Saturday, February 14, 2009 • 10:32:00 PM

HEY PEOPLE!!!

MIA-ing for like...HAHA!!! more than 1 mth eh?

So what hv i been up to? any new things in my life?

hmm...apparantly...NOT!

sad rite?

ok maybe the saddest thing for me rite now is...

I LEFT MY HANDPHONE AT WORK!!!

yep, yest was packing to go home. i just dunnoe y i left my hp on my desk. luckily, Kak Hosmah is still in the office.

so whoever has called/sms me from 13 Feb 09 at 6pm till NOW, u WILL NOT GET an immediate reply. the earliest in on 16 Feb 09. HAHA!!!

sekali mane nye mat nk ajak aku kluar or what, but tk leh get aku. spoil je lah!!!

feel so naked and weird w/o my handphone wif me. serious.

lesson learnt i guess. and also, in the past i actually have this thinking that THIS will happen.

anyway, shall post my blos from work. since 5 Jan 09. WOOTS!!!

ok maybe new thing in my life. i'm so hooked with facebook!

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Monday, January 05, 2009

Ok, the system damn laggy! Cannot even log in!

Today, I am going home on time! The last episodes of Little Nyonya. And yes, I’m one of the millions hooked on that show. =) I’m proud of it.

Wokays. I reallie like the heels which I’ve bought. But my legs r having blisters. GR…

AND THE BUS IS DAMN PACKED. SIANZ…

Ialah smua masok kandang!

I’ve finally known what song is that.

Craig David-Insomnia. Muahaha…

Wokays, back to work. Shall blog later if I’m ok with work.

Suddenly had this in mind.

All eyes were on her-her and only herself. She knew. Everyone else knew it too, because they were the ones who were staring and not being starred at. It was awkward. She came into the town, running away from everything-leaving all behind. She had wanted to start afresh, she really did. All she wanted was a new life, a space to breathe, but it looks like it was not meant to be. She only has herself to blame-her genes specifically. Her pale skin says it all. Dark eyes, piercing through the socket-people might think she’s just finding faults. Buttoned-nose, told of her quiet nature. Small, thin lips just reflected how soft-spoken she was. Her face neither high cheekbones nor haggard thin. Her hair, she wore it long and wavy. Brunette was she during summer and dark on colder days. Her expression was always blank and dark. She can be the daughter of some mafia from across the border. Everyone and anyone would just prefer to stay away from her, if they had not known her at all. Yet, there were brave ones. They were most worthy to be her friends. They were and would always be. But, circumstances just changed it all. She had to leave everything behind. If someone could see through her eyes, they would know how she had felt. Sad eyes but ironically, many were mesmerized by that same pair of eyes. She had to erase her memories, try as might as she could. But fate just prevented it. It was frustrating for someone who had given up everything that she had owned once…

I rmrbed I had posted a para too in…last yr I guess? HAHA!!! That I had a clue on what’s the flow is gg to be like. But this! Hmm…I don’t know. As can tell, my ENGLISH is DAMN rusty!!! So don’t laugh. I mean hello? When was the last time I wrote full-length comp?

I can’t wait for 5.30pm! I wanna go home and watch Little Nyonya! Do don’t disturb me people. 8-10pm. For today!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Human nature. Selfish. Impatient. Working here has really opened my eyes and ears. Not really the people here, but in the process of work. Very rubbish!!! Over the phone, you think I can’t see you, then you can start nagging and all? FUCK YOU LAH!!!

Very pissed at all these people-specifically. L*****S. Figure that out!

Not happy, then change your job! Go be some cashier lah! Easy! I think cashier is too difficult for you too. Just go and stay at home and rot. Pissed!!!

Memang nasib ah ade radio. Mcm tau je DJ.

Now playing Craig David’s Insomnia and later PCD I hate this part.

Insomnia reallie reminded me of…it’s not the lyrics. It’s the beat.

Ok no, PCD. Maybe it has passed. But, I want this MADONNA song.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

At first I was feeling normal until I came back to work yest. And saw the humongous work supply!!! Almost 300!!! And it doesn’t help that I was trying desperately to clear my-already piling work of 500++!!!

AND NOW it’s 600+++!!! I CAN JUST DIE RIGHT NOW.

And in addition to the shits of papers in the in-tray. FUCK.

