LiFe LiFe LiFe

Moved...

2010-06-06T03:25:00.001+08:00

I've moved! This WILL be my last post here.

Thanks to all my readers!

Thank You

Lazy lazy lazy

2010-06-06T01:09:00.002+08:00

I've been missing eh?

Yea, cuz I'm too lazy to blog. Really. I want to shut it down or something but then, my 4 years of blogging will come to a nought. Is that the word? Gotta brush up on my english.

My other job was blog-hopping. Envy those with perfect english. *jealousssyyy*

Also, been contemplating whether to change my blog host. There's live journal, there's wordpress. Livejournal seems to CHIM for me. So maybe I'll just change to wordpress?

Hmm, we'll see. We'll see.

As for now, I wanna thank-you to:

Ira, Flora, Lemon, Jialing, my mum, my dad, my sis, Kak Ya, Kak Ton, Wak Ni, Belbel, Jasjas, Rafidah, Sheryl, Rahmah, Elicia, Vino, Esther, Joshua, Si Ling, Ronald, Kenny, Kak Hos, Kak Misna, Lisha, Dad, Frana, Setay. Idhzuan, Su...did I miss out anyone else? (Hmm...)

for the great wishes and surprises. Yes!!! My bdae is over. Like...abt 1 mth ago. And I'm blogging about it. HAHA!

Oh, seems that this year is the accessories-themed. Oh, add PINK in there too. HAHA!!! So it's known huh? I love accessories + pink.

I want a handphone and ipod nano, next year okies! Xmas also can!

Nahhh...make it bdae, so next year will be gadgets-theme. MUAHAHA!!!

Kau mmg tak tau malu lah pompan! (But what to do kan kan kan?)

Oh, that surprise call from Dad with the number +12345678...WAS SHOCKED LAH! Like who the hell sia!

From Korea. Kim Joong Hyun? HAHA!!!! Nahhh, from Whee!dad. Sang in Korean somemore. Fulamak, da pro eh kau!

Thanks thanks everyone for it! =) Lub you all many many!!!

OK, I better shut up now cuz if not, I'll be rambling and laughing non-stop in here.

Everyone's sleeping. I don't feel sleepy yet so maybe I'll just explore some things. Heh!

Till then!

Thank You

Today is...

2010-05-11T13:46:00.004+08:00

*drumroll* Haha! Go find out yourself. =)

So any plans? Hmm...not yet. Well, earliest was last Sat.

Thx to my dear 3 Ginnas + 1 M. (aka Lemon, Flora, Jialing and Ira!)

I still rmrbed. I was finding Cheryl Cole's Parachute when in came Lemon and Flora, who was holding the cake. Nice nice! Choco banana with strawberry pokky sticks. HAHA!!!

Yep, in the end got to sing too. Ok my voice sux but then just wanna sing lah. Cheap lor that place. 5 hrs, 5 ppl. Each paying $6.50. Flat rate at $8 per hr. Teo Heng at Katong Mall. Have told Lisha and Frana. Pending reply.

Adam Lambert should be the winner instead, thn he can compete with Kelly Clarkson. His songs are all NICE!

Oh, do you know what you've got into
Can you hear what I'm about to do
I'm about to get rough with you
....I'M HERE FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT!

and another...oops forgot! HAHA! Cuz this entertainment song is playing...

Oh ya! Didn't sing his songs. Ok, MinahS-ku, bile ni? Aku tk sabar nk melalak ni!!!

Or bring my sis? HAHA!!! She'll probably spend the 5 hours LAUGHING and mengilai-ing at me, into the microphone. ---___---"

Ok lah, back to work.

Oh watched Ironman 1. Ok lah but! Robocop is better. And there is just no link. The hero was this womanizer guy and suddenly he became the hero. *&^%$#!!$^^&???????????????

I miss robocop. Scariest show.

Thank You

Racist but...

2010-04-28T10:32:00.001+08:00

I know i know. But still! It's getting on my nerves.

I dun like indians. Serious. First, the slang. Then the tone.

I can't get my point across!

Seriously, pissed.

Thank You

Blogging

2010-04-27T12:39:00.000+08:00

Seems so long since I last blog huh?

Apr coming to an end. Heh.

So fast leh...!!! And I thought 1st Apr was last week. ---___---"

Ok, flash forward. I dun wan Demmy to die. *CRIES* He had better! And why Janis is the bad girl here? She can't be. And Olivia. WTH are you doing? So you're the gatal one. You're the one who caused this to happen. Grr! Mark is better looking lah seleng! Kau amek plak si...NERD tu? Gosh!

Ok, I need a break. I'm very tired. I wanna go back sch. Though got exams or what shits, it's not tiring as now.

Ok, lunch time over.

On another note. Your companion will determine your mood.

Thank You

Bad Bad Bad Dream

2010-04-15T17:38:00.003+08:00

I dreamt something bad. I dreamt that I was going to die. No, not actually die but about to but I held on.

I was out of breath. Nono, not like those panting kind. But reallie out of breath. Cuz why? Someone (close!) forced me to do something till I got out of breath. I said "Stop." But no, it continued till I was left with 1/5 strength.

And then I got fed up and came into a room. And was sitting and breathing helplessly away. And someone (close again!) was sleeping so soundly. GOSH!

And when I woke up, I was so breathless. Like it realllie did happen! I'm serious. It was so scary. Reallie! GOSH!

And for a moment, I was afraid of going to sleep. Was contemplating whether to sleep tonight.

Scarryyyy!!!!

Thank You

Alone

2010-04-14T09:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, being alone is good. Really. There is no need for you to stand others' rubbish and nonsense.

Note: S-O-M-E-T-I-M-E-S.

Thank You

How like that?!

2010-04-06T10:22:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I'm so tired and sleepy. And what did I do yesterday? Watched Flashforward till 11pm and slept like 10mins later.

Like that alrdy so tired. What more if I study? And I know what course I wanna take alrdy.

But it's at Clementi there. And can you imagine what time I'll be back home from classes?!

My dear fren classes end at 10pm. So let's put at 10pm. Then BLAH BLAH BLAH , I'll reach abt 11 or 12?! WTH right?!

If classes on Fri ok lah. Cuz the next day is Saturday. But if it's Mon-Thurs? HOW?! OMG!

So how now? But I think I've to take either now or never leh.

*sigh*

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Flash Forward was cool. Now the gun's missing. The gun that supposedly killed Demetri. Hmm...will the flash forward really takes place? But Al has killed himself and in the future, he saw himself being the driver of a hit and run that killed a single mother with 2 young kids. And that was why he killed himself, to prevent that accident.

So that means, the future can be changed. But will it? Hmm...

I really can't wait. In the US, it's supposed to end on 5th May. It started in Mar. So 2 mths. So Sg, it'll end in June right?

I really can't wait. This is based on a book. But I don't wanna read the book. This is a show that you shouldn't spoil yourself with spoilers.

Janis, being a lesbian currently and got pregnant. And she ALMOST can't conceive but in her flash forward she saw herself in the 2nd trime...er...whatever shit. Hmm...did she really get pregnant through the embryo-thingy? Hmm...

Mark, his wife and Llyod (???!!! the spelling correct?). Now how did it get to the situation? Why suddenly the wife and Llyod are tgt? Hmm...

Ok next wk will be abt the daughter. J Gibbons. I really can't wait. I hope there is season 2 or whatever rubbish. Cuz if there is, it sux. Pls let it be like Harper's Island. Harper's Island. That is the coolest show!

PS: Dominic is so cute! *guffaws*

Thank You

5 days work

2010-03-27T13:23:00.001+08:00

Not gonna come back on Sat for at least the next 2 wks.

Thank You

Regret

2010-03-25T14:58:00.002+08:00

You know, I'm too trusting and that is why I am stuck in this situation.

I trust ppl too much, too fast. Only to realise the fault later and regret my actions.

Cuz if my OVER FRIENDLINESS & OVER TRUSTWORTH for others, I can't seem to get away with this situation. It sux! I have to play along every single time. It's sad and tiring.

If I voice out, people will say me. Rude lah, change lah. WTH lah. BLAH BLAH BLAH.

*sigh*

How am I gg to survive tomorrow? Seriously. I feel like putting everything down and just go off. Never to turn back. But it's rude and sudden. How now?

Now, Ruzaina, what mess have you put yourself into?

Can I have this power whereby I can make my own reversible (should I want it go back) wishes come true.

OH GOODNESS. *slaps forehead*

Thank You

Handphone

2010-03-23T21:44:00.003+08:00

It's barely a year. It's getting old and I was very sad.

It's kind of a love at first sight for the both of us. I still remember...

I was so depressed cuz I couldn't get the right companion for myself. Suddenly, it appears! WA-LA!

It has stayed with me for barely a year now and counting. But it seemed that I've to let it go. Don't let it suffer within my own hands. It's breaking down soon, I know it! It has endured great pains and frust and sadness. I know it. I can't bear to but I had to let it go.

(Ok, I'm stucked here, And I noe the above just sux big time. My eng is rotting I know. Or is it cuz I'm in a rush mode?)

But anyway, look at the beauty below! Itsn't it gorgeous?

BE GONE I-PHONE. I HATE YOU. PERIOD. You are like this rubbish trying to take over the world. It's not working cuz you WILL NOT have my support. Allegiance. Alliance. Crap. I only like your fren, Ipod Nano. Hrmph.

