Sunday, November 30, 2008 • 9:42:00 PM

tml officially, will be my stress life!

at least till fri noon. =(

i am very sad.

i tell u! i am very stressed and tired. i reallie dun like it.

i've been staying back RELIGIOUSLY since last LAST thurs...how crappy!!!

i am very stressed and sad.

but u noe what?

JUST NOW maybe it did help ABIT. lighten up my mood.

yes-it has appeared. though i didnt c the skin. =)

anyway,

Lala! Sowie tk dpt tengok kau nye acting ehx...sowie ah! jgn majok kaes?!

and and kau da tk busy kan? jom kluar!!!

Thank You

Thursday, November 20, 2008 • 10:25:00 PM

i'm here cuz not i wanna surf. tml work dok!

cuz my family at Wak Dol's hse. thn since they were thr, wanna help wif the email of the photos. cuz i've sent before but he nv rec.

anyway, here r my updates of blogging at work.

it's been SO LONG since i LAST touch this keyboard and it feels different!

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Monday, November 03, 2008

SO EMBARASSING LAH CAN!!!

Wore skirt today…thn whn I reached the office lift, MAK KAU!!!

Senget like shit lor..instead of the pockets being by my sides, they’re like front and back!

OMG!!!

So malu!!!

I want to go out. Anyone wan to go marina square next fri? I want to buy cardigan or something for DnD. And accessories too…and and shoes. Or vivo? ANYONE???

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MALU SAK!!! OMG!!!

Todae is just NOT my day!!!

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Rubbish shit!

Haha…u noe how old ppl say if ur brows or eyes twitch then u wanna meet SOMEONE?

Crap lor!!! My brows kept twitching since last wk or so…but MEET NO ONE. Haha!!!

Everytime tell my mum, she will say that but no lor. Whr got?

If it’s really true, I would have meet MANY someoneS alrdy…haha!!!

Thn thr r some who say left side, bad omen. Right side, good omen. Hmm…haha!!!

Nvm…don’t reallie believe lah but just respect lor. Respect can mah! No nd make a big fuss. I noe of SOMEONE who make a HUGE FUSS like he/she WILL die…

Ok enough. My left…leg pain. The…aiyah! Cuz new shoe thn tight…sianz.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Had Melt’s for lunch…now DAMN FULL. But still craving for cakes.

Bought yest but nv eat so still in the fridge…

Anyway, yep I noe I said forget abt it. But JUST NOW I hv this feeling that it’s just the location. OK NEVERMIND.

Think it’s over…I mean myself. It’s over. So it’s gonna be a LONG TIME before the next one. Hope the next one is TRUE.

Haha! Wth…

Anyway, I am still scratching my head what to wear for DnD. It’s next sat. and on fri, tinking of buying…but like no one’s free leh…

I only need a top and accessories. Shoes can just get on sat itself…or maybe fri also. But shoes…aiyah! Shoes not much of a hassle…

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This love has taken its toll on me…She said goodbye…too many times before…

I want S$5000 NOW. Pls. Thank you. Muackx!

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Though it’s NOT INTENSE but thn…*sigh*

Anyway, I wanna go out!!!

I want to go out lah can!!! I’m bored…

Todae is the black and grey combi!!! HAHA!!! 4 of us…

Belinda wore grey dress with some black details.

Jaslyn wore the opposite…black dress with grey details.

Joshua wore grey top and black pants.

And I wore black top and grey pants.

Haha!!! Then Belinda said later MUST take photo…so CUN lor…

Like what Belinda said, black is common so it’s ok. But the combi…with grey…now that’s superb.

So we 4 are like one big family…HAHA!!! Jln raya…maybe Christmas. Cuz not baju kurung…HAHA.

Ok rubbish.

Continue with work.

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If I do work now till 5.30pm like just now, wld have meet the target alrdy!!!

But anyway, ate rice. Now craving for cakes..but I scared TOO FULL!!!

So nvm shall wait…

I still hv my chocolate and mango cakes in the fridge…from the royals. To which, I don’t know why ppl say no taste…GOT TASTE WHAT!!!

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Nth much to blog abt these days…

Boring life lor!

Hmm…cept that this sat thr’s a BBQ. My cousin’s bdae.

At pasir ris. Don’t noe torn thr anot…

Is that how u spell it?

Today my KPI sux…I only did 1 work for the WHOLE morning…

So…

Now chiong ah!!! If not tml hv to stay back to something…

If not, thn the following weeks also have to chiong. And it doesn’t help that thr WILL be days whr I slack.

