Sunday, June 29, 2008 • 8:51:00 PM
*grins*
can someone give me S$1400? =)
haha! siao...like u can get. wake up lah ruzaina!
my next shopping outing will be forever 21 and trying of pants. once i get my size, online spree at forever 21 will be a BREEZE!
how happy i am!
alrdy hv 3 wish lists...haha! siao.
and that's y nd S$1400! siao. go seduce some DAMN RICH guy thn u can even triple the amount w/o much effort. =)
but whr to find? oh! above 30 not accepted. pls.
haha! and nope. i am so nto gonna be a mistress. for god sakes. no.. god forbidden!
ok so S$1400 at forever 21 alone. how bullshit can that be?
ok ruzaina, think u r really SIAO.
let's c. if i divide by 3 mths...S$470 per mth lor. exceed my shopping budget. what about 4 mths?
haha! dun bother. 5?
c how desperate i am? *hint hint*
hmm..can. maybe. so let's set a target.
by nov 08, i'll get my wish list done in june. how cool is that?
but first i MUST go try on my pants size. =)
and thr will always a tendency for me to look for other things. so...*sigh* let's just say by end of 2008, i'll get my forever 21 wishlist items done half a yr earlier. is that gd enough girl?
i hope so.
and and...achieving that not only makes me fulfuill my wishlists, but also. fulfil my probation period! how cool is that?
so right now, look forward. don look back. dun u ever dare! it'll trap u.
oh ok. so tml's a new wk. how nice. a new wk. i've survived yet another week.
i dun noe y but i'm always looking forward to mornings. *grins*
always feel eager and all, but last wk. kinda got abit thinking and maybe sad.
so many qns went thru my head for the non-existence.
what i'm toking abt?
only god and myself.
so u ppl just nod ur head and understand it. act as if u do.
argh! S$1400!!! whr the hell am i gonna get them?!
"starve urself or one mth! and that includes no transport and nothing for you," said the inner voice.
haha!!!
starve? hmm..if i'm in sch maybe. but no transport? thn how the hell am i gonna go work? walk?! 20mins walk to novena? HAHA! farnie...20mins walk frm int to my hse. and 20mins train journey frm yishun to novena. can u imagine?
Person A and B start frm the same point but ends at different places for the same timing. and the distance btw the both of them is VERY FAR.
ok whatever shit i'm toking, just nod ur head. =)
i now conclude that the S$1400 is making me mad.
yes it is. i've entered the 20s grp. the 20s gang. the 20s fellowship. and it's making me mad. and i'm not even an adult YET.
so this was wad Britney meant. "I'm not a girl, not yet a woman."
how exciting. did she sang this whn she was 20?
i dun noe what to do wif my life. i've no firm goals. i envy those who have.
i just live day by day.
how sad.
and YOU, pls...at least give me something! some signal or sign or just something. some sign language. like paste some sticker on ur forehead. this is crazy.
and on fri, went hm late. on my ipod like nobody's business. always do. but i can hear of course! just that i choose whether i want to or not.
so thr's this person in green. i was walking. he was walking. and he said 'hi'. but i walked off. cant be bothered. he must be like "ape siak pompuan ni!"
haha!
cant be bothered lah mat. besides so malam alrdy. i'm like rushing for the bus. lucky 2nd last bus. i tink so. cuz last bus is 12.50am. and my bus came at abt 12.40am. and wth! i kept telling ppl i reached hm at 12.30am. *lol*
kk so my mum said that i reached almost 1am is correct. haha! and i still can argue wif her that i reached 12.30am.
and my dad go and lock the pagar. and it doesn't help that my bag is so full of things that i was standing thr seraching for the keys...let's c....5 mins? 5 mins is long ok.
and i was so urgent. my bladder nowadays so active. so whn he opened the door, i quickly rushed in. washed my legs in the kitchen toi. thn went in my rm put all my things down. and go into the master's toilet.
okok. 9.24 le. my dad wan cooked maggi. =)
hungry.
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Saturday, June 07, 2008 • 8:49:00 PM
last post was on 25th May. so what i've been up to?
supposed to start my revision todae. but cuz woke up late and went lib, thn reached hm abt 4.30pm thn slept. so yar.
oh! and maybe i've got the hardworking vibes with me. i woke up at 0645. was so socked! tot i was late. so i quickly brought my pillow, bolster and blanket to my rm and threw them on the bed.
was abt to go to my parents rm to shout "WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP??!!"
whn i realised that...it as a saturday. -_-
so took my pillow and bolster and went back to my sis rm to sleep. =)
yes. occasinally slept at her rm.
so tml shall start on ym revision. scary. esp the pty tax act module. tats hard. so many to memorise!
and so looking forward to fri! i want shop leh. i wan go vivo.
have asked Ira, Dad and Setay.
dunnoe can anot. but confirmed if one can, on sat i'm gg wif my mummy. she alrdy volunteered to be my shopping buddy. just that...maybe...never mind.
and and...i dun noe why but i'm feeling all excited and happy and eager.
ok. so as usual. at work i blogged. 3 days.
note: dun worry about me whn u read my next posts. i'm ok. just venting my frust cuz of the things i'm experiencing. dun worry kaes! =)
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27 May 2008It started agn. Like no cure leh. Of course if I tell my parents, they’ll start saying that I cant give up. Of course! Our faith and beliefs saes so. But it’s hard.
