Friday, October 24, 2008 • 9:46:00 PM

yepyep...i'm gg to post my blogs since 6/10/2008. HAHA!!!

y? cuz lazy to update and i nv go online...

gosh!!! hearing my mum talk abt my cousin...GOSH!!! FUCK THAT IDIOT DRIVER!!!

gosh reallie man cannot...haiz...don't noe what to sae. very poor thing...OMG!!!

reallie idiot driver lah!!!

Kk...other thn tat, nth much in my life. y? cuz i...nv go out. just now was on the VERGE of calling someone to go out tgt.

last sat also didn't go for the WRSS hari raya cuz of it. haiz...

and ltr 1st nov they having a karaoke session...though i sux at singing but i wan go lah can!

but hv to c how lor...

kk...past posts...

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Monday, October 06, 2008

Is this a sign? I SHOULD be quite happy todae…heart racing and all. But N-O.

Feeling moodless. Like that day…the Friday. Rmbr? The day whn I was wearing so slack thn skali tertimbul.

Todae…it’s not about my clothing. More to my mood solely. GOSH!

Does this mean that I’ve forgotten? I’ve managed to scrape it off in me?

Hmm…we shall c.

Yap, actually todae supposed to be happy lor.

Lala, kau bace ni? Aku hari ni SUPPOSED to be happy tau!

Haha…seriously I tot cool. But no, it’s reallie like some goody-two-shoes. Trust me. The actions and all. But nvm.

I’m better off with a goody-two-shoes ppl. =)

Why?

Cuz I’m goody-two-shoes MYSELF.

*grins*

Ok lah. Must chiong todae to meet my KPI for Friday. =)

Haz…if only it reallie happens.

Ok enough. Byez! For now maybe…

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Ok now I’m feeling abit…OFF. Nope it’s another feeling. Yes, it’s moodless but not from just now earlier. It’s a NEW thing. And it sux so much cuz this feeling hv relations with my EVERYDAY life.

You noe…if I reallie cannot take it, thn this itself will determine my FUTURE.

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I AM CRAVING FOR NEW HANDPHONE AND NEW IPOD. =)

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Can people don’t be rude over the phone? Or rather don’t be rude to ME?

Sheesh! I called just now and her voice was damn rude lor. Don’t want to talk, then don’t do business! Grr…

But nvm. That person asked her agent to call me instead. And she’s so FRIENDLY lah can!

So ok my mood is back now.

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NO! MY MOOD IS GONE-TOTALLY GONE!!! I’M A FREAK!

*sigh*

WHY IT STARTED AGAIN? I ATE LIKE 1/10 OF MY TOM YUM BAN MIAN.

No, not cuz I was full. Cuz I had the feeling it’s coming. Sry babes, I lied.

IT’S DISGUSTING CAN!!! WHY WHY WHY!!! WHY ME!!!

I THOUGHT IT’S GONE. I REALLY THOUGHT IT’S GONE. SERIOUSLY. THOUGHT IT’S ONLY AT NIGHT. BUT NO! IT CAME BACK!!! I AM SO ANGRY! I DON’T KNOW WHO TO BE ANGRY AT. ME?!

BUT I DIDN’T CHOOSE IT!

I guess…maybe just now morning it’s a sign that I SHOULD give up. Yes-give up all hopes. So what if it turns? So what if it looks? So what huh? SO WHAT?

I AM SERIOUSLY IN NO MOOD RIGHT NOW. SERIOUSLY NO MOOD. I HATE THIS. I REALLY DO.

NO ONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL! THE AGONY!

Only Allah. Yes-Allah.

And one thing…don’t treat me like so delicate and all or WORST-a freak. Please! That is what I ask of you. ALL.

Thank you.

I can seriously cry right now. I’m serious. And this time, if I do really cry, I WILL NOT stop.

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Slowly coming back-my mood.