Like frm mon-wed, yest I chiong to complete more work to cover up…

Kk..sleepy…

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My eyes DAMN heavy!!!

And thr’s a pimple on my face!!!

Actually this appeared tgt with the one on my cheek. Then last Friday, Lala was laughing at it. Thn ok le…

Thn now the one under the nose…and it’s the same! Friday is tml…but guess not meeting anyone so NEVERMIND.

Haha!!! But it’s irritating lah can!!!

And hurry 5.30pm. I wan to sleep!

Maybe board my dad’s lorry, thn sleep.

But later sure gatal! 5pm thn not sleepy liao!!!

Friday, November 07, 2008

Today is Friday and I am bored. I wanna go out.

Ok this wk has been mundane for me cept maybe for Wed (to which I don’t noe why. Actually, it’s normal just that I feel wed is more…special?)

But anyway, haha! It has acted up again. the disappearing act and whatnot. So crappy lah can.

But I can also feel myself more…NO HOPE. GIVE UP.

Haha! Which is…very good I guess. In a way.

The only thing is it’s gonna take a LONGER TIME to catch a new one.

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT MINAH?

Haha…I noe SOMEONE will say that.

But nvm lah you MINAH!

Ok enough of minah.

I have NOT finish my breakfast and I’m already thinking what to eat for lunch.

BK??? I want fastfood. Thn go home walk and eat ice-cream.

And my paddle pop rainbow (bought by my sis on…haha! Forgot.) is still sleeping in the freezer. Rotting away. That’s me. I buy and I like to keep it LONG LONG.

So buying things for me need expiry date that is like EONS later…yep!

Maybe that’s why I used to love notebooks in the bookstores. Cuz can keep as long as I want till the paper rot.

I think I still have…OH! A1? Rmrbr that time their debut album thn it came with a phonebook?

I have NOT used it even once. I think I molested it like…twice? And A1 is like…hmm…8 yrs ago? HAHA!!!

Hmm actually wanted to say something else but I forgot.

So nvm…it’s 8.24am. shall finish my last bread and do work.

I am NOT working in an office but a FISH MARKET!!!

Damn noisy lah can!!!

Cuz of the phone team lor!!!

Now it’s peak period so LOTZ of calls coming in and it’s very noisy!!!

*sigh*

I can’t even hear my ALREADY-LOUD radio. I mean not LOUD LOUD lah. But it’s considered for office alrdy…though thr’s someone else that is LOUDER…

SHUT UP ALREADY!!!

Damn noisy! Wan to hear my ipod but…it’s charging…HURRY CHARGE!!!

Lunch today is at 1pm. Cuz Belinda going down till 1pm. But nvm.

Thn 3 hours of work. Then bye bye.

And today I am NOT gg out. So sianz. I wanna go out!!!

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and I’m listening to my ipod..but batt gonna DIE SOON.

But nvm…I’ll charge till 5pm.

And and now listening to Alicia Keys’ No one. And and..it reminded me…OMG!!!

This sux…why is this song associated with it?

Mullo-so!!!

Is that you spell it?

Ok nvm…59 mins to lunch…=)

If they are ta pau-ing back I’m buying either BK and LJS. But the thing is I don’t noe which. Then still got what meal to buy…HAHA!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Like what I told Fieza…”kembar kot?”

Cuz it’s reallie different! Haha…

Ok lah finish. End it here…

Lunchtime coming soon…Belinda is DAMN BUSY! Nv reply my IM…poor her lor.

Thn now thinking what to eat. I noe I am hungry…I am VERY HUNGRY!!!

But I dunnoe what to eat..i guess if they all ta pau back, I buy lvl 5 lah. I tink shd be ta pau back cuz the weather’s not good…

Oh! Why am I so fussy above? Cuz…same place, same item…same..cept the face and the fashion abit OFF…and the…the…what’s tat called? The…attitude. Very weird. Like totally different but same condition. How funny. There you are. The things in life.

Kk..lunch coming soon. Rihanna will be here!!! It’s freaking this Thursday!!!

Crap.

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I am gg to create a NEW blog whr all my REAL feels will be thr…and the names…I tink…

But thn this blog shall NOT be updated on a DAILY BASIS!!!

It’s like once in a yellow moon??!!??!!

Only if there’s something NEW in my life…grr…

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Like what I told Fieza.

Tak puas! Tk puas! Nk tau jugak nk tau jugak!!!

And what’s with Natasha bedingfield’s song and this situation???