Thank You

I just can't be the bad guy eh

2010-03-19T13:15:00.001+08:00

All is well, at least I hope. I mean we r toking but idk abt them. Is it back to normal, sincerely? Or just back to normal but deep inside they still harbour this evil tot.

Hmm...

Ok, whatever it is. Finally meeting Ira later. with all the delays due to conflict in schedule. n gonna dig juicy news frm her. hehe...

faster leh...i've done my output for the day. yepyep!

so I can slack if i wan to, serious!

eating tong sen ltr at bugis. Wee!!! So long since i last ate halal chi dish. Yepyep, minced chicken noodle i guess. Like what i ate tat dae. or tat dae was rushy, cuz it was lunch. But ltr is dinner, own time own target. So maybe i'll browse the menu more. But of course another thing, hope that there is space for us TWO. It's fri evening, hello!

Tat time we almost cldn't get a seat and it's lunch. Now it's dinner. WOAH WOAH WOAH!

Ok, what's up wif me? nth much. tml gonna go work. da ditegur!

shit lah. unfair!

Thank You

Goodbye to the both of you

2010-03-12T22:15:00.004+08:00

At work, I'm stressed up with 2 people, whom I reallie trusted. And now...only now, I've come to realised that they are self-centered people. When either one not here, they will find and talk to me often. When both are tgt, they don't care! Serious! And one of them even told me that I spoil market for her.

Why?

Last time, when my frens disagree with me, I won't be worked up. I'll be like..."Ok." But ever since get to know you, it changed. Cuz everytime you agree with me. Then when my frens disagree, I'll be PEK CHEK!

Fuck lah.

In this case, I should be the one to complain. Last time, I will just say "anything", cuz I don't wanna hurt ppl. But ever since I know you, I wil say it out and feel PEK CHEK when I disagree. Like vice versa, you know.

And you expect me to be nice to you 24/7. Joke with you. When yest, I didn't, I just said "Ok. I know. Bye". You are angry. Start saying I'm AP and whatever shit. WTH!

And ur dear BFF said, everyone also have their own problems mah. No need act like the whole world owns them. If you can think that way, then why can't you just accept my I-DON'T-WANNA-JOKE-TODAY mood? Aren't you contradicting urself?

If you're my fren, if you understand me, then you could just say "Oh ok. See you later. Bye..." Maybe w/o the SEE YOU LATER also will suffice.

But no, you're not. Cuz why? The day before, your BFF also did that to you and you complained to me. But you still spoke to her. But me? You didn't even look at my direction. So isn't it obvious that you don't treat me as your friend, genuinely? I'm only your fren when your BFF is not there with you.

Ok, enough. I don't wanna talk abt it. It sux! If you think I'm gonna start the ball rolling, you're wrong! I'm better off w/o PEOPLE like you in my life.

Goodbye!

Thank You

You see you see

2010-03-05T08:24:00.000+08:00

Her fren comes and there she goes.

SHIT YOU LAH. *sigh*

I'm really starting to hate this place as time goes by. Cuz of the people. Only care abt yourself.

Thank You

Last Warning!!!

2010-03-05T08:17:00.000+08:00

Let me say this ONE LAST TIME!

I am not your spare tire, ok? Your fren is not here, you talk to me and all. Go toilet also you ask me. Your fren is here, you don't care a shit of me.

Just get it straight okays! If in the first place, you dun treat me as your fren, thn don't!

Thank You

Stick to one

2010-03-04T13:10:00.002+08:00

You noe, it's better to stick to ONE. Yes. Don't be greedy. One is enough!

Ok, why am I getting the feeling that these 2 ppl like against me alrdy? Just what did I do?

And one more thing. Don't be selfish can?! You think you're the only one affected here? Me too! Shit you lah!

*sigh*

Ok, gg to the toi. Thn back to work.

Thank You

Hot & Cold

2010-03-03T08:02:00.000+08:00

Cuz you're hot and you're cold. You're yes and you're no. You're in and you're out. You're up and you down. You're wrong and you're right. It's black and it's white. We fight we break up. We kiss we made up.

HAHA! I'm referring to the weather lah dey!

Hot & cold...dunnoe what is happening. Is the world coming to an end? With all the quakes? Hmm...scary thought. But no matter what, have to be prepared. If what scientists predicts is true, I STILL have less thn 3 yrs. aka 21.12.2012. Hmm...

I wanna watch 2012 again. again! hehehe...maybe get the vcd...

It's the 1st wed in march. So fast. And soon, it'll be april, may, june...dec! Thn back to jan. And my 3 yrs is up. LOL!

okok, not depressed or anything. just finding a topic to blog. an intro.

but actually, i don't know what to type abt. LOL! dun kill me.

I wanna go out but too tired alrdy. So this wkend, gonna spent my time in bed. Who wanna join me? HAHA! What are you thinking?! OMGoodnesS!

Tata!

Thank You

How it all started...

2010-02-24T07:51:00.003+08:00

Now I understand fully WHY people says "Women are bad drivers!" *shake head*

I'm not trying to put my species down or anything. And in general pls.

Cuz, women are 'feeling' by nature. They are more sensitive. So whenever they are on the road, they tend to think of the consequences or the others around her (in this context, it refers to drivers. and maybe herself=selfish. hees! but that's not the point!)

So when they see themselves in risky situations, they will brake and cause some traffic and swearing from FAST drivers behind.

Oh god! I still dunnoe where they get all that 'fast & furious' attitude. *sigh*

While the other species (aka GUYS! MEN!) they just dun give a damn. Just don't think of the consequence fast enough. So they just VROOM all the way, with only ONE intention in mind. (i.e. get to my destination)

So when both species clashes, TA-DA! Doong Doong Doong Cheng! Doong Doong Doong Cheng!

It's just from hearing here and there. But I have realised how it all started.

*sigh*

And that's the reason why I do not (have not) taken driving license.

Thank You

Blog for the week

2010-02-21T14:41:00.004+08:00

What hv I been up to?

Hmm...but to start off, gonna get REAL busybusybusy for the next 2 wkends! HAHA!!!

I've been gg out every Sat since 2 wks ago. So in a way..for 1 mth worth of Saturdays, I'm very bzbzbzbzbzbzbzbz!!! LOL!

Mon just came back from bbq-cum-overnite with the fam. Not all were there though. But still fun! Fresh air! So came back at abt 1+++pm...and slept my way thru till Cruel Intention starts. Yes-I watched that show! DONT YOU KNOW? THAT IS LIKE THE HOTTEST K-DRAMA IN TOWN? It won like so awards! And the lead actress, I can't believe she's like 36?! OMG!!! Put me to shame man, well at least me. =(

Tue stayed at home and slept again till Cruel Intention starts. LOL!

Wed came back to work.

Thurs too!

Fri too but it's TGIF! Whee!!!

I love this wk!

Sat went to work and went to see Dad off. *sigh* No more rubbishing arnd=sad. I wanna go Korea too=jealous.

Yes, won't be seeing her for the next 6 months!

Dad, if you're reading this, get me some Korean hunks kaes! Wahahaha!!! Go wear a Kimbok! Go do what the Korean do. Speak Korean vulgary-ly. HAHA! I love their language! I mean it!

And Dad, no worries. 'll miss you too! So come back faster kaes! =)

Sun, which is NOW. I'm staying at home. Yes. HAHA!!!

Ok, lazy to cont. So I'll c you whn I see you.

Annyong!

Thank You

Hols is over

2010-02-16T20:54:00.004+08:00

FB is still loading since 8.40pm? ^%$#@%^(!!

IDK why, but it can't hang on me right now. My food are cooked!

Anyway, cuz I managed to log in earlier but there was an error. Thus I wanna re-login and log out. Really scared of all the hacks in FB already.

Went for BBQ cum overnite on V-DAY. Not the usual peeps but still ok. =)

I think the 1st time I slept early. 4.30am???!!! Woke up half an hr ltr and slept back till 8am. Laze arnd and finally woke up. In the comfort on my tent. HAHA! Fam's tent I mean. My own fam.

Ok, I wanna buy a new phone lah. Sick of this phone alrdy. But then, w/o this phone, how am I suppose to get songs?! I've not downloaded songs for months now. Used the nokia music. Legal mah. I've up till april. Ok, let's say I buy the mp3 or something. All the songs that can be played are those old songs. I need to download the new-but-not-so-new-at-the-point-of-time songs! Cuz only nokia can read the songs. Sheesh! Then what?

Re-download again thru...iTunes? @ 99cents per song? How much in total? *sigh*

Unless I keep buying nokia phones and 'renew' my free nokia download membership? If it still exist, such a thing. HAHA!

Keeping that aside FOR NOW, the hols is over. Tml is back to normal weeks. ^%$#@^*$%&!!

I want hols again. When am I ever gonna take leave WILLINGLY?

Hmm...*ponders*

PS: Just got my pay last wk but I'm feeling broke alrdy. Seriously, $ is never enough as long as you live? No, no. Dont get me wrong. Not gonna kill myself. THIS IS NOT A SUICIDE BLOG. Sheesh!

Thank You

Racist

2010-02-10T08:32:00.003+08:00

You see you see?

There were 2 of them. I wanted to talk about the Korean drama. And one of them watching it. (A) The other, no. (B) They wanted to go pantry so I was telling A. "Eh, I want tell you something. But you go pantry first."