I feel like swearing and just tear the papers away. Can i?

Seriously, I’m feeling lethargic alrdy. Just coming to work and I dread the feeling.

Went sephora yest. And regretted $49.

1) Foundation. It’s like bronzer or something. I’m like using it today and I looked so tan. Wokays. But nvm. Nv try dunnoe what.
2) This lipcare lipstick. Nude colour. Ok I guess. I can buy so many lip thingies. Am so INTO nude.
3) this green tea body scrub. I was attracted to the range of colour actually. Then saw the price of $15, itchy hand go buy.
4) MY REGRET. $49. Smoky eyes. It’s a step by step. But yest I tried. Locking myself in the room. Till my right eyes kinda sting cuz of the so-many-times of ‘erasing’ the make-up off. I look hideous!!! And the regret was. At first I didn’t wanna buy.
So regret. Cuz of the $49, the bill came to above $100. Anyway, can u guess what else I cld hv bought! I cld hv bought 1 extra skirt frm that spree. I cld hv bought eyeshadows! You noe, thr’s this dunnoe-how-many-eyeshadow colour palette thing? And it costed only $28 I tink.

GOSH!!! THE FEELING OF REGRET.

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OMG!!! DECODE-PARAMORE!!! HAHA…I AM SO IN LOVE WITH PARAMORE CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!

RUZAINA & PARAMORE? WEIRD RIGHT?

Ok, I’m either gg to buy new shade of foundation frm sephora or NONE AT ALL.

Belinda said I looked CHAO DA. Shit!!!

Ok!!! Took off my make up..and I’m left with this…gosh!!! Reallie so so BURNT lor. I dunnoe how long tat sephora fdn gonna stay wif me. It’s either VERY LONG or VERY SHORT.

Why?

I’m either gonna use it sparingly or gonna chuck it aside.

GOSH!!! How come yest it was ok!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Do you know something?

I am very SLEEPY.

Monday, January 19, 2009

I am taking a break from working rite now-and that is to blog!

Have reached my KPI, at least till 1pm. HAHA!!! So can slack abit here.

Anyway, I’m reallie broke this mth. WHAT IS THIS! And bonus was last mth! GOSH! Even that, I had to dig out frm…SHH!!! Nope, it’s my own but still. I can’t touch that. If my parents find out, I’m dead.

And this mth I had to do it again. GOSH! It’s reallie depleting!

I f I were to repay at the amt that I’m comfortable with (Though not so. Cuz even if this doesn’t happen, I’ll still struggle!), it’ll take me 7 mths! OMG!!!

I’m so gonna be dead. I need more. Haiz. I seriously dunnoe how to handle this.

Sudahlah keje makin bertambah. Ini pon makin…the responsibility is high! I am so dead.

I dunnoe how to handle this. I just feel like ending it HERE.

Actually, I’ve roughly counted and I don’t find any reasons to suffer leh. I just dun noe. I think I MUST curb my spending seriously. At this rate, my future husband gonna sue me (unless he’s some DAMN RICH GUY with money OVERFLOWING!)

Someone MUST take a handle on my spending. PLS scold me, threaten me if I overspend. I’m sad. I’m still single and no commitments whatsoever. And it’s like that alrdy.

HAIZ. Very pissed off with myself.

AND I AM bad girl. First mth of the yr and I’m alrdy not following my resolution. This mth only, I’ve eaten SIX times of fastfood! That’s twice! OMG!!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I’m feelind DAMN sleepy. Wokays, Iljimae has ended. So frm tonite onwards, I shall go back to my sleep period which starts at 10pm!

DAMN SLEEPY. Was sleeping in the toi whn suddenly this CERTAIN SMELL just appeared! So I HAD TO force myself. “Enough sleeping alrdy. Back to work!”

Tears ALMOST overwhelmed me in the train just now. Was holding it back. I seriously don’t know what’s gonna happen. Or what has happened. Or what is going on NOW.

I had wanted to stay back today and tml. Yest had sharing session and Mdm Lim said she wants all Dec work to be completed by end of the mth. I’ve LOTZ!!!

But todae, I dunnoe. With the situation like that, not at home is difficult. But there’s work. And next wk thr’s only 3 days. Had wanted to come back this sat, but seriously, I’m like stopping myself. Or I should?

I don’t know. Maybe.

I come at 9am. Thn go off at 3?