At first it was Pocketful of Sunshine and NOW Angel.

Ok POS is the meeting. Angel is more of…passing by…HAHA?

And it sux cuz…of yest. SUDDENLY all hopes dashed. Haha!

Never expected it lor. Like mak nenek sak!

Kk, ltr at 10am like tat hv to go down meet this TP. Just to pass some docs, whn I’m not even the one whom he is supposed to pass. And the freaking fire drill! Winston, don’t be busy pls!!!

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SHIT! Can I just do my OWN work? No nd bother?

Haiz…

Now I’m in a big mess. IF the TP complains or anything…

*sigh*

What did u get urself into lah ruzaina? Die lah you!

Haiz…ok I can feel the stress coming in…I just don’t like this feeling lor…

And JUST, I felt that feeling creeping in. NO! PLS NO!

Ok all the more I’m feeling DAMN GUILTY. Very what lor! Sianz lah!!! I just dun like this!!!

If no one knew, thn I can just do it safely…

Ok good thing is I’ve learnt my lesson. I’ve learnt something.

Ok tink heck lah…worst come to worst…QUIT LOR.

But thn…

Ok this just sux big time. This is damn sucky.

Crap!!!

I wanna go back to sch!

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why do I keep running from the truth. All I ever think about is you. You got me hynotised, so mesmerized and I just got to know…

Nice song lor…david..archutela? arcu…whatever his name is!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Hmm…now in the office we using Microsoft 2007. Which sux cuz I'M LOST.

Haha!!!

Anyway, like what I’ve told Fieza, I’m back to normal me. Appear jiu appear. Disappear jiu disappear.

Haha! But ltr once appear, thn I’ll be so OVER THE MOON. Thn disappear and I’ll be so DAMN DISAPPOINTED.

Crap.

I’ve been a bad girl since last last wk. Been eating fastfd like 3 times a week. But there’s reallie nth to eat.

Maybe I keep eating fastfood thn one day will be sianz. Thn nv eat alrdy.

How convenient!

Okies, back to work. =)

Oh one more thing.

I MUST LEARN HOW TO SMILE AT LEAST 16 HOURS DAILY. I don’t like my expression whn I’m alone. Haha! I think everyone’s afraid of me lor. Cuz I never smile whn I’m alone. =)

And that makes candid photos of myself just sucky. =)

So smile, ruzaina SMILE!

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I don’t noe why this lagu MIANG just kept reminding me of it…which sux. No it’s NOTHING to do with the lyrics or anything…it’s the voice.

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c? c? c?

the last post was using th new microsoft and it sux. i hv to MANUALLY 'enter'.

nvm...shall c peeps on wkends! i hope.

oh..tml i'm NOT gg out. anyone wan date me? hees...

Thank You

Sunday, November 02, 2008 • 1:51:00 AM

whose Gerrard?

my BOYFRIEND!!!

...

happy bdae to him!!!

so what hv i been up to?

Fri after work went back to SP. omg!!! tell u all, once i stepped into the campus, i DON'T feel like gg home!!! if Lala had not wanting to go off, (cuz she got date la katekan...) i wld hv forced her to stay on lor!!!

reallie missed man!

i want to go back to sch! i missed sch! i regret it all. wasted 3 yrs of my life. GRR!!!

yep, cannot turn back time so hv to move on. but WTH!!!

reallie, the feeling of regret was thr and it's DAMN deep!

almost wanted to cry lah can!

it was Ungu's concert too. if not wld hv gone lor. HAHA!

don't whether Kak Hosmah took photos anot. was reminding her to take photos of the, esp the bassist. the cute guy in the band. haha!

kk updates for this wk at work.

*sigh* reallie missed sch. regret i wasted 3 yrs of my life. grr...

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

First: I am SERIOUSLY BROKE NOW.

Second: I miss school. I regret not behaving like a student and taking the opportunity to change myself. To be rowdy. JADI GILE GILE…

That’s also my regret right now. Really. My regret.

So to all you youngsters out there, enjoy your youth pls. Don’t’ complain “so many homeworks lah” “no time to go out lah” “ no money lah”

Trust me-earning MORE money and getting more freedom is LESS thn being in school itself.

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just came back from lunch. Bought rice…lemon chic cutlets (ok lah, can taste the lemon)…and fishball soup…and rice. GUESS HOW MUCH? $3.50!!!

might as well I go lvl 5 ta pau…chicken/meat (BIG PIECE!!!), vege and side-sih like potato cake or egg or something. Same price lor…

GRR…

But nvm lah inside my stomach thn ok also..it’s ok I guess…

Thn also bought papaya and chiku…SO LONG NEVER EAT CHICKU LAH CAN!!!

