ppl won't be calling me plain MISS RUZAINA...

it'll be...

*ahem*

DR RUZAINA!!!

muahaha..ain't it cool? actually being called DR has always been my dream since K1. yepyep.

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2nd anniversary in THREE DAYS.

wad anniversary? haha!!! don wan tell u!

ok maybe anniversary nt the word. but wth!

i understand can alrdy.

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all right. so here r the pics. i don noe why cannot upload more pics. got so many pics...but cannot lah. and cant be bothered to wait in frnt o the comp, fixing the probs. wan c, my hp got. c lah!

but for here and now..only these few. yes sad sad. but wad to do?

oooh..my mum baking the garlic bread. frm don noe when till todae..the smell very NICE!!!

so here are the pics!!! enjoy...

1 hr before i went off to sleep (land planning)...

abt 10 mins after i started on land planning. hmm..he above pic shd come first..i don noe why...

i'm finally free frm all sch stuffs cept for fyp lah. haha! but dealing wif fyp ONLY...it's considered free u noe. no projs, no shits, no whatsoever!!!

finally can stay at hm and not gg to dover mrt! no nd to squeeze in the mrt again. for 1 mth tat is.

ok.

firstly, gonna wish both FLORA & LEMON...happie BELATED bdae!!! very long thn give u guys prezzies. very paisey. but glad u two like them lah!!! may all ur bdae wishes come true...or rather the wishes u made for your bdaes...HAVE CAME TRUE. *lol*

hmm..wad shall i start first? it's gonna be long cuz i wan update pics.

hmm..don noe whr to start. how ah?

ok nvm. just start.

let's go by dates lah.


Monday, 6/8/07


i've got IT test. didn't reallie study. and my 'building operations' can sae bye-bye alrdy. out of ALL the qs, i only managed to do...2 or 3. haha!!! very bo chap i noe. no time and don noe how to do. lucky it carries less %.


Tuesday, 7/8/07


went to expo to take pics. supposed to meet Fieza at 2.30pm at tanah merah. thn Mr Azrin suddenly gave her work to do, regarding the breakdown list, but she was outside. so i did. frm the beginning, she was doing it. and i kinda was lost lah. but nvm. just minor edits. thn finally reached expo arnd 4+ i tink. took pics of the setting up thn went hm.

eh wait! was this tue or wed? omg! haha!!! i also nt sure.

anyway...on tues night...rather wed midnight...studied for land planning. pics next post. =)


Wednesday, 8/8/07


land planning test. hm...can't recall. if nt wrong, wadever i studied came out. but just tat for some i can't rmrbr. =(


Thursday, 9/8/07


but not like my usual national day! haiz...first day of the event at expo. reallie tiring and i cocked up lotz of things. (frm first to last day lor) reallie...Mr Azrin was mad at me lah but he didn't sae it out. but it's so obvious! Fieza kept telling me to calm down but no use lah. i can't whn he's showing me tat black face. haiz...maybe this thing nt my kind of job lah. lesson learnt.

oh! met Danielle cast. u noe the suria...the drama shown on suria. first shown on valentine's day. handsome? haha!!! i don noe. no pics though.

and here met UNREASONABLE people. Fieza shd noe wad i mean. CARPETS...

*oh! i've forgotten tat thr's a draft saved* just now everything was gone. okok paisey. and shall post pics on the next post. i lazy wan edit the paras*


Friday, 10/8/07


ok. the big night. so-called. cuz..Ungu came to perform. got pics..of course!!! waah! Pasha was so HANDSOME lah!!! the lead. ..cute...one of the guitarist also!!! muahaha...nv took pics wif the guitarist though. Fieza got. she even invited me but the whole place was in chaos so cannot lah. got pics! of course!!!

new boyz also. but nv took pics WIF them yet. eeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don like two of their hair. like GIRLS sia! no lor..worst thn girls. haha!!! no offence to fans hor. Tomok and Zack. so long. so straight. tie somemore! OMG!!!

rosli mansor and grp also. didn't take wif them. only Fieza. =)

and this is the day tat i went hm reallie late. shared a taxi wif Fieza. Mr Azrin said wan sent us halfway so taxi fare won't be tat much. skali...he just drove to marine parade whr Ungu and crew ate nasi ayam penyet. -_-" we ate lah...abt half an hr or so went off. and we were teased cuz we were the only ones who wore PURPLE.

ungu is in malay for purple. Kak Ida told us to wear. cuz we r organisers. like support lah. skali we were the only ones.

i reached hm at 1am...i tink. sent Fieza first...changed of plans...and the total charge was 30+!!! haha...

of course the boss PAID lah.


Saturday, 11/8/07


hmm...here whr even the helpers got kinda irritated...by me also. hehe...cuz of the tables. at first sae put at the booth. thn less thn a minute ltr, Kak Ida told them to moved to the side of the stage. tot i heard wrongly. but Fieza said tat it was really changed. and i went out alrdy to get the helpers so they can't tell me.

new boyz came again. and yep. took pics wif them cept for the bdae boy. er..his bdae was the last wk. cuz reallie chaotic lah. the fans. omg!!! oh! shd see UNGU fans. haha!!!


