Tuesday, November 29, 2005 • 10:05:00 AM
yea..in sch rite now. having IT lessons. make webbie using frontpage (but over liao!) and now learning how to use microsoft words. lol! yea..but hey, i still don noe some nice effects and stuffs. maybe can learn new things.
all right now. the lecturer is beside me teaching
Xinyi. and me here bored. haiz...sianz. Ira nt here todae.
wadever it is...im so sianz.
Ira come leh. *lol* think too much ba...
haiz...finally finish watching wzbqw! so cute sia the ending whn they stuck inside tat cave. *lol*
Setay, didja watch it?!!!
and my burner, hurry heal leh. i wanna burn stuffs. lotz of stuffs!
haiz..sianz. tests in 2wks time and still haven study. so much abt wanting to be hardworking this sem onwards. cannot le must start studying liao! if i start todae, got at least 3 days to study the tests-modules. yea...so jia you! lol.
ruzaina, pls lah go study. u wanna get scolded again issit?! go go go. break go. lol. siao liao.
me so sianz. todae go hm surely c tat monkey play comp until late. haiz...last time i 1 whole mth do tat, now her turn-2 mths somemore! haiz...she so...haiz. her attitude sucky sia. wanna slap her bloody face le! so stress out see her face!
haha...yea guys. readers. i noe my posts recently verrie depressing. even
Setay said tat! oklah. but still, i cannot do anything mah. these sad things happen to me mah. nt i wan them to happen. haiz...sianz. my life so sad. yea. onlie found out NOW. so sad.
*lol* verrie cold le. me wear this thick jacket also like wan to freeze le. buay tahan liao. need to buy thicker jacket le! but $$$ problem leh. everytime like tat. $$$, haiz...another problem in my life. but i tink nt onie me ba...everyone else also. sianz.
ok lah. gonna start lesson soon. but no teacher yet. but i cant just keep rambling here mah?! but thn again, tis my blog. haha. actually chatting wif
Fariz just now. but he eating lah. so how?!
eh hurry up eat leh. me sianz.im like treating tis post like a chatbox. *lol*
shd i stop for now? hmmm...lemme think.
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Monday, November 28, 2005 • 4:49:00 PM
Hi hi. Got a headache suddenly. well, tis morn i too taxi to sch wif my parents-they go app mah. thn on the wayy...
yar took taxi. thn suddenly headache la. like wan to vomit. wan to sae i 'allergic' to taxi, tis my first time feeling like tis. maybe cuz i was looking down on my hp. yea. maybe tats y. haiz...
thn cuz of my stoopid headache, i like ignore ppl leh.
sry yar peeps. if u do feel tat way, im so sry horz! my head hurt so much. tats y i kept putting my head on the table. nt tat i deliberately ignore u ppl yar?! haha...ok lah. suddenly so touchy!oops,
Liy called. wanna go hm together but i long time reached hm le. haiz...long time nv see her. haha! next time ba.
just watched wzbqw last epi! so cute worz! haha...yea, serve junhao right! haha...now the show gone le. finish le. aniwae, rite now, im just hopping tat the burner heal le. i wanna burn the story inside and delete off frm the comp. take up lotz of space leh. 30 epi and each abt 350mb leh. haiz...
all right. gonna eat. hungry le. just now morn head so pain until no appetite.
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Sunday, November 27, 2005 • 7:02:00 PM
Yea..eating out. So sianz back to eating out routine.
Shd be go Woodgrove thr eat. I don noe wad to eat le. so sianz wan to eat. eat onie...i kinda still full. ate kfc in the afternoon, double up as my breakfast and lunch. *lol* used to it liao.
in my life, thrs no such thing as breakfast. breakfast is considered rare. and besides, if morning i eat, afternoon cannot eat le. thn if can eat also like 5-6pm. thn dinner will be shifted to much later. nt good mah?! aniwae, my health also nt good le. so fat. yea admit im fat. nt chubby or aniting. its FAT.
*sigh*
i just wanna play after my sis thn my dad noisy sae go get ready. wanna go out. everytime like tat. too much of a coincidence. like ppl don wan me to hv free time like tat. idiot sia.
all right. tml mondae. don wan to be late again. haha! frm 1st dae, every mon surely late wan!!! stoopid...
i tink i don care le. ppl hate me don care anymore. i cannot do anything mah?! cant go begging at them and tell them nt to hate me rite? i myself nt sure whether thrs such a thing but kept having this feeling. i hate being paranoid. can someone just take this feeling of mine away?! its sickening! everytime be on my guard and later develop hate feelings for ppl whom i SUSPECT. nah...gonna control everything. i am nt gonna let this fucking feeling take over my life and ruin it.
all right le. my dad noisy le. any1? can suggest wad to eat?! my head pain le...
