Saturday, June 07, 2008 • 8:49:00 PM
last post was on 25th May. so what i've been up to?
supposed to start my revision todae. but cuz woke up late and went lib, thn reached hm abt 4.30pm thn slept. so yar.
oh! and maybe i've got the hardworking vibes with me. i woke up at 0645. was so socked! tot i was late. so i quickly brought my pillow, bolster and blanket to my rm and threw them on the bed.
was abt to go to my parents rm to shout "WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP??!!"
whn i realised that...it as a saturday. -_-
so took my pillow and bolster and went back to my sis rm to sleep. =)
yes. occasinally slept at her rm.
so tml shall start on ym revision. scary. esp the pty tax act module. tats hard. so many to memorise!
and so looking forward to fri! i want shop leh. i wan go vivo.
have asked Ira, Dad and Setay.
dunnoe can anot. but confirmed if one can, on sat i'm gg wif my mummy. she alrdy volunteered to be my shopping buddy. just that...maybe...never mind.
and and...i dun noe why but i'm feeling all excited and happy and eager.
ok. so as usual. at work i blogged. 3 days.
note: dun worry about me whn u read my next posts. i'm ok. just venting my frust cuz of the things i'm experiencing. dun worry kaes! =)
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27 May 2008It started agn. Like no cure leh. Of course if I tell my parents, they’ll start saying that I cant give up. Of course! Our faith and beliefs saes so. But it’s hard.
Especially with the society. Crap.
And yesterday was kind of devastating for me when I heard it. Gosh! Felt like crying. Yes. It’s me. And it’s affecting my future. So sad. I hope it can be made back correctly.
If in the future, really cannot make it, I’ll be very depressed! Trust me! And it seems that it’s been a long time. Way back in secondary school. Because of the pain. Oh my god-is all I can say. And right now when it hurts, I will think of it. And I’ll sink into sad mode. Damn sad I mean.
Anyway, slacking at work. Can say that the whole day I’ve slacked like crazy. Could have asked for work but:
1) later if she really give me work…OMG! Like the last time. Gave me like 60+ work items. And it really kept me busy.
2) I have my own work. But they are those needing approval or other teams to act on it first. Thn also the claimants themselves. Nd to wait for replies and all. But have calculated…about 45. something like that. What would she think?
And I’m starting to feel that I’m treated like a permanent staff here and not like how when I just came in. well, of course lah! What to expect??? Been here for like 2 months PLUS. Gosh!
And exam is next next wk. Haven’t touch a thing. And probation period ends somewhere in august or so. 6 months.
Notice how I type now? Full words. Cuz I wan to maintain my English. Feel like taking English degree. Don’t know leh. But like waste right? Might as well take degree related to my work or continue with my diploma.
But…don’t know leh.
Ok. So like I’ve said, bought my cam alrdy. Like the colour lah. Red! Canon powershot…A570 is it? Not too sure but it’s powershot. So from now on, whenever I go out, I’ll bring and camwhore all the way. But it’ll have to depend what kind of outing lah.
All right. So I can do some shopping. Saw this nice gladiator sandals at gojane. Torn between 5 colours. Hot pink, red, orange, white or yellow. In US$, it’s 17+. Don’t really know the shipping cost because can’t capture. Maybe go home later or so, I go see again.
Ok. Full spelling. But horrible grammar and sentences. Never mind.
And looking for long skirts. Boho chic! Haha!!!
This Thursday is graduation day. Wonder how it’ll be like. Since I have my camera with me now, going to grab people (I know of course!) and start camwhoring! Haha…like real. I’m the quiet kind, will I? And my parents there. Will I?
My sister is not at home from this morning till Thursday noon. Good thing? Yes-when she’s not in front of the computer. One month holiday DOK. Depan computer je.
Yes. Me too. But I’m doing work. For her, it’s enjoyment. Grr…
Oh! And the bibimbap at causeway point’s banquet is nice. Nicer than Zingdo’s. Except maybe the meat abit less. But it’s nice.
People around me are working. And I’m slacking like shit here.
Later meeting Ira to buy my white formal top for graduation and her covered black shoes for graduation. 4.39pm.
Ok. Helping Belinda do her work. But feel guilty towards Mdm Lim.
28 May 2008I feel like crying. It’s getting worst.
But I’m not to give up. I’ve a WHOLE many time ahead.
But sometimes it’s very sad and depressing. I want to be normal. Maybe because in the past I kept complaining about how bad my life is. I tell you.
It’s the society too. Please! Spare me. If it ever happens, don’t start looking at me like I’m a freak. Please!
Just play along with me. Treat it like you’ve never seen anything. Treat it like I’m listening and dancing to my songs.
PLEASE!!!
6 June 2008Slacking le. AM said that this week she’s gonna to give capalang work. As in all types of work. But in the end I can do only 20% of the total work she gives.
Anyway, can’t wait for pay next Thursday. But still must go through the exam first. Have not started studying can!
Alamak ruzaina, you nak fail eh? Then find jobs all over again.
4.44pm. it’s still the same. My condition. Torn between traditional and science. 70-30. there are times when I just want go for science. Irritating.
So long update never update my blog. Want change skin, lazy. Want change song, lazy. Can’t be bothered like the last time I’m in school. Besides I’m gonna WASTE my weekends and Tuesday on studying the exam. LIKE REAL.
But seriously I have to start. If I want to stick my butt in this company for LONG. If I want to get my MONEY!
So 9 minutes to BYE BYE.
Yishun people will think I am a freak. Why? Especially when I going home that time. I have to learn NOT TO CARE WHAT THE HELL OTHERS THINK.
I have to learn to say “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING AT? NOT FUNNY. NOW I GET IT. NEXT IT’S YOUR TURN. Then I’ll laugh and walk off. =)
Or better stick my tongue out. Haha!!!
Okay okay okay. 5 minutes more. 3 more. Haha!
Hurry! Want go home leh.
Tonight d-gray man. My lavi bookman. Haha!
Ok lah.
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didn't manage to watch D-gray man yest. was watching the indon ghost story on suria. all ghost stories are SAD.
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