HAHA! If ppl totally have no idea what I’m talking about, they will think I’m mad. I’m not mad. Spilt personally or something. Just…just that…just that thr’s some things I DON’T WANT to reveal.

Tml is a brand new day. Make sure that nothing goes wrong. But I don’t know leh. Just now, I felt that I’m being shove aside.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

I hope JUST NOW lighten me up! As in THAT THING wont’ come back again.

Haha-so many THINGS in my life. This thing I’m referring to yest that I was frustrated about.

Ahh!!! So happy lah can!

But I was too…caught up with THAT THING that I gave THIS THING a miss. So sad lah can!

Ahh!!! I am so over the universe!!!

Gagagaga…

I’m so gonna SMILE the whole day now. Hope tml got another chance lah!!! Then I’ll grab the opportunity!!!

OMG!!! I’m like bursting with happiness!

But don’t later THAT THING appears. CONFIRM-CHOP CHOP! All gone.

But nvm. As for now I AM SO HAPPY!!!

MUACKX TO EVERYONE!!!

Peace no war.

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It started when I went to the toilet just now.

Actually right, whn I read back what I typed abt THAT THING…I get scared lor. I can imagine you all, who are reading this, to be thinking WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME. =)

Like some scary spilt personality has appeared within me right? Haha! It’s not spilt. It’s still me but…NEVERMIND. Not ready to reveal. Maybe some of you know alrdy but maybe you all haven’t see the serious side.

Gosh!

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

I shan’t blog much today cuz I really have no mood now.

It became worst! Yest to and fro had to take taxi. Though fro was much of a I-NEED-TO-GO-HOME-EARLY.

But anyway, it sux. Morning! While in the train lor can!

I think it happened before but that was like…4 mths back?! And only ONCE!

And now it became so serious!

I reallie don’t know what is happening to me. What did I do to trigger this? I was well and fine…I mean it didn’t disappear but it reduced.

It started on Sunday. What did I do? I was normal what! My typical life.

JUST WHAT WRONG DID I DO? Did I eat wrongly? No.

Kk…gonna clear my work items esp those before 5/10/2008.

Kk…

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THANKS BABES FOR ALL THE CONCERN. REALLIE APPRECIATE IT! MUACKX!!!

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Ok. An announcement.

Today, it’s the WORST DAY! 6 times already…or it is 7?

And…I am so gonna take a taxi home. No train. I hope today will be the only day.

Kalau tidak, parah sak!!! Lain lah kalau aku ade laki kaya gilerr nye!!!

K lah, ruzaina. There’s nothing you can do MUCH. So just be strong. Ppl stare, stare back. Come on! Your hair short already what. Can be gangster already!

Haha…ok my back hurts. It has reached a point where I can just cry while walking. Don’t care the surroundings. Nk tengok tengok lah! aku tak hairan faham! Da nasib aku gini-bukan aku mintak!

Ok official working hrs is over but thn staying back awhile cuz wan cut cake with Rahmah. Her bdae todae. =)

Haiz…I really don’t know what’s happening to me now. My head also like beginning to spin.

Am I really having the fever?

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Ok in the morning never alrdy. Lunchtime and gg home.

Yest went home by walking from interchange. Slowly ba ruzaina.

Ok nv c alrdy. Tink it’s enough lah. Maybe on a long vacation. Disappearing act. So nvm. =)

My emotions cannot be too great now, if not GONE. Will start de lor.

No angry, no sad, no nervous (ESPECIALLY!) , no worries…too happy I still don’t know.

Ate BK breakfast. Act tot of eating the omelet sandwich, but Belinda said don’t. Ltr lunch thn never eat-which was true. So I just bought the $2 meal. Ate the croissant quite fast lor. Kinda still hungry. But after drinking the cappuccino like…3/4 down, full le. Haha!!!

