Thursday, October 08, 2009 • 3:54:00 PM
Saying is always easy, but doing is hard. I've experienced that for a long time now. Twenty-one and counting (as of now) of my life.
However, I don't have the courage still. I'm really sad and disappointed with myself. Is this the life that I'm supposed to live as? I know it's all pre-destined. People said, "Don't give up!"
I'm to have strong faith that everything will turn from bad to good. Maybe in my case, suffer first then enjoy. Unfortunately, I can't stand it already. "All good things will come to an end." It's true. I know it myself. You can never enjoy goodness forever. That is also how the phrase "No one's perfect" came about.
As I thought I can enjoy, I can go out and enjoy, it has to come AGAIN to dampen everything single hope and relieve I have. I'm really sick of this.
If it's indeed true what was said before, HOW DARE YOU is all I can say. Maybe what was said as, is right. If I knew about it in detail, I would react violently and all.
Maybe I will. I think I will. I will.
Why me? Yes, that's the question I've been trying to break my brain for the answer.
Overall, I'm tired with this nonsense already. I really am.
Maybe it's time I say goodbye. Goodbye all, I'll return after I've straightened out my thinking.
It's to be a promise but I don't know whether I can promise that. I'll try ok. Pray for me.
Thank You