We’ll see.

Gosh-I seriously feel like lying my head down. Maybe I shall skip lunch. I’ve bought ham sandwich frm 7-11 earlier. That shall be my dinner or lunch. We’ll see.

I am very sleepy.

And I hate petty people. GRR!

Better stop here. 10mins is up. Gonna do work. Ok shall skip lunch. Shall sleep. Seriously, I’m sleepy.

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Headache ah, tinking abt this girl. Don’t know whether he reallie MEANS it.

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I LOVE CO-OPERATIVE PEOPLE. =)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Very sleepy! GOSH!!!

Yest MORNING, slept at 6am. HAHA!!!

Shd hv sleep early to catch up huh?

Anyway, I nd to buy a black sleeveless. Cuz of this idiotic top. Tight top.

Office very quiet and I’m very sleepy.

And one more thing, I seriously don’t know what I did wrong. Usually, it’s not me who is the 1st to answer.

But now, keeping all quiet. Don’t know what is gg on…

HECK LAH! I think better off without it.

Anyway, has done me wrong before. And I didn’t wanna forgive cuz it sux big time. But cuz of my compassionate nature.

But now, nah! Not gonna make the first move.

Wokays, I think not gg to lunch later. Feel like sleeping. But see how.

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Guess what? I ate lunch. HAHA!!! Anyway, this song playing, of which it reminded me SUDDENLY.

I saw something which shouldn’t be seen. And it has so-called answered EVERYTHING.

So it’s time for to give up totally. I have given up 80% of it. And thinking back, this has prompted me to just forget abt it. Like it didn’t happen. So thr you go. I’m free!!!

Damn sleepy!!! Smsed my dad but he nv answered. No mood to go home alone. No mood to board the train. reallie sleepy! I can just doze off!

Seriously. That’s why I’m here!

Oh-maybe if my dad fetch me and he needed time, gonna go cotton on to find black sleeveless. Not THAT sleeveless. But it’s more of a racerback kinda range. I have this top. Eh-seems familiar. Like I’ve complained it before.

Nvm, I’m just gonna wear it on sat. well, it’s DAMN LONG sleeves. Appropriate. And the sleeveless, cuz the top is damn tight and translucent. So I need something to cover up. Or it’ll become an inappropriate top. HAHA!

Sneakers-whn to get them? I think I’m getting them like those cheap shops. No nd converse. Or we’ll see how.

Oh did I tell you too? I’ve ordered two levis rite? And guess what!

Both cannot fit! No, they’re not tight. They’re DAMN LOOSE!!! I’m thin!!! HAHA!!!

Cuz I followed the size guide lah can! and they’re damn loose!!!

Yes I’m happy cuz this shows I’m not FAT UNTIL CANNOT MAKE IT.

On the other hand, I’m sad cuz I’ve WASTED a full S$114!!! PISSED MAN!

Yea, of course my mum was nagging!!!

I mean, add another at least $15.90, I can get a fitter levis. So issit worth it?

S$114 can get me lotza stuffs from F21 kaes!!!

Monday, February 02, 2009

A brand new day. A barnd new week. A brand new month. All in a brand new year.

Ok rubbish. Anyway, sleepy. I’ve plan out my schedule for TODAY.

5.30pm: Go home.
7pm-9pm: Bathe, watch TV…BLAH3X.
9pm: Sleep. Seriously. I need beauty sleep. Da lame aku tk pakai mask.

Maybe it’s time for me to stock-up my masks. Should I buy from that Taiwan masks? Or I just splurge on faceshops?

HAHA!

This weekend, nth much. Next is the busy busy. Sat and Sun, thr’s my cousin’s chalet. Then Sun itself, my colleague’s openhouse.

And on Tue, VL!!! So looking forward to it. So happy!!!

1 MONTH HAS GONE and I’ve forgotten to ‘bring’ home my blog posts from work. HAHA!

And I think right now, I’ve been blogging like at MOST twice per mth?

HAHA! Cuz seriously, thr’s nothing to blog about. Crap.

Just watched Bride Wars with Lisha, Dad and Frana on Fri.

It’s ok lah. Guys who DON’T WANT to know what ladies are capable off to get WHAT THEY WANT, pls DON’T watch. HAHA!