Last time after sch, MUST BUY!!! And tat was…er…14 yrs ago? HAHA!!!

I miss my sch days lah..still mrb. Kindergarten. Pri. Sec. Poly (freshest!)…

I want to go back to sch can? go back to being 5 yrs old. Ok too much to ask for? Sec1 can? still too much? Aiyah but I tink sec 1 is a good time.

Oklah…year 1? Poly? THAT’S THE MOST GIVEAWAY I can give. Aiyah!!! PLEASE!!!

I seriously am missing my sch life. I don’t want to grow old YET. I still want to be a student.

Yep, ppl will say “thn go uni lah!”

My ass! Uni is different alrdy…uni anytime can go. But u can never go back to kindergarten, pri, sec…poly maybe can. like uni lor. Tat is why I can only make poly the ultimate choice if ever I can go back to the past.

DAMN IT! I don’t want to grow old!!!

This is scary!!!

12.36pm. lunchtime over alrdy btu what I care? I want to keep whining!!!

I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!

Ok other things to worry about…I HECK THIS THING ALREADY! CAN JUST GO AND SIT AT HOME…grr…all is forgotten. I guess. Yep-I guess.

BUT WTH!!! I want to go back to school!!!

MUMMY!!! I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! DADDY!!!

AHHHHH…SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL!!!

I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL.

And what’s with this BSB songs, FIZA O?

HAHA BSB…pri 4…stll rmrbr lor! And I was pairing them up with spice girls.

Let’s c.

Nick-Emma (Baby)
Brian-Mel C (Sporty)
Howie-Victoria (Posh)
AJ-Mel B (Scary)
Kevin-I forgot her name but it’s Ginger…

HAHA!!!

Wait actually I kinda forget btw AJ and Kevin. Haha!!! As in pair up with who…it’s either way lah.

Thn thr was N*SYNC. To which, I find Justin DAMN UGLY with his curly hair. I like lance but he turned out to be a GAY. -_-

Thn thr was boyzone. Thn thr was 5ive, I like that guy who looked like Chinese. Haha!!! Thn B*Witched, Billie Piper…and many many. Grr…OH! The Corrs…

And The Mofafts! Yep so damn crazy over them. Even exchanged email addy with this girl who claimed to be Dave Moffatt’s GF. Haha! Thn towards the end of our exchanging emails, she said that she’s actually into Clint and he’s into her. And thr was Scott who is into her too. WTH!

And claimed that Clint and Scott were emailing me too…thn said coming to Japan. And that was the last I heard of her. HOW CRAPY.

But of course the naïve me believed her till months after she has disappeared from my email contacts. HAHA!!!

How convenient. Internet. 12.46pm. Gonna stop my lunch at 1pm.

Thn what else? Oh! Release of their last album-submodalities. And gone. No more of them. HAHA!!!

Listened to the CD till it got scratched. And bought a new one. But I don’t know what happen to the CD. I mean hello! At that time whr got mp3? Whr got download download?

Or have lah. It’s my cousin who intro me to Napster. Btu wth! No mp3 player. HAHA! Only had my FIRST handphone in sec 2. still rmrbed same model, same first 3 digits number with my ONLY pri sch friend whom I kept in touch OCASIONALLY-Zakiah.

Model? Nokia 3315. The green one. HAHA!!! That was the IN-THING.

Thn my hp became 3200. thn 6610i. Thn 7390. and next yr april it shall be..I DON’T KNOW. Cuz hp now all looks the same. I mean the functions I dun really use. It’s more of the looks that I’m looking for. Alrdy hv a mp3 player. And gonna buy a new one soon. Cuz this is like YEARS AGO model and…it’s just time to change lah! And camera? Just bought last may.

So we shall c.

Currently now am torn btw N85, N96, Samsung…the slide phone. Ok basically slide phones. =)

Cuz I’ve tried block, flip. So now want slide. Actually last time whn Ira bought her slide phone…I was so totally against it. HAHA!!!

Klakar lah kau ruzaina. Dah cash-strapped pon nk fikir fikir beli ape.

HAHA!!!

Sedih sungguh.

12.54pm. 6 mins.

12.55pm. 5 mins.

Ok…hmm…I just want to go back to school. Yes-I am still with my school thing. I am so sad lah can! I wan to go back to school!!!

