Wednesday, August 01, 2007 • 5:14:00 PM
i'm very tired. realised more todae. yep. shocking and nt nice to hear but wth. it's a fact.ok so i'm gonna stop probing and just carry on. i tink i'd better do wad i wan to do. wad i intend to do right now. can't keep relying on others to save me. i hv to be independant. anyway, this problem is btw me and him/her/them.as i'm typing this, the comp reallie laggy to which i don noe y and i feel like screaming and swearing but my mum's in the hse. so bear. bear. just grit my teeth. grr...anyway...wad i've posted yest and todae or wadever it is...nt meant for ppl who read this. cuz he/she/they will probably nt read this. i don noe. so don wory..cuz...it's nt u, any frequent readers here.so don go scratching ur head, knocking urself on the table figuring WTH is happening. don worry lah.but if u happen to noe..and maybe ur involve or u r the person here...thn come tok to me face to face pls? don hide behind tat pillar...wan fight come out lah!HAH! FIGHT..yea rite..ruzaina and fight? gosh!ok so i tink i've probed enough. no one's gonna tell me anymore thn i'll just carry on and do wad i'm gg to do. i don wan keep waiting here and thr but the problem still thr.haiz..nv did i expect this...maybe it's my fault.and maybe i got another hint just now. maybe read too much but i'm nt taking any chances. this solution will be the last resort. if i can, i'll cont. if nt, thn this solution will i use to solve this.i don noe how it'll turn out. no one knows. but wad i noe..nt gonna let this affect anything. in fact it did.yest. onie one person noe and it's nt anyone frm SP! my fren..was msging her. so yea told her wad happen yest.haiz...suddenly i threw out the words and just..threw a tantrum. felt bad ltr. cried. did i cry? yes, i did. no one noes.and this person feel like slapping me? hah! wad u noe...daytime i show temper. night time wad u noe? can u tell? i don tink so. unless maybe cut open my heart. nah! doubt thr's gonna be anything written thr. nono..this person here nt the 'this person' up thr.aiyah! my blog lah..u understand understand. don understand just read on if u wan or just close this window.
haiz...don noe lah. thn thr's this fyp thing. the company. in the end we cant like suddeny quit. cuz the event is next wk. haiz...
HAIZ...
so sianz.
ok no excuse!
hmm..somehow this "no excuse!" gonna appear soon in one of my conversations.
i hv alot of gut feelings tat r coming true now. and one by one it came true. haha!!! so scary..can open fortune telling shop ah? who wan sponsor?
still nd to call art friend. haiz...
tired. sad. tired. sad. tats wad i feel lah. everyday go sch, go hm..take mrt, take bus...i tink the bus uncle also c me like wan vomit blood. haha! everyday glum look. i mean...i c myself wan vomit blood liao..thn others c me how? worst right?
sianz...5.35pm now. gonna call art frend if nt the guys go hm how? told me to call later...cuz very busy. haiz...so sianz u noe. we r nt suppose to do something serious like this lah. so crappy!
haven study land planning. better do it...WHEN??? tml if nt 12pm reach hm..but stupid company. thn fri if nt, no sch. but stupid company. stupid stupid.
sat? sat my cousin's wedding. it's night..so afternoon study abit. thn sun study. yea..IT how study? i wan stay back also cannot. if nt, my class wan stay back tml..but i got freaking fyp lah. stupid lah.
reallie my life now in a mess. cant wait to graduate. cant wait for fyp to end. maybe after next next wk..ok alrdy cuz no event mah. hmm...very tired lah. so old alrdy still face this kinds of problems. maybe cuz i tease my mum alot. haha!!! with my aunts...haha....ok lah. 5.44pm liao. stop here. call art frend. thn go bathe. haha!!!
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