I think that Vera Wang’s dress that Kate Hudson wore suit only blondes. Seriously. And I think the dress kinda determined the outcome of the show.

And Dad actually said there’s a ‘M’ on the door. She was whining about it in the train. I didn’t quite catch what she meant. It went something like it’s a strategy to capture ppls’ mind and all. And during George Bush’s…that strategy was used. I seriously don’t know.

And I didn’t catch that letter. It was Frana who did. And that was cuz Dad was POINTING it to her. Observant siak u Dad!

Maybe we shall go thr again and see whether it’s the projector or the movie. Just like what Frana suggested. LOL!

And our next date will be Benjamin Button. When? I don’t know. Either tml or whenever.

I’ve no mood to work right now. I can blog and blog but that means, my work will stop!

OH! And also, after that, we went to LEPAK at Mac at Civic. Till 11pm. Dad had to make a fool out of herself. HAHA!!!

She was ordering. Was supposed to be ordering Double chocolate and Oreo cheesecake. Tink she’s obsessed with ‘double’.

She ordered “Double Cheesecake”. It didn’t went like:

Cashier: Erm…
Dad: Oh! Paisey, Oreo cheesecake I mean.

Instead it went:

Cashier: Erm…sorry?
Dad: (confidently) 1 double chocolate and 1 double cheesecake.
Cashier: Double cheesesake?
Dad: Yar, double cheesecake…OH!
Us: Oreo cheesecake I mean.

(Ok. Maybe that’s NOT the EXACT conver. But that was the rough guide)

The farnie thing is not the wrong ordering. But the confident aura in her! HAHA!!!

And that’s NOT the only one.

2nd scenario was fork & spoon. Yes, you got that right. FORK & SPOON.

But for this, I’m unsure as to what the real conver went like.

Dad: Can I have 3 spoons?
Cashier: 2? 3? (Cuz there’s alrdy 1 on the plate. And he saw thr’s 3 of us only.) Spoons?
Dad: (confidently)Yes, 3 spoons.
Cashiers: Spoons?
Dad: Yes…eh! (laughs at her poor self)
Us: Forks.

LOL! What’s with you Dad? Mesmerized by the Mac’s staffs? The Mac café’s staffs I mean.

Haha!!! So farnie. And she can still insist on it. HAHA!!! So farnie…

And thn talked and bullshitting and Lisha’s love story back in SCHOOL. Haha!!! She was painfully rolling her eyes. But I can tell she’s enjoying it.

RIGHT LISHA? Haha!!! Yes, Widad will agree with me. Right Widad?

*peace no war*

It’s 10.13am and I’ve only done 9 work items. Crap rite? By right for me to meet my target, by now should have done about 13 work. Short of 4.

I’m slacking now.

I don’t feel like doing work. I don’t feel like going to work at all. Do many things in life. And it’s becoming a routine. So boring. Boing add on to my already boring life. Sad.

I wanna watch Changeling. It’s gonna end soon since it opened on 15 Jan. I think next wk is the last showing time lor.

Received a shock! Yes- a shock! And this reallie made me feel so scared abt MY OWN. Yep, my own. Nvm, shan’t sae it here. It’s too confidential. At least for the other.

8 more minutes. I wanna go home on time. I wanna rest. I can’t wait to see my Old Navy’s orders. Collecting later at 6pm at yishun mrt. Cuz the person lived in yishun and she’s gg for a meeting so ok.

This is crazy. I seriously feel like bawling my eyes out. Ok no tight relations but WTH!

Ok enough. 4 more mins.

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

These two species on earth, if they’re gone, my life will be ALMOST perfect. Trust me! I mean no one’s perfect I know but ALMOST perfect kaes.

So pissed off! I’m alrdy in a GOOD mood today whn…*sigh*

Like what I’ve told Fieza. They can go and sit one corner, disappear all the best!

VERY ANGRY YOU KNOW.

And it didn’t help that actually I was in HIGH mood earlier. Ok, triple the HIGH.

Angry angry angry! Pissed pissed pissed!

ARGH!

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

And yet again today. This foreigner. Grr…nvm. I don’t care! I gave him that look just now and I felt so satisfied.

Anyway, DAMN hungry. I wan MEAT. Actually wanted to buy BK. BUT! It’s only the 3rd day of Feb. So nevermind. Relax.

This Fri gg out. Gg back to school, I hope.