Maybe if I had lead a diff life, all will be so different. Maybe I don’t even have a blog. Cuz can’t be bothered. Terlalu enjoy sngt kat luar. HAHA!!!

NUS is damn huge!!!

Ok lah. enough I guess for today. Am looking forward to 5.30pm. And pls! No calls for me pls!!!

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‘Breathless’ by Shane Wayrd is the perfect song to describe how I would to feel. Haha!!!

And and..LAGU MENTEL NI LAGI!!!

Haha!!! Baru aku nk lupe…teringat lagi! Mak kau!!!

Nope, it’s not the song. It’s the voice. Mcm suit gitu…

K lah…mepek pulak minah ni!

Oh my current craze for song is Katy Perry’s Hot n Cold.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Haha! Like what I told Fieza, da penat lah menunggu and mengharapkan.

Haha!!!

Nanti bile I da ok, timbul pulak…HAHA! Gatal nye minah!

kk…after eating two of the sardines sandwich, my stomach like something wrong leh…like weird weird. Feel like vomiting. Haha! Hope nothing goes wrong.

Ok left with less than an hour, thn I’m going for the Infocomm course. Will be back at 11.30am. but by that time. Lunch time.

Then at 3pm another course technology and U. to which I dun noe what it’s about.

Ok shall at least do 3 work before I go off…can anot?

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Hmm abt thr lah. met my KPI. Like a target. How many work we nd to do each working day.

Yap-and hv decided to just forget it. Come what may. Haha!!!

Thursday, 30 October 2008

Tup tup…da Khamis.

So fast lah can!!!

And yep, I think that’s it. Case closed. Finish.

Da malas. =)

Hope tml can go out lor…as in no LAST minute changes.

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I just love that Crush song by David Ar…that AI boy. Haha!!!

Natahsa's Angel is not bad too…Ina’s Fall too. And of course! Katy Perry’s Hot n Cold. I initially tot it was Pink’s song.

Friday, October 31, 2008

See? I told you peeps! It has appeared AGAIN! Crap…

But thn I okok lah. not MUCH effect. Maybe the ‘Wow! You has appeared!”

But WTH!

Anyway, Lala!!! You had better make it kaes! Aku da MENDAK ah!!!

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Okay! Lala said Ok. That was at 9+am. Haha!

But think shd be ok lah.

Anyway…

I HAVE THESE TWO IRRITATING PIMPLES ON MY FACE!!!

One below the right nose, and beside it too. CRAP!!! Pain lah. beside the nose is like jutting out! I tell you, I kept touching and wanting to just peel it away! BUT HELLO!!!

I’m not at home, later start bleeding like nobody’s business how?!

And it’s gonna hurt…and and! SCAR!!!

Angry…but it’s been quite a long time since I last had this kind of pimples. Used to have those jerawat batu!

My right cheek got scar because of that what!

Left abit but cuz never squeeze so still ok. Not so obvious…

HAIZ! And I tink my right profile is best! WTH! Don’t noe leh…cuz I think the right side of my face look…smaller. I mean can see the jaws. The shape. The…ARGH! Whatever…

Ate half of my breakfast for lunch. HAHA!!!

Bought omelette sandwich from BK. The queue was DAMN long, don’t know today got what. Hmm…Halloween so MUST eat BK?

Haha!!!

Wow…lagu classic babe! Ella!!! Used to sing this song with my ‘microphone’. That was…er…15 yrs ago? HAHA!!!

Yap, 15 yrs ago, I was a singer. =)

Not nursery rhymes okay? Lagu melayu babe! MELAYU ROX! Haha…

Only 4 yrs later I became an ang moh singer. Then went to Jap, Chi and Korean.

NOW-multi racial but not as ACTIVE as more thn a decade ago. =)

And I was a teacher too…=)

Ok enough. Whr was I?

Oh yar! Ate half of the hashbrown alrdy full. Thn drank coffee. HAHA! Then struggling to eat HALF of the sandwich. I think it took me 2 hours to eat half of it.

Thn just now FORCED myself to swallow the last half. =) And now DAMN FULL!!!

Ok…continue with work.

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ok tml gg AMK hub..ntuc...grocery shopping. haha!

so gg off now.

btw, Gerrard is NOT my bf lah! he's my cousin's son. haha! 1 yr old...nak mampos aku nk stead wif 1 yr old boy? HAHA!!!

anyway, HAPPIE ADVANCE BDAE TO GERRARD!!!

Thank You