B: Eh, why never tell me?!
Me: (thinks, "KPO") Ok lah, you all go pantry first.

Dum dum dum...

Both came.
B: So what you want to say?
Me: About the Korean show.
B: CHEY! I ALSO NEVER WATCH! (sits at her chair)

WTH LAH! You are the one who is kpo, thn no need to say like that right? Just say, "Oh, nevermind then."

You know why I'm complaining? Cuz if B is in my position and vice versa, she will complain about me to others. No first she'll give the FUCK FACE. Then she'll grumble. "I also never ask her in the first place. Is she kpo! Pissed off leh!"

And how I know? Cuz it happened before to her.

WTH RIGHT?! Selfish, this is what I will call selfish!

Seriously, does it come with age or race?

You know why i asked? Cuz I never come across this before. It's really selfish until cannot defend or make into a joke.

Thank You

My Pathetic Life

2010-02-08T18:24:00.002+08:00

Why am I TOO soft-hearted on OTHERS but not on my loved ones?

I hate that you know. Everytime I make them suffer cuz of outsiders.

Like just now, my issue was first and important! Then when I say, "You ah, still with that!"

But if I said that on her turn, she'll just brushed me off or give the FUCK look.

GOSH! Am I born to be bullied? And bring it home?

GOD HELP ME!

I am very pissed off, seriously!

I know I said this alot of times, but I'm seriously angry. I am very angry!

Give me more courage to do FUCK THINGS to OUTSIDERS!

Fuck you outsiders.

Thank You

Being used

2010-02-08T17:50:00.002+08:00

Stop using me. I am not a fren whom you can use and throw.

1) When I say I want to sign up, you also say you want. BLAH BLAH BLAH. Then after signing up, you don't want to go already. Every week keep giving excuses!

2) When you have any problem or what, you come and talk to me. Even little thing also you start to complain. Little things which can be ignored. Then when it's my turn, you just turn a deaf ear. Keep saying "I DON'T KNOW LEH."

3) When we are in a group, and no one talks to you, you complain. Say this and that. But the next time, you forget the whole thing and even don't care me. Keep talking and talking to the other people.

4) And the list goes on...

Conclusion: I've had enough. I've had enough. You only find me when you have no one else. Who am I? Your spare-tyre?

SHIT YOU! GO & DIE!

Copyright: The-gal-who-had-enough

Poor girl. Really poor girl. Will my life be like hers?

Thank You

Will I be...

2010-02-07T19:23:00.002+08:00

Will I be like my mum when I'm older?

I hope not but thn...if I don't be like her, who else will I follow right?

HAHA!!!

ok, random blog.

So long nv blog...

So what have I been up to?

1) Signed up for these gym classes but never go. Only once!
2) Signed up for this gym membership for 1 yr, but nv go. NOT EVEN ONCE!

How like that? Waste $.

I'm broke too! Haha! One wk to tahan.

Full now cuz I ate like 1/4 of the oily (leftover) prawn-potato ball.

HAHA!

Tml is Mon. Looking forward to Fri. Hehe...

Then long wkend. Though mostly sit at hm since...

Yea.

Thank You

Summary

2010-01-31T20:24:00.002+08:00

tml is gonna be a sucky day. it had better NOT be me!

on top of that, i think what i've been suspecting so far is true. =(

and just the emo bit, there are 3 ppl in ma life right now whom i think they don deserve to be here.

hmmm...what else?

i am so into Tokio Hotel! Nice songs...only 2 so far. haha!!!

ok, i am not looking forward to tml!

not cuz it's mon. but what's gonna happen tml just sux!

Thank You

WTH!

2010-01-22T08:19:00.000+08:00

1) I'm just starting my 1st work and I wanna go home alrdy. Why? Cuz my mood for work is gone. It's FRI.

5pm hurry pls!!!

2) And I dread to come back to work tml.

SIANZ!!!

Thank You

Trust

2010-01-21T18:21:00.002+08:00

Just a simple 'test' to see whether you can be trusted anot.

We'll see.

But just a note. I didn't make this test, deliberately. It just happens. So let us see whether you can be trusted kaes.

PS: You don't seem like someone who can be trusted but I refuse to believe at first. But now, as you're leaving my life (hopefully for-EVER), I'm sincerely hoping that I was wrong all along-that I was stupid to trust you so much.

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I did something which was bad enough. I hope tml it won't be bad. I hope no bad results. I really hope!

Now staying back to reach my target, at least. And on Sat I think I'm coming back afterall. =(

Thank You

I-Phone

2010-01-20T09:42:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to loathe i-phones. Seriously.

What is so great about I-Phone?

It's just a normal touch-screen phone for godsake. It's not even friendly. Ok, good for On-The Go surfing, cuz the screen is HUGE. But what the hell.

It's just a phone. Everyone is going GAGA over that phone.

Thank You

$ is NEVER enough.

2010-01-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

It's a fact. Money is never enough.

Felt like I bought ALOT of things but I still feel unsatisfied. With the intention to get casual TOPS, ended up with one only.

How nice...

But never say you've no $. That is so not true. If you do say that, then you shouldn't be reading THIS alrdy.

Ain't I correct? *winks*

Thank You

Can I punish myself?

2010-01-15T08:03:00.000+08:00

Can I punish myself when I do something wrong?

Thank You

Miss going out

2010-01-12T14:13:00.002+08:00

You noe what I miss the most right now? Let me explain.

Going to work in casual attire, in the mind thinking about after work period, and boarding the bus. Acting all cool. Then alight and walk with confidence. Much. Reach the platform and wait for the empty train. Reached office, do work, still thinking about after work. Sms-ing all the way with ther person I'm going out with. Then 5pm, it's TGIF! Either wait or off I go to meet my partner for that day. And BLAH BLAH BLAH till like...10+? 11? PM, mind you. Then off I go home. Either together or seperate ways. And alighted the MRT and walked all the way to interchange, waiting for the IT-TAKE-FOREVER bus. (Till the queue is so long, that it'll reach the other berth in 10mins.) Boarded the bus and alighted at my stop. Walked and take the lift and knocked on my door, either parents opening it. With the 1st line, "Merayap ke mane hari ni?" (aka "Where did you go today?").

Yes. That's what I miss the most right now. Ok, I failed. My eng just sucks big time. But make do with it for NOW.

Thank You

Selfish people, just go and die!

2010-01-11T09:10:00.001+08:00

I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!

YOU ASKED ME, I DON'T KNOW AND YOU GIVE ME THAT FUCK-YOU LOOK!

THEN YOU YOURSELF DON'T KNOW, SHOULD I GIVE YOU THAT TOO?!

WHEN OTHERS GIVE YOU THAT ATTITUDE, YOU COMPLAIN TO ME. WHAT AM I? YOUR DUSTBIN WHERE YOU CAN THROW ALL YOUR RUBBISH IN?!

FUCK YOU! JUST GO & DIE!

Thank You

Blogging

2010-01-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

It's Monday soon. I had better go to sleep soon, if not tml sure sleepy!

10.30 aites?

ok, so what am i gonna blog? act i dunnoe. just that i feel like typing alot!

so fast, issit cuz the world reallie spins fast or issit cuz i'm working now? AND THAT WORKING LIFE REALLIE SPINS FAST? it's irritating. friday pls come faster!

LOL. mon has not began and i alrdy wans fri. but reallie!

i just hope the wk passed fast. i really feel like taking leave, to stay at hm. i realle do. but it's only jan now.

i'm sick of this boring life. i wanna go back to sch. i reallie wan to.

but i can't. that's a fact. i cant go back to sch, full time as a student below 18. no, i wanna go back to poly life. let me relive the 3 yrs. pls!!!

i hope tml whn i wake up, it's 1st jan 2005. ok let's make it to 11 jan 2005.
Thank You

I need...

2010-01-10T17:39:00.001+08:00

I need a desk with the plug nearby. My back and shoulders are aching, while using the laptop.

Why?

Cuz bend too much.

Thank You

Good to others but bad to self

2010-01-08T07:45:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't be too...IDK what's the word is. But the lesson here is:

It is good to others (and maybe others don't even appreciate it) but bad for oneself.

STUPID. Yes, bluntly put it. STUPID. See, what it has landed me into. GOSH!

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It's TGIF!!! Hurry go home. *LOL*

Thank You

Where I stand

2010-01-07T13:21:00.002+08:00

I know where I stand now. I know already. Fine then, it's ok. Seems to me, everywhere I go, that's where I'll be.

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So what's up ppl? Nth much eh?

Hmm...1st wk of Jan coming to end. So fast. And time will pass and soon it will be 2011.

I'm full now. Ate chicken chop w bbq sauce (but tasted like mushrm sauce) and rice. It's a set. Everytime I'm full from lunch. There's never a time when I will feel JUST RIGHT.

So should cut my lunch by half eh? Or issit cuz my acid process it slow?

Ok, I miss gg shopping.

And I think i wanna get a simple block hp. My this handphone ah...kept hanging. It really pisses me off!

Friday evening, faster come. I can't wait.

Thank You

Repeated Times

2010-01-06T08:34:00.000+08:00

I hate selfish people. I mean it.

You only think of yourself but NEVER others.

Yes, I've that traits too and that is why I do hate myself sometimes.