Sunday, 12/8/07


thank god..last day. the sajak thing...i cocked up. cuz said prizes at 2pm. so i dilly dally abit. thn suddenly changed of plans. right after the competition...and Kak Ida told me "the prizes shd be done by yest"...i didn't tink of this and even if i did, will nv sae out. who am i? i'm nt really an employee thr. anyway...if i cld, i wld hv said "well, the wrapping paper were not ready yest. u even asked me wad time is the prizes and i said 2pm. and u even said tat oh! nvm. still got time!"

haiz..it was all in a rush lah. and i reallie learnt a lesson for this whole thing.

oh..and this Cik-don noe who...said new boyz COMING again! but not performing. only appearance. hah!!!

and u noe..for the 2 days tat they came, kept asking for 100 plus!!! haha!!! felt like smacking!

lucky nv come. and here's whr this same Cik got scolded or something. something to do with my responsibilities BUT it's nt my fault. IT IS NOT MY FAULT.

don wan sae lah. forgive and forget. haha!!!

thn finished and went hm. Mr Rahman, the uncle who transport new boyz and yuni shara to expo and hotel, sent me hm. first took his fam thn sent me. cuz they stayed in yishun also.

oh! yuni shara, kris dayanti's older sis, came too. haha! don wan sae more. only Fieza knew. and can still teased me. "People like to touch you ah!" hehe...ladies she meant.


Monday, 13/8/07


was so TIRED!!! msged and called Fieza, nv response. so went to expo myself. wif slippers and tat slackiest, tired face. took some pics of the whole place and went hm. thn on my way hm, she called. with tat tored voice. haha!!! she overslept and nv hear the phone rings or vibrate. haha!!! nvm lah...

tat night studied for mbs. exam the next day.


Tuesday, 14/8/07


mbs exam. was late..i seriously tot gonna be 30 mins late. lucky i only missed the reading time. phew! cldn't rmrbr whther it's easy anot. hope can pass.


Wednesday, 15/8/07


met Ira after her paper at bugis. cuz wan buy prezzies mah. and i bought 2 tops and one pair of shoes. ate kfc. she wanted to watch ghost story. just say2x tat it'll be the following tue. but nope. haha!!! nvm. got her no. she has my no. wan go out, just call. =)


Thursday, 16/8/07


can't reallie rmrb wad happen. cept tat stayed up to study estate. exam the next day.


Friday, 17/8/07


estate exam. was it hard? i seriously don noe...forgot.


Saturday, 18/8/07


woke up early. go mkt wif mum, Wak, Wak Ni and Kak Faizah. cuz my hse got kenduri at night. bulan syaban.

helped to cut potatoes, kangkong. make bagedil (potato cakes). thn went down to the shops to but stuffs. THRICE. omg!!! tired u noe...cuz the shops nt near my hse. nd to walk. haiz...

i was in the kitchen the whole night.


Sunday, 19/8/07


woke up nearing 2pm. haha!!! very tired. infact ever since after the event, whnever no sch, i will wake up close to 1 or 2 in the afternoon. unhealthy i noe.


Monday, 20/8/07


followed my parents go out. meet Wak Ni. and the rest. ate kfc at funan. haha!!!

thn at night studied costing. last paper!!!


Tuesday, 21/8/07


costing!!! omg!!! i let out a full 12 marks...i tink...calculation qn. suddenly something like measurement. haiz...

but all i noe last paper. will pass. i hope so. shd be lah.

ate BK at northpt wif Liy. she's working thr. reached hm 6+.

so long nv eat BK. now i wan swenson. whn whn???

watched CSI!!! after 2 weeks i tink!!! missed CSI!!! i wan buy the whole series!!!


Wednesday, 22/8/07


and tat is todae. woke up early in the morn to go eat breakfast with my mum and dad. thn dad sent to chong pang. bought fruits and veggies. thn bought mac-hotcakes wif sausage. no money involved. now mac left wth 49 points.

thn slept frm 11am-2pm. thn sat arnd. and here i am.

todae mum gonna cook bbq stingray!!! frm last last sat u noe...cuz i'm nt at hm.

and tml gonna hv dinner at..er..this thai place. don noe lah. just follow LOR.

ok enough of words. now pics. next post next post.

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i can't wait for tuesday, 21st August 2007, 4.11pm to arrive.

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as for that 'thing', anything nt happy wif me. just tell me in the face. scared i angry? if i make u angry thn it's rigthful tat ur angry at me mah?

as for now..forget abt it. test and exam coming and so busy wif expo thing. so nvm..bye bye. maybe nt gonna blog. nono..maybe..aiyah! bye bye lah.

gd luck everyone for all ur tests and exams.

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so slow!!! i don noe why...re-downloading maple now.

now going to mysas to check on exam timetable. but the loading so SLOW!!!

wad? suddenly so many ppl go sp webbie? sheesh!!!

ok. tests and exams coming up. anyway..this time my tests wk very heavy le. nt the tests but the fyp event

ok let me list out.

so slow reallie.