So I don’t know whether I can survive lunch. C how. Cuz today staying back awhile. Act tot of pei-ing Belinda till after her piano lessons. But thn it’ll be 9pm. So late alrdy. And I can’t go home late. My parents also abit not happy lor. Thn decided just stay till 7.30pm. as in whn she goes off for her piano, thn I also go off. But my dad fetching so c how lah.

Not cuz I wan waste time. But I wan to do MORE work. It’s like piling up!

Yes-so…ok forget what I wan say.

K lah, shall do work now. Ok todae shall ta pau back cuz Belinda’s lunch is 11.30am. =)

You noe what makes me slack? I don’t like when I’m focusing on one thing then got hiccups. I’m doing my 2nd NT now thn wan to ask Alice something. But she’s on the phone. I dun like to put aside. Just wan to get it over and done wif.

Just like back in sch days. If I do maths, ESPECIALLY, if thr’s 10 qns and I’m stuck at qn 4, though qn 5-10 are easy…I just won’t have the mood. =(

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shook while at LJS. My dinner cuz I staying back. It’s 7.07pm now but I’m still here.

And power 98 playing this song!!! THE SONG BABE!!!

Haiz…all rekindled. All appeared. Grr…geram je…

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Hmm…I think that this wk won’t appear cuz…NEVER MIND.

Ok so now I’m like slowly clearing my new/supplied work till 10/10/2008.

Todae I am a black/white lady. Haha!!!

I’ve realized that black looks good on me and I feel more comfortable with black. =)

And and yesterday, I realized that I’m like…SO POOR NOW!!! $8 per working day till ym next pay. More than that and I’m DEAD.

Gosh!!! Maybe this mth I shall…erm…don’t eat too much? Maybe on some days buy sandwiches from 7-11 then heat up during lunch?

Gosh!!! Pls make me lose my appetite for the month of october ONLY pls!

I am so broke lah can!!! It’s like what I was in poly days…struggling…but the thing is, I only struggled back then when it’s nearing end of the mth. But this is just a few days after I got my pay. HOW CRUEL!

I don’t even know what I spent on. I never do clothes shopping.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Tired already lah so nvm yar. Just treat it as…to perk me up for awhile. =)

Ok…so what am I doing now? Just cleared all those WORK which were being dragged cuz of the waiting for replies. Then dragged till I kept forgetting about them. And and…the TCOs did them. Haha!!!

So now my trays up to date alrdy..empty…

Ended that at a few mins after 11am. And lunch at 11.30am. So kinda wan to freshen up lah…shall continue doing NEW work items…after lunch at 12.30am.

Going to fork and spoon, eating ban mian. Actually at first I want. Ok nvm. I wan eat the white chic..rice.

Yap-chic rice but the chic is white. At first I tot not nice lah. then one day, after sick of eating lemon and roasted, decided to try. And not bad. nice.

=)

Also, Belinda was the one who told me to try. She said it’s nice. =)

Friday, October 17, 2008

Confirm this week is not meant to be…=(

Maybe Monday but nvm I didn’t c it myself.

I don’t know why but this song, will ALWAYS remind me of it. Like sounds exactly and suit the voice lah…HAHA!!!

Ok so now slowly clearing my obj forms…from a whopping 100++ to now-30+. So happy!!! And todae gonna stay back awhile cuz waiting for my Dad, maybe can clear more.

And next week, when the calls start coming in, gonna be stressful. Hope none lor…

I just hate calling. Grr…

Monday, October 20, 2008

Though it’s not bad like it used to be, but then the feeling still lingers…yes. And it’s for something non-existence. -_-“

So later meeting my family to go home tgt. If they gg to my 3rd aunt’s hse thn we shall go also…

And this dress..horrible on lah can!!! and it doesn’t help tat I’m feeling kind of bloated here. I looked like a lady who already has 2 children and another in her stomach. YES!!!

Ok, my figure is not flattering in the first place but what the hell???!!!

Haha! Listening to my ipod. Used to be so emo over this song. Haha!!!