But really, I hate selfish people.

Thank You

Happy New Year

2010-01-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

HAPPIE NEW YEAR TO ALL MY BABES & HUNKS!

We've welcome 2010. Seems nice. 2010. Reallie sounds like a new year. LOL!

The nicest-sounding before this was 2000. And how old was i? 12. 10 yrs have passed. So fast!

My PSLE yr was tat yr.

Having a laptop is cool. Only thing feel very weird cuz when i'm using it, I'm like coop up in my rm. Cuz I need a socket. Appraently, it was my mistake I guess.

I didn't charge it overnight. And I didnt ask abt the batt power. So sucky. Yes! So no choice, need the power supply everytime I use it. Cuz it's not like I use it for an hr or two. Yes, that's the limit it can hold 'breathing'.

Ok so wnat did i miss? Oh! SG Idol 3? Sezairi won? HAHA! And thr was talks that thr is some...conspiracy that WHY ISSIT MALAY AGAIN?! Hmm..come on. It's talent. Not that I'm putting anyone down. But Sylvia...she's not consistent. I only like her performance of MERCY. So yea...Sezairi, at least he's consistent. So yea YEA.

So shut up faggots! Stop complaining. It's a fact he won. And tml he's enlisting liao. Haha!!!

Ok next topic? Hmm...Megan Fox is the worst actress in 2009. HAHA! Act yar lah. She's well-known for the babe in the robot movie. With boobs jiggling as she ran. Yea, her another movie was Jennifer's Body. Didn't get to see. Maybe online lah. HAHA!!!

Yep, so she's the worst actress? Hmm..hv to agree with that. She's only well-known for one thing and she's like the OVER-TALKED person. Cuz she's beautiful SLUTT-ILY, and has a nice bod. As what ppl claim. I mean harlow? How you noe has a nice bod? You saw her nude before? GOSH!

Ok, not gonna bother abt that.

I prefer Jessica Alba anytime. Wee-Weet!

Tml is a brand new work for me. Not work. Responsibilitites! It's more..heavy I guess. But we'll c how.

I need to shop for clothes. But not budget to shop now. Gotta wait for payday and claim day. HAHA! All thx to who?

LAPTOP!!! Yes! LOL!

Ok, looks like I'm done with blogging Nth much else. I think I better get out of this room. Or I'm gonna get BUTT-CRAMP!

I'll blog laterz! CIAOZ!

Thank You

Inspiration

2009-12-30T15:04:00.001+08:00

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost

As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life

Thank You

Hair or simply me?

2009-12-30T13:50:00.001+08:00

Issit my hair or simply just myself?

I realised it after seeing photos of myself in FB.

Thank You

I'm really pissed at these people

2009-12-29T14:57:00.002+08:00

You know, I'm serious about this.

When I helped you, don't give me that attitude, if I did something wrong or too slow or something. Just a simple thank you can?

The thing is I HELPED YOU. So THANK YOU is necessary.

Understand?

And another, eye contact. No wonder back in school, the teachers emphasised "EYE CONTACT".

When you're talking to a group of people (>1!), eye contact. Don't only focus on only one person please.

I'm really pissed already. If you don't want to talk to the other person, then don't talk in front of him or her.

Understand?

GOSH!!!

As you grow older, and entering into the vast world, you meet all sorts of shits! And I don't like it. I know no one's perfect. But still, basic courtesy! HELLO?!

These bitches and bastards.

*shakes head*

Thank You

Not sleeply

2009-12-25T23:13:00.001+08:00

slept earlier and now not slpy. guess, gonna be online. LOL!

ok, i realised, though i hv a laptop, there's nth much i can do. cept that i can use ANYTIME. yea...

but oth thn that, reallie nth much.

can anyone tell me what they do online?

Thank You

Stressed

2009-12-25T15:23:00.002+08:00

Great! Just great.

What a xmas.

Thank You

Tired & Eager

2009-12-22T16:58:00.002+08:00

Ok, it's 5pm. Officialy, I'm left with 30mins of work. But my dad gg hm late today, so nd to stay. Meanwhile, eat my dinner. Then do work?

But I guess, after dinner, I'll be too lazy to cont doing work.

Haha! I think todae I'm gg to on my laptop. Let's give a name to my laptop kaes.

Hmm...what shall we name it? What about some transformer name? HAHA!!! IT's a machine mah!

Ok I'll think of it.

Besides that, hurry 5.30pm. I want to officially stop work. So tired. I was a good girl earlier, cuz I diligently concentrate fully on work. I've completed all the hardcopies. Wee!!!

Now left with the work item. =(

Ok, what shall I have for dinner? The instant series from 7-11. Hmm...

Oh! Those who have names for my laptop, share kaes. =)

Thank You

So tired

2009-12-22T12:57:00.001+08:00

I need to sleep MORE.

So tired. Since last wk, has been oversleeping lah CAN!

haha!!! Thurs afternoon, pls come faster.

It's Tuesday noon now. 48hrs more...

Counting down.

Thank You

Randoms for today

2009-12-20T17:41:00.003+08:00

Hey all, How are you?

First of all, watched New Moon with the GirlfrenS! haha...it's draggy, yea but what do u expect? It's the most sad part of the total 4 books. Yes, it's sad lah. The lovers breaking up.

Haha...and kesian Bella dipanggil BITCH. Why? Cuz she...was on a rebound and kinda used Jacob (aka Yacob Hitam) for tempat berteduh.

Mampos, melayu aku. Main shoot ah!

Next off, I've bought a laptop! Wee!!! It's been 4 days alrdy. Cool lah. Hehe...but not use everyday mah.

Ok, next. I'm so into this song. Ok, i noe it's kinda old alrdy, but it's cool.

Monsoon by Tokio Hotel. NICE SONG BABEH!

Hmm...somemore, tml is Mon alrdy. But Fri is Xmas. HAHA!!!

Oh! Bought my headphone alrdy!!!

Thank You

Sleepy

2009-12-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

I am very sleepy now. Hurry end work pls.

Thank You

2009 Wishlist

2009-12-17T16:43:00.002+08:00

Refer to my post dd Monday, October 12th.

I've fulfilled all my wishlist thr. Hv ordered the bags and bought a laptop. EXCEPT!

...Ipod Nano. I dun tink I'm getting it lah. Cuz even if I get also, I nv download le.

2 wks to 2010. So fast!!!

Thank You

When can my life be smooth-sailing?

2009-12-11T07:57:00.003+08:00

Reallie sianz of this.

Yest lah!

Just whn I tot my life is smooth. Then timbul aje masalah.

Seriously, working life reallie sux.

Thank You

YAY!!!

2009-12-10T15:49:00.000+08:00

YAYAYAYAYA!!! I'VE BOUGHT THE SHOES ABOVE!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IT'S DAMN HIGH...haha!!!

Ok had BK for lunch. I bought the new burger. Ate the fries and i feel weird.

haven't eat the burger.

Thank You

cOnFeSsIoN

2009-12-10T09:46:00.000+08:00

i reallie hate yaya papayas CAN!

i'm starting to find this person irritating. dun act like the age. and very clingy.

OMG! i just wanna break away frm this person. shouldn't be too friendly at first.

Thank You

2009-12-07T13:05:00.001+08:00

RUZAINA STOP UR SHIT CAN! STOP SHAKING LAH!!!

Thank You

2009-12-06T19:35:00.003+08:00

AM I REALLIE A BLOCK IN YOUR LIFE?

TWO DAYS ALRDY AND U EVEN SAID THAT.

smua K____. smua K____.

thn now merajok lagik. fine.

Thank You

wHaT aM i DoInG

2009-11-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

i am still in the office, waiting for my dad.

yes. and frm 5.30pm till now...i didnt do a single work. why? cuz i totally hv no mood.

just now thr was an announcement of re-organisation/reshuffling. i dunnoe why but i felt weird abt it.

i reallie do. i tink thr's a BAD reason behind it.

i mean it.

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very scary now. after the stories i heard frm ___.

whr's my dad lah!

shd hv gone hm first rite? haiz. but too lazy lah to travel on my own.

cld hv done...many work just now, but simply no mood.

anyway, todae's office is like BLUESSSSS!!!

WHERE IS MY DAD!!!

i wanna go home.

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robert pattison is NOT handsome at all. he looks like forest! i'm serious. idk why girls r so crazy over him. it's not him.

it's edward cullen, geddit!

Thank You

sHoEs

2009-11-29T02:17:00.010+08:00

hey all. todae's topic will be shoes.

but firstly, went town to see the xmas lights with my 3 aunties and 3 cousins. hehehe, though one auntie went hm halfway.

this yr-->NOT NICE!

ok so let's move on to shoes.

i wanna get my hands on these:

frm gojane. Nice right?! It's suede though. I saw the leather-kind but lazy to save the pics. But the above are nice!

these too!!! Oxford booties!!!

this is cool! denim booties!!!

the above was i've wanted from C & K since september!!! went to lotza outlets but there's no more. thn saw thos at the webbie. at first, i seriously tot it's not! BUT TODAE, I REALISED THAT IT IS!!! Gonna hunt this down...till it reallie goes away. CT Hall C & K anyone?!

These are reallie cool!!! Can you imagine?! OMG! I'm drooling as I'm typing here.