CAN EVERYONE WHO IS ASSESSING SP WEBBIE TO JUST STOP FIRST??? GIVE ME 10MINS OK!!!

haiz..

crap lah...suddenly eveyone go mysas NOW meh? so coincidental meh?

haiz...fed up fed up fed up.

aiyoh...

omg! worst thn registering for gems sia!!!

ok done. so now gonna list out the days...

6th-21st August i am not free to do leisure things.

6th: IT test.
7th: go expo for the setting up of booths. the construction.
8th: land planning test. thn go office for final discussion. maybe got meeting.
9-12th: expo the whole day!!! Asia Fesival..heard it on TV, radio. come lah if u wan! it's an exhibition lah. expo hall 6. 10am-10pm. come come!
13th: go expo again to witness and ensure tat the hall is cleared of litters and everything.
14th: mbs exam.
17th: estate & marketing exam.
21st: costing exam.

21st aug @ 4.11pm..HURRAY!!! wan go movie also can!!! book me book me...haha!!!

i cant wait for tat dae. but i can wait for tml.

haiz...nd to buy pumps for the expo event. ltr must run here and thr. malay groups..New Boyz and Ungu will be thr. sofaz also. come lah!!! Ungu gg to hv a concert. tickets @ $28 only. come lah come lah!!!

yea..nd to buy pumps. must run here and thr. heals...scared tired. i hv two but running in them?one id open..those kinda flip flop. another is those peep toe but even though it's closed, still will open..don noe why. my foot lah.

ok. maple at 48%.

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i'm very tired. realised more todae. yep. shocking and nt nice to hear but wth. it's a fact.

ok so i'm gonna stop probing and just carry on. i tink i'd better do wad i wan to do. wad i intend to do right now. can't keep relying on others to save me. i hv to be independant. anyway, this problem is btw me and him/her/them.

as i'm typing this, the comp reallie laggy to which i don noe y and i feel like screaming and swearing but my mum's in the hse. so bear. bear. just grit my teeth. grr...

anyway...wad i've posted yest and todae or wadever it is...nt meant for ppl who read this. cuz he/she/they will probably nt read this. i don noe. so don wory..cuz...it's nt u, any frequent readers here.

so don go scratching ur head, knocking urself on the table figuring WTH is happening. don worry lah.

but if u happen to noe..and maybe ur involve or u r the person here...thn come tok to me face to face pls? don hide behind tat pillar...wan fight come out lah!

HAH! FIGHT..yea rite..ruzaina and fight? gosh!

ok so i tink i've probed enough. no one's gonna tell me anymore thn i'll just carry on and do wad i'm gg to do. i don wan keep waiting here and thr but the problem still thr.

haiz..nv did i expect this...

maybe it's my fault.

and maybe i got another hint just now. maybe read too much but i'm nt taking any chances. this solution will be the last resort. if i can, i'll cont. if nt, thn this solution will i use to solve this.

i don noe how it'll turn out. no one knows. but wad i noe..nt gonna let this affect anything. in fact it did.

yest. onie one person noe and it's nt anyone frm SP! my fren..was msging her. so yea told her wad happen yest.

haiz...suddenly i threw out the words and just..threw a tantrum. felt bad ltr. cried. did i cry? yes, i did. no one noes.

and this person feel like slapping me? hah! wad u noe...daytime i show temper. night time wad u noe? can u tell? i don tink so. unless maybe cut open my heart. nah! doubt thr's gonna be anything written thr. nono..this person here nt the 'this person' up thr.

aiyah! my blog lah..u understand understand. don understand just read on if u wan or just close this window.

haiz...don noe lah. thn thr's this fyp thing. the company. in the end we cant like suddeny quit. cuz the event is next wk. haiz...

HAIZ...

so sianz.

ok no excuse!

hmm..somehow this "no excuse!" gonna appear soon in one of my conversations.

i hv alot of gut feelings tat r coming true now. and one by one it came true. haha!!! so scary..can open fortune telling shop ah? who wan sponsor?

still nd to call art friend. haiz...

tired. sad. tired. sad. tats wad i feel lah. everyday go sch, go hm..take mrt, take bus...i tink the bus uncle also c me like wan vomit blood. haha! everyday glum look. i mean...i c myself wan vomit blood liao..thn others c me how? worst right?

sianz...5.35pm now. gonna call art frend if nt the guys go hm how? told me to call later...cuz very busy. haiz...so sianz u noe. we r nt suppose to do something serious like this lah. so crappy!

haven study land planning. better do it...WHEN??? tml if nt 12pm reach hm..but stupid company. thn fri if nt, no sch. but stupid company. stupid stupid.

sat? sat my cousin's wedding. it's night..so afternoon study abit. thn sun study. yea..IT how study? i wan stay back also cannot. if nt, my class wan stay back tml..but i got freaking fyp lah. stupid lah.

reallie my life now in a mess. cant wait to graduate. cant wait for fyp to end. maybe after next next wk..ok alrdy cuz no event mah. hmm...

very tired lah. so old alrdy still face this kinds of problems. maybe cuz i tease my mum alot. haha!!! with my aunts...haha....

ok lah. 5.44pm liao. stop here. call art frend. thn go bathe. haha!!!

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