And gg out, usually will tend to eat fastfood. BUT! If pakcik nasi ayam fdcrt 3 masih jual makanan nye, then I’ll be eating that. Hope so lah.

Now, just bear with the bread.

I wanna go out. Can’t wait for Fri. Fieza, jgn cancel kaes.

Today till Fri Mdm Lim never come. So kinda free? NAH! Where got!

There’s this make-up workshop TOMORROW, later I’ll ask Jaslyn. But most prob maybe she don’t want.

Oh! Another thing, cuz Belinda is on leave. And it didn’t help that she has counter duty. BUT! Like I’ve said, she’s on leave. So nevermind rite?

But see how lor.

No mood to do work cuz of those pending work. Very troublesome you noe. I wanna come to work, with nothing in my mind. Just start a BRAND NEW day. BRAND NEW work.

Oh-and I’m starting to think. Yea, about…nevermind.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Hello. On the 18th, I get to be a UNIVERSITY student at SMU. Haha!!! Going for lecture. Laughs out loud.

If Dad’s free, maybe can go dinner or what. If she’s free, that is.

This Taufik Batisah’s song is catchy. I think he’s a better Singapore Idol than Hady Mirza. Seriously. Better singer. Better-looking? Hmm…don’t know. Never mind.

Today is Thusrday. Actually wanted to be a real lady. Besides my dad should be fetching. BUT! Cuz Claire said today gonna buy the carton drinks, so I wore my NORMAL FLATS. Carry and walk. But don’t know about the plan now. Cuz seems like Joshua is not here.

Belinda is NOT HERE. Haha! She’s just plain jealous that I took leave next Tuesday. =)

Anyone wanna date me? NAH! I’m dating MY MUM. Yes, my mother!!!

At least for the whole morning.

I must learn how to type less paragraphs. Seriously, it’s irritating. I don’t know abt you people. But at least to me. DAMN IRRITATING!!!

Anyway, tml is Friday. Fieza, pls go out. I’m bored. Then Sat and Sun. Asked my mum, she said that on Saturday, MAYBE going out. See first! To which I think NOT.

So bored. So bored. Later lunch at 12pm. Seriously, I don’t’ know what to eat. Sick of the food. If they’re going F & S, thn I shall eat chic rice. HAHA!!! Enough of ban mian for awhile.

I think whn I reach home, gonna on the comp and create a playlist in my mp3 already. So sianz of scrolling up and down for the songs to be played.

And tml is Friday, cool day!!! Mp3 on loud and just keep in the pants pocket.

I wanna buy sneakers lah. and I need to slim down. I’m looking horribly horrible already! And I don’t know. I’ve been feeling BLOATED since last week. And it’s ugly!

I mean, it doesn’t help that I’m already BLOATED. Did I eat something wrong? Maybe too much fast food.

Maybe too much soft drinks?

Later OTW home in my dad’s lorry, gonna sleep again. Like what I’ve been doing the past few times.

Ok, gg for lunch soon. In 11 mins. Seriously I don’t know what to eat. Act felt like eating rice with yong ta foo. But kinda full. So maybe chic rice? Or just yong tau foo?

HAHA!!!

Gonna slack till lunch. Then come back cont work. Cont calling!!!

But later after lunch, need to go out again. Haiz. Then later like yest, slack for 1 hour till going home.

Or! I buy Waffle? Yea…

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I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. Feeling kinda disheartened. After hearing it. Looks like I’m not a GOOD …W_____. Kinda sad. But what the hell? Am I aiming for higher?

But seriously, it kind of dampens my spirit. Seriously. So this kind of determines my impression to others.

I think it’s better if I don’t care and just do my best. Ok I wanna stop work now cuz my dad can call ANYTIME saying he’ll be reaching soon. And I’m not one who can work under pressure. Serious!

Maybe that’s why I wasn’t chosen. Yea.

Anyway, going facebook now. Wanna get myself in the 4th position now. Of that global game. But Mrs Teo is behind. With Alice.

Fieza is having a hard time now. I just hope she’s ok. She sounds so different. I mean she’s all this spunk and I DON’T CARE person. But dunnoe, todae she’s been farnie and weird.

Britney’s Circus is nice. Starting to hate Womanizer. HAHA!!! Ok she’s gone, Mrs Teo and Kak Hos is back thr. So wokays.

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