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Wokays! I wanna buy the heels. Haiz. Until when rite...ok hold on. I'll go take out my 'foo' frm my cafe game.

...

BACK! AND I AM VERY PISSED. I SERIOUSLY & DESPERATELY IN NEED OF A BETTER MEMORY RAM CPU NOW. I CANNOT STAND THE SLOW, HANGING, OLD, LAGGY COMP ALRDY. I CAN JUST CRY IN FRONT OF IT.

AND I AM DAMN F***ING SERIOUS.

Thank You

cHoCoLaTeS

2009-11-26T18:13:00.001+08:00

i noe it's weird. i noe it's unhealthy. i noe it's fattening.

BUT I AM STUFFING MYSELF WITH CHOCOLATE!!!

IDK WHY BUT SINCE YEST. I DON' EAT THAT MANY CHOCOLATES!!!

WHAT TEH HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME?!

I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP!!!

Thank You

cOfFeE BeAn

2009-11-24T13:15:00.000+08:00

had that for lunch. hmm...

i tried the rosemary chicken, croissant.

er...not nice?

YEA, NOT NICE!

so next time whn we r gg thr, any of u. pls! remind me not to eat that. eww!!!

now my stomach feels weird. i dun taste any sauce lah can!

eeewww...

Thank You

dReAm Or NiGhTmArE

2009-11-19T12:12:00.002+08:00

i ALWAYS dream abt something unrelated. reallie!

it's scary.

no relation to me AT ALL. or yes thr is, but the thing is! the situation is totally OFF!!! no relation whatsoever.

like i'm toking to A & B was thr. (god-knows what the topic was abt!) and we were at a beach.

like HELLO!

and yest i dreamed abt H__________A. LIKE WTH! i'm not even a fan! pls lah!

and the plot? it's so unrelated. cuz this grp of hooligans were running after me. and this H____________A was my hero. LIKE HARLOW!!!

oh gosh!

what is happening?

and i used to dream abt japanese soldiers. yes. WORLD WAR II.

duh.

and my fren was telling me "in ur past live, you were in the WORLD WAR II."

i dun believe in reincarnation, my dear.

not supposed to.

but whatever it is, yea. i dun believe in it.

nope, my dreams so far have not come true. dunnoe will it be or won't.

i understand if i'm obsessed with the person. (but for the record, i'm NEVER obsessed with anyone. thx!)

Thank You

fEeL lIkE bLoGgInG

2009-11-18T10:32:00.003+08:00

can i dun write the title? so tired of thinking for a new one everyday. and if u notice, my titles kept repeating. HAHA!!!

ok stupid qn cuz this is MY blog. but u c, my kind of person everything must be filled in, if can. i dun like blanks. i will feel incomplete. yep, insecure. tat is me. i'm insecure. =)

anyway, the random fact frm yest. some addition. LOL!

megan fox is my inspiration. but jessica alba is my ULTIMATE inspiration. and she is reallie cuz she said all her family members (EXCEPT HERSELF!) are overweight. WTH!

and yes, gonna hv maple syrup waffle for lunch todae.

and someone pang seh-ing me eh for lunch todae eh?

kaes, will blog if i've something to, laterz!

Thank You

rEbOrN nUmBeR tWo

2009-11-17T13:05:00.002+08:00

i'm back.

anything to blog?

1) ok little sis wanna watch 2012, tapi mcm malas. HAHA!!! cuz it JUST started & sure many ppl. and it doesn't help that...i will 'club' inside with so many ppl arnd.

but we'll c.

2) i'm broke alrdy. yes u read it. i am broke. ruzaina is broke.

3) i want dec to come fast! but thn it'll pause once it has reached, cuz i dun wan 2009 to end YET.

4) i reallie wanna get those boot-like heels. i reallie wan. but c & k like not selling the design i've been eyeing since sept 09.

5) my work is GROWING. if only my money GROWS like tat too.

6) the korean drama at 7pm every wkdays is ending tml. sadded! nth to laugh at alrdy cuz the following show seems like a scary one. serious i mean.

7) i wan that burberry bag but it's only at japan. and dun tink i can afford it by this yr. i tink. cuz i alrdy hv another BIGGER plan.

8) jason derulo's "whatcha say" keeps playing in my head after little boot's "remedy" and jay sean's "down". these 3 songs rocks my world NOW.

9) i wanna be in transformers with robots all day. HAHA. -_-"

10) megan fox is my inspiration.

11) i wanna go DANCING not jogging. tats boring. URGH!

12) i wan to go back to schdays. serious. somehow i miss the sch days.

13) i feel like eating maple butter waffle. but i stopped myself n sae "THAT'S FOR TML'S LUNCH".

14) are points 11 & 13 battiling each other?

15) if i cannot go back to sch, can i restart my work life?

16) if i can choose further, i wanna go back to pri. 4.

ok 16 very random facts abt me as of 17th Nov 2009, (Tuesday).

Thank You

bArU nK rElEk

2009-11-11T07:50:00.003+08:00

not even 1 wk yet.

baru nk relek. da lagik satu dtg. irritating u noe!

lagik leh suruh sendiri control. bagos! skarang sape control mane ni?

who decide for it to happen?

CONCLUSION: I NEED A BREATHER. PERIOD.

Thank You

aNoThEr RaNdOm ThOuGhT

2009-11-10T08:30:00.003+08:00

why do i feel so heavy when i've decided to make the 1st move?

shd i? but seriously, i dun tink it's my fault entirely. or shd i just make the 1st move?

but whatever it is, it's not gonna be the same agn.

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ok i've did it. now up to her lor.

we shall c what's her reply.

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ok, she's back at her seat. let's c. ok i heard her typing...will she reply. ok she replied.

and it seemed she mistook my meaning. *LOL*

so everything ok? i guess so but like what i said....not like in the past alrdy. reallie. she'll keep away cuz dun wan to joke alrdy. thn i'll be so sianz. thn will drift apart.

mampos! aku bual mcm matair gitu!

yar, so tats abt it.

Thank You

i DoNt CaRe

2009-11-10T07:50:00.001+08:00

siape yg terase, rase lah kau.

=

Who felt it, feel it lor.

I dun care alrdy. You can't keep everything to urself. I'm a living eg. See what happens to me alrdy? Suppress so long alrdy and now become like this. So I'd better start letting it all out. If I'm not happy, don't blame me for being petty or what. It simply means I've had enough.

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Ok this choco energy bar...eww!!! HAHA!!! And i'm full, how all those sports ppl eat it? I ate like 1/10 of it & I'm full.

LOL!

Can't wait to sign up lah. Who wans to join me go dancing? Hip-hop kind not slow-mo lah! Who wans? Who wans? Raise up ur hand pls!

Thank You

tIrEd LaH

2009-11-09T18:07:00.004+08:00

can thr be 1 day whr i am not pissed at even A thing?

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yes, todae i am pissed at someone alrdy. yes someone. YES SOMEONE. dun ask further cuz i tink this is cuz i've suppressed it too long alrdy and todae happens to be the day i let it all out in just two sentence.

"What?"
"Waah...early in the morning attitude alrdy!"
"I'm doing my report."

And less thn 20mins ltr, IM-med her and you know what? Till now no reply. WTH! So now showing me attitude alrdy? Great! Very great! Just great!

Thank you so much for giving me back the attitude. And don't bullshit that you didn't see my IM. And don't start accusing me that I 'abandon' each & every one of u. Cuz it was not started by me.

Don't think that I kept quiet cuz I don't mind your Shits & Bitch & Whatever-else. I kept quiet cuz I didn't want to spoil everything. But you left me with no choice. You left me with no choice but to just ROAR (in ur context). And see, I just ROAR once and thr you go. Giving me that shit. Yes, shit. See whr I learnt it frm? Frm u lah! And still dare sae "Don't say I teach you hor!" Yea rite.

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Ok enough. Stop rambling alrdy. This is not gonna help me at all. Not gonna help me recover.

Ok, so looking forward to Wednesday! Wee!!! =)

Thank You

rEgReT

2009-11-08T19:06:00.002+08:00

1st-ly, *sigh*

2nd-ly, shd hv done tat long time ago. thn i'll be a more happier person i guess. shiok tengok diorng ber-hAppy happy mcm gitu. noe they''ve been tgt-gether since like longer thn me. but thn, it doesn't hurt to join rite? morever i WAS part of them too. hees!

will do will do...soon!

ok, looking forward to next wk!

Thank You

tPaM

2009-11-06T09:18:00.001+08:00

I am tired, both physically and mentally.

Help me!

Thank You

tIrEd

2009-11-05T08:00:00.001+08:00

tired of everything alrdy. i wanna rest.

Thank You

oNe By OnE

2009-11-03T08:09:00.002+08:00

One by one...

They're off my list. What list? I shan't say. =)

And now I understand what was the issue back in sch. Really regret and felt stupid that I was on their side.

If only I could go back in time...and re-live the past periodS.

Thank You

hApPy HaLlOwEeN

2009-10-31T22:50:00.002+08:00

saje nk blog on the last day of october 2009. AKA HALLOWEEN!