Especially with the society. Crap.
And yesterday was kind of devastating for me when I heard it. Gosh! Felt like crying. Yes. It’s me. And it’s affecting my future. So sad. I hope it can be made back correctly.
If in the future, really cannot make it, I’ll be very depressed! Trust me! And it seems that it’s been a long time. Way back in secondary school. Because of the pain. Oh my god-is all I can say. And right now when it hurts, I will think of it. And I’ll sink into sad mode. Damn sad I mean.
Anyway, slacking at work. Can say that the whole day I’ve slacked like crazy. Could have asked for work but:
1) later if she really give me work…OMG! Like the last time. Gave me like 60+ work items. And it really kept me busy.
2) I have my own work. But they are those needing approval or other teams to act on it first. Thn also the claimants themselves. Nd to wait for replies and all. But have calculated…about 45. something like that. What would she think?
And I’m starting to feel that I’m treated like a permanent staff here and not like how when I just came in. well, of course lah! What to expect??? Been here for like 2 months PLUS. Gosh!
And exam is next next wk. Haven’t touch a thing. And probation period ends somewhere in august or so. 6 months.
Notice how I type now? Full words. Cuz I wan to maintain my English. Feel like taking English degree. Don’t know leh. But like waste right? Might as well take degree related to my work or continue with my diploma.
But…don’t know leh.
Ok. So like I’ve said, bought my cam alrdy. Like the colour lah. Red! Canon powershot…A570 is it? Not too sure but it’s powershot. So from now on, whenever I go out, I’ll bring and camwhore all the way. But it’ll have to depend what kind of outing lah.
All right. So I can do some shopping. Saw this nice gladiator sandals at gojane. Torn between 5 colours. Hot pink, red, orange, white or yellow. In US$, it’s 17+. Don’t really know the shipping cost because can’t capture. Maybe go home later or so, I go see again.
Ok. Full spelling. But horrible grammar and sentences. Never mind.
And looking for long skirts. Boho chic! Haha!!!
This Thursday is graduation day. Wonder how it’ll be like. Since I have my camera with me now, going to grab people (I know of course!) and start camwhoring! Haha…like real. I’m the quiet kind, will I? And my parents there. Will I?
My sister is not at home from this morning till Thursday noon. Good thing? Yes-when she’s not in front of the computer. One month holiday DOK. Depan computer je.
Yes. Me too. But I’m doing work. For her, it’s enjoyment. Grr…
Oh! And the bibimbap at causeway point’s banquet is nice. Nicer than Zingdo’s. Except maybe the meat abit less. But it’s nice.
People around me are working. And I’m slacking like shit here.
Later meeting Ira to buy my white formal top for graduation and her covered black shoes for graduation. 4.39pm.
Ok. Helping Belinda do her work. But feel guilty towards Mdm Lim.
28 May 2008I feel like crying. It’s getting worst.
But I’m not to give up. I’ve a WHOLE many time ahead.
But sometimes it’s very sad and depressing. I want to be normal. Maybe because in the past I kept complaining about how bad my life is. I tell you.
It’s the society too. Please! Spare me. If it ever happens, don’t start looking at me like I’m a freak. Please!
Just play along with me. Treat it like you’ve never seen anything. Treat it like I’m listening and dancing to my songs.
PLEASE!!!
6 June 2008Slacking le. AM said that this week she’s gonna to give capalang work. As in all types of work. But in the end I can do only 20% of the total work she gives.
Anyway, can’t wait for pay next Thursday. But still must go through the exam first. Have not started studying can!
Alamak ruzaina, you nak fail eh? Then find jobs all over again.
4.44pm. it’s still the same. My condition. Torn between traditional and science. 70-30. there are times when I just want go for science. Irritating.
So long update never update my blog. Want change skin, lazy. Want change song, lazy. Can’t be bothered like the last time I’m in school. Besides I’m gonna WASTE my weekends and Tuesday on studying the exam. LIKE REAL.
But seriously I have to start. If I want to stick my butt in this company for LONG. If I want to get my MONEY!
So 9 minutes to BYE BYE.
Yishun people will think I am a freak. Why? Especially when I going home that time. I have to learn NOT TO CARE WHAT THE HELL OTHERS THINK.
I have to learn to say “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING AT? NOT FUNNY. NOW I GET IT. NEXT IT’S YOUR TURN. Then I’ll laugh and walk off. =)
Or better stick my tongue out. Haha!!!
Okay okay okay. 5 minutes more. 3 more. Haha!
Hurry! Want go home leh.
Tonight d-gray man. My lavi bookman. Haha!
Ok lah.
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didn't manage to watch D-gray man yest. was watching the indon ghost story on suria. all ghost stories are SAD.
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