Cuz the drama DAMN SAD LAH CAN!!!

Okok..my ipod dying soon..tink 1 more song…and this afternoon’s infocomm course cancelled. Happy cuz I can do more work..HAHA!!! clearing my NTs now.

Chris brown-forever…it’s a nice song…

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Ok this is killing me. Slowly and slowly it comes back. Give me a break pls!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Yes I noe. Have complained and complained and what-nots. But WTH!!!

Suddenly todae up my mood sia…HAHA!!!

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Lala, aku jumpe die lagi!!! After 1 week da tk jumpe!!! Muahahaha…

Fieza also! I jumpe die tau…HAHA!!! Ala…ape pape u first pe..ape tk? Pagi2x da email email…haha!!!

Oh Fieza…emailing her can be…it’s…aiyah! It’s just very…HAHA!!! Simply said: U CAN JUST GO CRAZY!

Oh…I want to go to…Carrefour…got novels selling at $6. Why I want to go whn thr’s MPH SALE coming in nov? Cuz..the ads showed micheal connelly’s books. I want the WHOLE harry bosch series CAN!!!

Hungry…I at home not hungry. Aiyah even if hungry also cannot eat.

So my mum ta pau for this er…the cashier said “WAAH! YOU ALSO KNOW HOW TO EAT THIS AH? TOT ONLY CHINESE PPL KNOW”

Ok shall go eat now…and do work.

To end off: I am just happy. *grins*

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From happy to SLEEPY!!! Yes..i have this urge not to go for lunch with them and just take a nap here. Then maybe I go ta pau my own food from lvl 5.

DAMN SLEEPY MAN!!!

I can just close my eyes now and sleep…GOSH!!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Haha! Lagu miang ni…tapi sedap…

Anyway, it’s on again. =) lucky came at the right time.

But thn…HAHA! Like I told Fieza, it’s HORRIBLE LAH!!! Can get rid of it?

And the train is agreeing wif me. Kept jerking when reaching every station. Hit my head against the glass at khatib.

Skipped khatib and braddell. Don’t noe why also…2 reasons. New driver. Train making fuss in the morning.

Ok I don’t know why but my left side of the brain like thumping like tat. Is it cuz I don’t hv enough sleep? But it only started on mon. and since mon l slept at 11pm lor..usual lor…

Ok looking forward to the weekends! Want sleep like ONE BIG MADAM!!!

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My head is throbbing…grr!!! And I am so bloated. Ok maybe cuz I drank cold water…HAHA!!!

As in plain water but ti’s cold alrdy lor…

AND AND…LAGU MIANG NI LAGI!!!

But I likeee…

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MAK!!! LAGU MIANG NI LAGI!!! 3 TIMES IN A DAY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Okies…sianz…very sad u noe…ok nvm lah…just accept it…

Kk…

Thursday, October 23, 2008

HAHA! Nvm..only Fieza noes what I’m toking abt…=) but she won’t read lor…

Anyway, todae feel like going home myself leh. As in take bus..so long nv take…all along my Dad fetched. But scared SHAKE. Haiz…

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Lagu miang tu…lagu ni lah yg…buat aku terfikir balek…

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Haiz…kept thinking about it AGAIN. Stress sia…

Others will feel so EXCITED LOR! Only me weird weird de…

Rain is at fault. Grr…that is why I hate it when it’s raining/drizzling in the morning…GRR!!!

ROAR!!!

Tml okays tml…HAHA!!!

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I HATE YOU LAH CAN!!! GRR…ROAR!!!

Haha..i want go rihanna’s concert on 13th nov leh…

But it’s a thurs night. And I can’t go home at night…SAD LEHX!

Haiz…life…

I HATE YOU LAH CAN!!!