*lol*

so what've i been up to? is tat english correct? *lol*

itching to go shopping but totally broke. (always broke by end of mth) SADDED!

and can't wait to start my exercise regime. reallie! i need to!

what else eh?

oh to disappoint everything now, i'm hungry. WTH!

oh and my langit2x IS BURNT. =(

frm the 1st mouth of mee soto. @ AMK. yep @ hady mirza's fam stall. haha!!!

still pain and it's irritating lah!

and tml is flash forward. and ltr is the exorcist thing. but not the one with the girl. the pre-thing.

and i wanna watch 2012.

ok, bnyk kau nk buat eh ruzaina.

but important now.

I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!!!

Thank You

oNe pOiNt AdDeD

2009-10-26T12:52:00.002+08:00

hey all!!! I'm back! Missed me?

anyway, i've kinda let go off it. let everyone see what i'm gg thru. not gathering sympathys and all but just that i've had enough of hiding and keeping it all to myself. suffering...

enough is enough. i dun care alrdy. see thn see lor! like thn like. dun like thn get lost!

it's not that i want it. =)

so it's like a brand new life for me now. brand new day, brand new week. HAHA!!! reborn? MAYBE. yea...reborn.

i've cut my hair. chopped not once but twice. and kinda regret the 2nd. shouldn't hv cut my fringe. ni pompan korea tu nye pasal lah!

LOL! but thn...new life. so new hair.

my rebonded $ all gone. HAHA!!! now to shape my face? nah! get rid of these pimples or dunnoe what. irritating leh!

i wan my pri sch skin!

PLS!!! come back!

and i'm broke. promised not to, but no choice mah.

ok this shall be the last.

supposed to go lunch but i was full. cuz ate the ham & cheese croissant frm delifrance this morn. so full. but now the hunger starts.

i need to go learn the skills of making MESSY HAIR! youtube it...haha!!!

wokay, gonna do my work. audit on wed. i'm dead!

oh whn to go out? i'm itching to go out. though...i'll get scolded.

"DA BAIK SIKIT, KLUAR LAGIK! KENE LAGIK, MENGAMOK!"

haiz...no life leh. so be gone everything. leave me alone here.

i'll just take things one step at a time. patience is all i need now.

slowly making progress. S-L-O-W-L-Y.

very slow.

CYA!

Thank You

sHoPpInG lIsT fOr ThE yEaR 2009

2009-10-12T15:21:00.003+08:00

I must get by this year LATEST!

1) The mini bucket side bag purple from Princessess.livejournal, 23.
2) The camel pringle of scotland inspired hobo bag from Soearlyslp, 48
3) Coffer bag from Soearlyslp, 49.
4) Black spy bag from Soearlyslp, 49.
5) Blue/Green Ipod Nano 4GB, 228.
6) Laptop with 4GB RAM + non-integrated video card, <1500. href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=15751425">Thank You

eAsY bUt HaRd

2009-10-08T15:54:00.004+08:00

Saying is always easy, but doing is hard. I've experienced that for a long time now. Twenty-one and counting (as of now) of my life.

However, I don't have the courage still. I'm really sad and disappointed with myself. Is this the life that I'm supposed to live as? I know it's all pre-destined. People said, "Don't give up!"

I'm to have strong faith that everything will turn from bad to good. Maybe in my case, suffer first then enjoy. Unfortunately, I can't stand it already. "All good things will come to an end." It's true. I know it myself. You can never enjoy goodness forever. That is also how the phrase "No one's perfect" came about.

As I thought I can enjoy, I can go out and enjoy, it has to come AGAIN to dampen everything single hope and relieve I have. I'm really sick of this.

If it's indeed true what was said before, HOW DARE YOU is all I can say. Maybe what was said as, is right. If I knew about it in detail, I would react violently and all.

Maybe I will. I think I will. I will.

Why me? Yes, that's the question I've been trying to break my brain for the answer.

Overall, I'm tired with this nonsense already. I really am.

Maybe it's time I say goodbye. Goodbye all, I'll return after I've straightened out my thinking.

It's to be a promise but I don't know whether I can promise that. I'll try ok. Pray for me.

Thank You

wHaTeVeR

2009-10-02T08:05:00.002+08:00

i've really decided to just HECK EVERYTHING.

i dun care alrdy.

whatever you said, i'll just nod my head w/o even a single thing gg in mind.

now i'm learning how to push you away.

i think i'll just ROAR!

Thank You

sPeCiAl PoSt FoR oNe PeRsOn OnLy

2009-10-01T09:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO IRA!!! OUR RELATIONSHIP IS GOING STRONG SINCE MAY 2005!!!

ape korang pikir ni? relationship is everything okies. aku pon ade relationship ngan ko readers! =)

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mY bLoG iS NoT FoR fUn

2009-10-01T09:46:00.002+08:00

I've had enough lah!

This is to EVERYONE out thr!!!

I dun care if you felt the stab anot!

And I noe, many are reading this BUT nv tag. So I don't care!

My blog is not for fun or anything, whatever I've typed in here (including my profile!) are true ok!

When I sae I loathe, dislike, hate...I mean it.

Get it dammit! Bitches and Bastards!

ARGH DAMN YOU LAH!!! *angry*

***

haiz...

i need to go walk walk. like last time. hang out will late. jln2x ngan ma frens...

tapi mcm mane? bile?

haiz...whn whn whn?! and i dun tink i can. every fri alrdy i cannot go out. sat? ramai ah!!!

u noe...last time i used to find my life boring. only interesting thing is work. gg to work. *winks*

but now...i tink work is boring. i nd more rest!

and right now (at the very moment!) i find everything boring!!!

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bIg HeAdAcHe

2009-09-22T10:41:00.002+08:00

yap! woke up to a very POWERFUL headache. idk y so dun ask.

but i tink it's cuz yest after got home frm my relatives' hse (dad's side), i was lying on the sofa. thn slp, awake. slp awake. dunnoe how many times! cuz i dun reallie wanna slp. if not, i'll nv wake till this morn or maybe at least 4am? idk. damn slpy.

on sunday, got home at abt...3+? last hse was at 12.30am. thn send others hm first.

thn the next morn, woke up at 9.30? 10? AM. cuz my auntie wanna go out in the afternoon.

thn now damn headache. nvm, tml till fri i'm gg to slp n wake up late! haha...thn sun bz again.

anyway, this yr's theme is red! for 1st raye. n purple for 2nd.

n this yr, i'm the odd wan out, wif my sis as the 'connector' for BOTH DAYS!

1st day is green. mum n dad r green. my sis, the 'jacket' is green. while the inside (gown) is white. n i'm white frm head to toe.

2nd day is purple. mum n dad purple. my sis is purple too, wif a small piece as white. eh wait! act 2nd day my sis is not even the 'connector'. cuz hers is all purple with a tiny piece being white.

i'm green wif purple flowers. but the green is more outstanding.

i tink wearing baju kurung is better! haha!!! maybe next time, i'll just make baju kurung. baju kebaya those simple pls. unless a new design is out. haha!!! subject to taste pls.

thr's free brewed coffee today at strabucks. but 10-12pm onie.

ok gg to lunch time.

i'll just ren till 5.30. dunnoe todae my dad fetch anot.

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25 mInUtEs

2009-09-18T16:32:00.002+08:00

hurry 5pm! i wanna get out of here. cold n slpy facing the comp.

ok sadded cuz my cat necklace...the arm was broken. i mean it's not obvious but thr's this sharp edge n it hurts ok!

happy cuz i finally bought my shoe!!! short heels but what i care! tk penat jln. anyway, i tink now i'm into this gladiator-zipped heels. HAHA!!!

if not cuz of hari raya, nd to slip in n out of the shoes, i wld hv bought that shoe lah!

n also, 2 c & k outlets gonna blacklist me alrdy. cuz for that same pair of shoes i told them. "can pls reserve for me? i'll come back later!"

haha!!!

they r swearing at me i guess. =)

now gg to buy bag and accessories. hees! all gonna be complete by tonight. it must be cuz i dun tink hv the time tml.

ok what shall i buke for dinner? pastamania? gurantee ramai seyy!!!

so how? unless ta pau n eat somewhr else, which my fam is pro at. HAHA!!!

ok, 2 more days! tk leh sabar ah. and 21 mins to BYE BYE!!!

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sLeEpY

2009-09-17T13:47:00.002+08:00

i'm like deprive of sleep!!! wkdays wake up at 4.30, thn slp back for 30mins or less.

thn fri nite, sat nite...i will ZONK OUT! i'm serious!!!

ok, went to PS just now. bought my stuffs le. left with shoes (tml), bag (most prob tml) and accessories (also tml). sat mane ade time dok?

haha...like real!

ok, so now i'm slpy. serious. and cold. anyway the main thing is my toe thumb hurts!!! stupid shoe...great! now raye how to wear shoes? omg!!! i wanna cry!

*sigh*

how how how?

so in conclusion, I CAN'T WAIT FOR 5.30PM! thn i'll slp like yest. totally zonk out, mouth open n all. HAHA!!!

buruk sak pompan!

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rAnDoM

2009-09-17T07:50:00.002+08:00

This song is really cute can! Like chipmunks talking. HAHA!!!

Jalil Hamid or something. The singer. IDK.

Wokays, 3 days more. Counting down. I am so looking forward to Hari Raya! HAHA!!!

Tml buying shoes, thn after work meet my mum and sis at cwp to buy stuffs. =)

Then Sat bz i guess. Then Sunday go out. HEHE!!!

It seems long since I wear a sweet-smelling perfume. This Davidoff Game, reminds me of Incanto Shine. Hehe!!!

But nope, not gonna buy perfumes that I've worn before.

Maybe ltr go Dhoby Ghaut's John Little? See how, cuz I scared later all push to tml. Then rushing. I dun like rushing!

Serious, I don't like to be rushed.

Let's c, what else to blog? Like nth hor...

Hmm...

K lah, that's it for now. =)

Bye ppl!!!

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i HaTe...

2009-09-16T08:07:00.002+08:00

i seriously dunnoe what all these ppl r thinking.

letting it all out, nationally!

i mean wif frens ok lah. but also, sometimes some things it's better to keep to urself.

but DECLARING all your problems to the whole nation? LIKE...

gosh! do they hv no skin?

i dun care if any of u find this offensive. but thn agn, this is my thought.

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iNsPiRaTiOnAl

2009-09-16T08:04:00.002+08:00

SUDDENLY felt like blogging. but no specific topic. so mind me for typing rubbishES today.

it's wednesday. 4 more days to enjoyment. HAHA!!! i reallie can't wait. last time, didnt feel anyhing. tk ghairah lah! but now. as it's nearing, cool! mcm budak kecik gitu. haha!!!

ok actually rite, i dun noe what to blog abt anymore. =(

tink, do work lah. ltr if the idea comes to me, i'll blog agn. if not, tunggu lah korang!

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bEsT sOnGs

2009-09-15T08:08:00.002+08:00

the BEST songs afterall, is the Hari Raya songs.

Serious!

***

Bought the bag alrdy but I regret it. So ltr while buying shoes (lunch time), gonna find a new bag. Of course, cannot too ex lah. $30?

And thx to my dear Wheedad and Lisha, I am wanting Java Chips from Starbucks. HAHA!!!

Notty korang.

Oh btw, ala. No pics rite? Cept for WeLoveMindeeOng.com

Hees, aku lom scan seyy...no time. Korang tunggu lah ye. Next wed earliest?

Adiues!

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hUgE cRaViNg

2009-09-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

i've this almost-huge cravings for KFC.

been 2 days alrdy.

hope tml can satiate this craving. (is tat the correct verb?)

ok, just here to blog abt my craving. cuz it's been dragged frm yest.

and my work done sux BIG-TIME. it's 3.04pm and i've only done 6???!!!

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a sEcReT rEvEaLeD

2009-09-07T08:11:00.002+08:00

i dun like noise, especially in the morning.

SO JUST SHUT THE HELL UP!!!

=)

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mEnAmBaHkAn ReAsOnS uNtUk TeRbAtAlKaN pUaSe AkU jEk

2009-09-04T07:54:00.001+08:00

woots! THAT IS LONG!

anyway, 1st thing. It's always like this. whn u r feeling so happy n satisfied, thn eventually it won't last. -_-"

ok, that sentenceS above made me out to be this retarded bee-yatch who was just born into this world, JUST!

haha...wad kind of sentence is that lah!

anyway, 2nd thing.

can all aunties PLS stop being so...AUNTIE?! (contradicting ehx?)

enough of pushing pls. if u wan to push n being so kiasu so much, thn go right to the front n PUSH!!! it's the front ppl who makes the whole thing slow. dun u noe what is domino? mahjong u noe! domino dunnoe. GOSH!

ok, todae is TGIF. but thn...it's TGIF for me, cuz i can wake up late tml. HAHA.

8.08am alrdy.

ok, i'm still feeling uncool now. sadded or what!

ruzaina, what r u doing?! go do work. suppose to start at 8am not 9.30am. HAHA!!!

ok, shall blog in the ltr day IF i've things to blog. =)

adiues.

n i'm still full frm yest. HAHA!

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sAtIsFiEd FeElInG i DoN't KnOw WhY

2009-09-03T13:41:00.001+08:00

Hello!!!

IDK y but i felt satisfied this morning. HAHA!!!

Now like back to normal.

But thn rite, cannot carry the happy feeling too far. Ltr tml or what sure disappointed.

=(

So I shall hold it thr n not let it get out of hand.

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bIkEr JaCkEt

2009-09-01T12:39:00.002+08:00

finding a nice biker jacket.

smua forever 21 nye pasal ah!

haha...almost tempted to take out my i-bank n buy the coastal scent eyeshadow+blush...pallette. (or wth lah the spelling is!)

bored, wanna go home. but i's onie 12.44pm! hurry go 5.30pm!!!

no mood todae. not bad mood, but no mood. reallie!

tuesday black today. nah, more to tuesday blue.

oh! i wanna go out n hv fun! anyone?

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nOt MoNdAy BlUeS

2009-08-31T12:57:00.002+08:00

hello. todae happily, it's not monday blue for me. well, i seldom hv monday blues. tue black have! HAHA!!!

cept for waiting for the bus n missing my train. tu jek...

yg lain ok. =) dlm bus pon ok. HAHA!!! KK DA. MEPEK PULAK NI MINAH.

hmm...nari mon. ala...start of a new wk. cpat lah sat, haha!!!

hmm, looking forward to...home for today. nari tk kluar.

thurs? hehe...thurs ye...ala tapi ko tk bace. =(

k lah, da 1.05pm. lagik 25min. haha, aku saje je add 15mins to my lunch. =)

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sUpEr iRrItAtEd-PmS?

2009-08-28T10:18:00.002+08:00

i dunnoe it's cuz of this anot. but the past few days, i get irritated easily. nono not in general. but to these...specific ppl. used to joke n joke n i dun care. but now reallie irritated wif it liao.

n i deliberately off everything. reallie dun feel like toking alrdy.

guess it's gone. i tink it's best if i go back to being normal like before. not gonna joke alrdy.

n also, enough of ignoring lah! super piece of shittOS!

ok i sae something. i dun care what others will think. i dun care what whoever will think.

WHEN I FUCKING TOKING, DUN INTERRUPT CAN? AND PLS ANSWER!!! DUN JUST IGNORE ME!!! THEN WHN I SHOW THAT PEK CHEK FACE, SAE I PMS OR WHAT! FUCK YOU LAH SHIT! BUT WHN U PMS, CAN! AT THE SLIGHTEST THING ALSO WAN TO COMPLAIN. WTH! SELFISH BRATZ!

super pissed. nope, i noe fasting mth. but not counted alrdy. cuz of...u noe.

i tink my tolerance lvl has reached the limit.

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n my tummy super pain like WHAT!!!

i wanna cry, i wanna breakdown.

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nOt ToO ClOsE

2009-08-27T08:37:00.004+08:00

u noe, sometimes, it's good to not know a person too well. dun get attached to the person too much.

i've learnt my lesson. n it irritates the hell outta me! GRR...

n again i wanna sae:

I HATE SELFISH PPL! DAMN YOU BITCHes!

Peace...bulan puasa dok...relax lah babe! haha!!!

***

oh, i wanna watch The Proposal. Anyone???

n da 4 yrs seyy!!! 4 yrs is long!!!

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sUpEr pIsSeD

2009-08-25T10:33:00.002+08:00

i noe it's the fasting mth.

but thn...

I CAN'T STAND SELFISH PPL!!! THEY IGNORE OTHERS CAN. BUT OTHERS IGNORE THEM, CANNOT TAKE IT!

SHIT YOU!

ok. finish. end of story.

=)

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nEw TeMpLaTe

2009-08-15T18:06:00.000+08:00

hello!!!

have spent 2 days doing the tamplate and breaking out the code. HAHA!!!

new IN song of mine. it's nice lah!!!

ok so update?

hmm...not so much ba.

Ok maybe one.

My babes at work have been telling me that I've changed. From a gentle girl to this angry monster. HAHA!!!

Ok, I mean i'm this person who has become fiercer lah, though I think I dun mean it 90% of the times. HAHA!!!

But I've realised it myself. Maybe cuz I noe you guys long enough le. 1yr...

Other than that...hmm...

Nth much. The laptop that I'm gonna buy.

...

OOPS! Don't have already!!! WTH!!!

Dell Inspiron 14 (S510507SG)

Why dun hv? Gosh!!! Jut when I tot I've decided...*sigh*

C now hv to rethink again. Yes, i noe it's not as though I'm gonna buy it NOW but still.

*sigh*

Ok. Since I've nth much to do now, gonna survey on laptops again. HAHA!!!

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nO mEaNiNg

2009-08-12T07:53:00.000+08:00

thr's no more meaning in coming to work. haha!!!

just looking forward to payday every mth.

serious! last time, like..so looking forward to work. thn reduce to just the journey TO work.

thn now just the payday.

i tink all the same ppl c me, also sianz wif my fucked-up face. HAHA!!!

gosh!!!

but i nd to work. i nd this work.

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rEaLiSaTiOn

2009-08-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

I've realised that...it's not just the action but the person itself. I think there can never be a good moment for a long period of time btw...us.

Like what I've told a fren, it's becoming weird. I myself don't know what's happening. I just loathe the sight of it. I JUST DO.

Serious, and the past few moments, I almost wanted to blurt out. Something that'll be painful to the ears.

If it was the OLD me, I guess it would have happened.

But cuz I was told to be calm all the time, then I 'suppress' the words.

But come to think of it, I think I should just do it w/o telling. Should I?

I reallie can't stand it! I seriously loathe at it. The attitude, the...EVERYTHING. Can't believe we're having something (and will always!) in common. Which is scary! Cuz you can never run away from it.