C now what happen…boleh jadi giler sak…

Ok. Had chicken rice for lunch. The white chic. I tot ta pau so I packet lah…skali no lor…haha…like waste Styrofoam and plastic…

Thn after much S-H-O-R-T persuasion from Miss Belinda…bought peach milk tea. And now feeling abit bloated liao.

And today shall go home myself. Try lah…hope can lor. Must slowly.

Haiz…tkde blog ke? Or something for me?

The one that existed is so long-ago one…

Ok I like my hair onie whn’s I’m feeling hip and cool and especially when it’s WET. =)

And my front hair…irritating seyy!

Kept falling…and it doesn’t help that I have short forehead so if I cut shorter very FARNIE!

My longest post for the week. I think I haven update like 3 wks of blog posts alrdy…

Ok shall MOLEST the comp tml night. No shows right?

Wan update my WRSS raye photos-taken at my house ONLY.

And update my blog. Add something too to it…

And and…actually thr’s nothing much to do online. Play games? MY MAPLE LAH!!! Don’t noe what happen to it…I think have lor abt 1 yr nv touch. Maybe kena hack… haha!!! But CONFIRMED I’m out of my guild. =(

Maybe if I ever do log in, GONE!!! I’ll be so kekok.

Hmm what else? Ok head is kinda spinning now and I’m lazy to do work. Ok shall start at 1pm. 1.5 hrs lunch break, of which, 30mins is spent to blog…14 mins left…

13mins.

Ok lah. nth much to blog also…

Just last thing.

I HATE YOU LAH CAN!!!

*grins*

Friday, October 24, 2008

Ok this is getting crazy lah can! It’s back…that benda.

I even…mak adui!!! Boleh giler sak kalau gini…

Why did it appear? Why? Maybe better off if you gone lah you DAMN THING!

Whn I’ve relaxed, appear again. then now torturing me…*sigh*

Ok shall focus on other things…

Yest night my mum rec a SHOCKING NEWS from my aunt. Not gonna broadcast..it’s not something to broadcast around…

But very shocked!!! When she said I was imagining it lor…kept thinking about it…till I slept.

My mum said go tml. Visit him tml. Cuz today my sis got sch in the afternoon.

Very what lor!!!! I am still very shocked!!! It’s not some faraway but it’s someone CL-O-S-E.

Gosh, I hope he’s all right.

And kau leh lek one corner sua!!! Geram je…

Grr…today gg hm at 5pm. Go home straight. Whr can go out alrdy?

Haiz…maybe whn I get my pay thn wan buy wallet lah. Haha! Don’t know can anot…considering the situation now…

Monday hols. Happy and sad. Sad cuz…cuz…GRR!!! Forget it.

I’m like this mad girl rambling, grumbling to herself! =(

Ok shall try to clear as many WIs…work items. Work lah.

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Argh! I can’t get it off my mind!!! So pissed…

Ok maybe been thru this before…and it stretched for like 1 yr everytime…but that’s ONE YEAR LAH! oh…this is my…er…2nd or 3rd? haha! But I tink it’s nv been this intense before…

This is FOREVER-at least like…er…till…er…ARGH! So pissed!

Can I tok to someone?! Someone!!!

Bwahaha…I am very crazy now…

I want to go out! I want to go out NOW!!! Mum, can I go out???!!!

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Ok this is getting retarded. Sucky. I HATE YOU.

Anyway, had nuggets meal for lunch. Upsized but the drink, I gave to Jaselyn.

Then also bought choco sundae…eating it NOW. Act I tot of buying oreo but dunnoe y I go and sae sundae. But nvm. ¾ in the stomach alrdy…

Ok seriously…hope won’t drag lah…thn tue can c how. *sigh*

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Ok done...HAHA!!! long huh? nvm lah...used to it alrdy mah...

and and WRSS peeps, wan pix taken at my house with my camera...go my shutterfly yarz!!! right column..just scroll and find...=)

ok very scary now...my cousin reallie...

STUPID DRIVER LAH!!!

Thank You