Seriously pissed. Regret? IDK, maybe it's all my doing. But what matters is the present. And I don't like it at all.

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i Am PiSsEd At...

2009-07-29T16:55:00.003+08:00

SELF CENTERED PEOPLE.

and i mean it!

so these people can go eat shit!

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tIrInG

2009-07-20T14:29:00.002+08:00

*sigh* it's very tiring. seems like almost the whole office noes. haha! ok not so kua zhang but at least those sitting in my row.

thanks for the concern. reallie appreciate it! THX SO MUCH!!!

but for me, it's painful. the back. *sigh*

just now aloght the bus till reach office. thn from 9.30am to 10.40am. thn lunch at 12pm till NOW.

so pain n tiring. feel like just sprawl across the floor.

ok just to cheer me up, i've bought a light blue balenciaga-INSPIRED!

tot of buying more...but nvm. HOW MANY BAGS DO I WANT?!

tot of buying shoes too, but i tink better not. saw nice heels. charles & keith having sales at velocity atrium. but heels? wan me to just drop thr?!

*sigh*

and the heels r like $12.90-$18.90. good price for someone who wans to try wearing it. last seasons'. maybe i just go buy 1 or 2 pair. n keep. maybe can just buy my mary jane heels. n put aside.

just now was so in good mood to work. but the pain is killing me. i can't walk. once i start, it'll cont VIGOROUSLY. but at home i'm ok leh.

maybe cuz new environment. i must get used to it. just now in the train, ppl stare. *sigh*

just can't be bothered but...still hurts n ps.

maybe tml lunch or ltr gg hm...c how. if not much ppl n i'm in a GOOD condition, thn maybe can go c c. *sigh*

feel like just slacking till 4pm. but wth! i still nd to collect my printouts at the oth end printer. cuz the printer beside me is not working PROPERLY.

ok maybe this is it. i mean that's it for now.

Thank You

tUrMoIl WeEkS

2009-07-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

*sigh*

it's been 2 weeks of...devastation, sufferings and...stressed!

and i seriously feel that tml is a brand new day at work. brand new day to see ppl out thr. face them.

i need courage. n also tml everyone will ask!

i seriously hope that they don't. if i sae I DON'T KNOW. i hope they won't probe. seriously, i hope that. i don't want to answer. i don't know how to answer. so pls!!!

u can ask me and i will answer. but don't probe further i i can't answer u. if i stay quiet, pls just don't cont. just be satisfied with my answer. i don't want to stress myself over this.

NOW, i can't be so stress. not even a tiny bit. i tink it turned out like that cuz i'm stressed. n it has accumulate so now need to chill. seriously!

so dun give me stress.

many thankx! =)

n this blog...i tink it's gonna be dead. it looks dead. but no it's not!

its not dead. so dun fret. hehe! just that i'm lazy to update. hehe!

Thank You

mOrNiNg

2009-06-02T07:51:00.005+08:00

ok, i suddenly hv this urge to blog RIGHT NOW.

u noe...i was seriously sleepy from the time i woke up till i was standing while waiting for the train to arrive. u noe why SUDDENLY thr was a change in mood there?

cuz i smiled to my...eh...uncle. distant i guess. but anyway, yar. after i smiled thn my mood lightens up. n thn in the train, Fieza's sms also lighten me up.

n also...haha! She will noe more. =)

anyway, thn whn gg out, cuz i wanted to alight but the train was packed. so 'excuse me' n 'thank u' my way out. n u will feel good too. and taking the TODAY n said 'thank u'. and whn gg out the door, u hold the door for the person n not just selfishly let it go whn u noe thr r others behind u.

n this won't only change other's mood. most importantly it's u!

so ppl, be gracious n courteous!!! =) esp if whn u urself is in a bad mood n trying to lighten up urself.

SMILE ALWAYS!!!

gosh-i'm like promoting courtesy...!!! haha...

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mY lIfE iN a SuMmArY

2009-05-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

ok. i was blog-hopping n tis inspired me to blog.

but idk wad to blog abt.

but wth.

nvm.

let's just tok abt wad i've done so far.

1) 9th may (sat): had my bbq bdae party at PASIR RIS BEACH PARK! yes. beach not downtown. n i tot it's common. hee...guess i was wrong. but anyway, was so busy! haha...not busy of what. just that thr were so many ppl frm diff sections in my life. not tat i'm angry. i am so lucky to ahve them thr! my sec frens, poly frens n colleagues. hehe!!!

so BIG THANK YOU to u. let me list out yea. i still rmrbr okay!

Sec frenz
Lisha
Widad
Frana
Idhzuan
CT
Hafiz
Shamsul
Sharif
Aliff
Karim
Azim

Poly frenz
Flora
Lemon
Her fren...i tink. WAKAKA!!!
Jialing
Ira
Iman
Eh...iman's cousin.
WAKAKA!!!

Collegues...how do u spell!
Elicia
Her husband
Her daughter
Mdm Lim
Maybeline
Rahmah
Sheryl
Vino
Kak Hos
Her daughter
Kak Yati
Her THREE sons! haha!!! Whom the 2nd wan became Sham's BFF n CT's crush! =)
Her husband
Rafidah
Her fiance
Claire
Her BF
Belindaaaaaa!!!!
Her BF

And also my cousins. Hmm..all of my cousins were thr. COOL RITE! Eh, cept for one. Abg Amen. =( And Kak Ain and Musa. Sadded. But nvm!

Next time, korang kene dtg tau!!!

Anyway, was so happy! It was a success!!! Thanks for the prezzies, thx for the wishes.

Did I miss anyone out? I dun tink so...

So it was a blast, so happy! But seriously, I didn't expect the types of prezzies! So happy, flabbergasted, suprised n shocked. BUT OVERALL EXCITED!!!

OMG!!! Thank you! I can't thank YOU enough.

2) I got home frm work on Mon, and my fam bought me a cake too! Hehe...THANK YOU! =)

3) Then the following Mon, blanja my fam...my mum's bdae. Yes her bdae is EXACTLY ONE WK FRM ME. Hehe...Went to eat seafood at Yishun Int. Nice seyy! Its been a long time since I tasted that TASTE! But this day was also my scary day cuz...Niuniu wld noe. Very scary! Even to this day, I am wary of it.

4) Suppose to take leave frm this day but cannot due to some...didn't. So as of now, I still have my Vesak Day Time Off! Hehe...

5) Wed went karaoke wif my galfrenz. =) Hilarious, still can't forget SOMEONE'S croaked voice while EMOTIONALLY singing ISABELLA. haha!!! Frana joined ltr. Hehe...And thn...watched Uninvited, all of us cept for Dad. Cuz she need to go off. =( It was...not a ghost story lah. More like psychotic...(eh..is that the spelling? or is that even the word?) killing thing. And I almost swore that the lead girl was DEMI LOVATO. Until i saw Lemony Snicket last Sun. HAHA!!!

6) Fri came back work. Feeling weird. N ít's only 2 freaking days! Total work reduced. Was shocked! N my fear even crept more inside. But held it thr.

7) Sat had Hafiz's surprise bdae party at Vivo. Wee!!! He was so surprised lah! N me too. Cuz Filzah was thr. WOW!!! Small world. Hehe...And made a new fren. Apriani! Hehe...She looks so young!

And Karim was super thick-skinned n funny! GOSH! I can't believe he did that! I mean hello! It's a saturday night @ Vivo. OMG! Salute him lah!!!

***

Seriously, I hate the weather. I'm perspiring as I'm typing. And the door's open. HELLO!

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8) Yest ate SG at cwp, wif Lisha. Dad almost joined us. But due to some...matters, she can't. Haiz. Act breeks can lah I guess...but we just had that on Sat. N I don't wanna waste my bdae treat. Hehe...sry Dad. Next time we eat tgt kaes! =)

Oh, the pix Lisha, I upload it on Sat or something can? Lazy lah....hehe!!!

9) Today is my LAST day enjoying. Tml feels like Monday to me. In fact, yest felt like Sat to me.*grins*

Whn will this happen again i wonder? Maybe not so soon...I mean I can't keep taking leave rite? Wad wld my superiors think? Yes, no doubt I have TONS OF HUG N DIE TGT of leaves but still! Hello!

Wokay, I can't stand the weather. I'm gg off now. I dun care!

Oh...watched Gossip Girl. Too lazy wanna watch epi 14 till end. So I just skip to the last epi. HEHE!!!

And it's nice. Woots!!!

I wan Chuck Bass right here, right now. PLS!!!

Thank You

SuPeR pIsSeD

2009-05-25T23:38:00.003+08:00

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! I DUN GIVE A DAMN WHETHER IT'S VIRUS OR COMMANDS OR WHATSOEVER SHIT! YOU'RE JUST IRRITATING!

WAD MEMORY WAD RUNTIME ERROR WAD SLOWNESS?! SHIT YOU! I AM SUPER PISSED. U CAN JUST GO N DIE. JUST GO BLANK OK!

DAMN ANGRY AT YOU! I DUN CARE WHETHER U HAVE FEELINGS ANOT. I JUST DUN!

JUST SHUT DOWN N NEVER COME TO LIFE IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT! I'M SICK N TIRED OF YOU JUST SHUTTING OFF WHATEVER I'M DOING. DAMN YOU!

Thank You