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Saturday, November 26, 2005 • 10:58:00 PM
*sigh*
Yester helped out at the
Chill@Sp thingy. Yea...haiz. Ok lor. got $3 macs vouchers. and just go round asking non-sp students to fill up this form which can win them an ipod nano. haiyoh! some don wan, little onie lah...don wan give me lor! haiyoh, just fill up mah? so scared for wad?
and even got igonred looks but these two NEDRS! idiot sia...don wan to fill up, sae DON WAN. difficult to sae meh? give me that stoopid looks?! i tell u, next yr i c u, u die le. hate ppl giving me those i'm-not-bothered look. pls lah. difficult to sae 'don wan' meh?
*sigh*
but thn again, little nerdy boys wanna act cool. hah! pls lah!
thn whn wanna go hm, waited for
Liy. said 5-10mins. thn waited for her almost 30mins, sae she cannot make it. told me to go first. -_-
just now went to my 3rd cousin hse for tis small bdae party. the fd nice but spicy but still nice. heh-but stayed thr onlie for awhile lah cuz my mum working mah? yea...my mum workin. and whn she goes work, thn onie i can play if nt later she nag. i write abt it in the last post i tink.
gonna maple le. but my dad wanna c the soccernet. the result. wadever lah.
thn rite now gonna download the wzbqw last epi le. thn no more staying up till late. haha!!! ok rubbishing here...
and my typing sux bigtime. always got spelling mistakes!
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Thursday, November 24, 2005 • 5:02:00 PM
Ok. Didn't blog. Cuz my Mum started her craps liao. Nagging le. But seriously, wad she sae is true lor. I nv study and didnt feel any disappointment for my last sem result. And rrmbr how i always sae i wanna be hardworking? Crap lah.
U noe Ruzaina, just stop talking cock u bitch.
Haiz...scolded myself a bitch. Yea, no big deal le. So wad? I don feel anything. well, im scolding myself.
yea, even rite now as i blog, my mum like angry leh tat im on the comp. everytime like tat. whenever im on the comp, surely angry. slam here and thr. fine!!! ill walk out of tis fam one dae. serious. if im treated like tis, i will sure walk out.
im sick of myself. period.
all right, better stop reproaching myself. enough le.
yester, my dad was like advising me cuz after my mum nagged, i sulked and she complained to him. and my dad told me tis and that. yea. me can pour out everything to my dad but nt my mum. don noe y. told
Ira le. "My mum is my dad. My dad is my mum." haiz... wadever lah. at least its balance mah. surely, if both my parents like so...argh!...i will be a troubled kid. trust me.
thn yester found out something. but no big deal actually lah. so wad? hes still a student. *lol*
btw...er....unique name uve got thr?just now, during lunch,
Sing Yee and
Ira told me tat i looked angry. huh?
Got meh? Seriously. they said my face like verrie angry. hah! u guys tink too much ba. maybe cuz i spilled the curry and tat that uncle gave me a dirty plate. i don noe. but seriously, im nt angry at anyone. trust me, if i am angry or something, i wouldnt talk to ppl. ill just keep quiet.so don tink too much, k?but seriously Sing Yee, im sry k? just now u wanted to sit inside but i insisted on sitting outside. maybe i sounded too pushy. sry yar?!haiz...tml go hm @ 5pm. cuz i volunteered for tis event. get cca points leh. must go. *lol*
and again, ive tat feeling again. tat paranoid feeling.
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Sunday, November 20, 2005 • 2:00:00 PM
Yea..mapling just now. Everytime kena 'cc' 'ks'...wtf?! Got ur name meh? And still call me b!itch. Idiot. U go die first ba!
yea..no use getting angry these things but verrie maddening u noe? Getting scolded cuz of a game? Game is suppose to be fun, nt hostile or anything.
And this foreigner was scolded by tis sg player. And he was like "such a disgrace!"...gosh! reallie...
fuck u lah maplers.
all right. todae supposedly go jln raye, 2nd round wif sec schmates. but i cant. sry yar guys? next yr ba...
haiz...sianz. law tut still haven do. suppose to do in twos but nvm lah. i help help abit. besides, my marks just pass leh. on the dot.
gosh! i tink hv to check my eyes soon cuz my eye like verrie pain. er..nt tat pain until wan to cry lah but maybe cuz my degree gos up le. i wan new specs, but nt like i wear them. *lol*
waste $$$. wadever lah.
goin to watch wzbqw epi 29. my sis in the rm so can watch. haha. if nt later next wed don noe wad happen.
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Friday, November 18, 2005 • 10:03:00 PM
*lol* had fun todae...@ da bookshop. haha...
well, todae went hm @ 1200 thn me and
Ira went Clementi. She got 3.5 hrs to spare. shes meeting her sis @ City Hall. and me? well me just accompany her. nt exactly accompany her. more like the other way round. cuz me wan to buy some tops (desperately need!) and my mum told me to get this ezlink coloured plastic holder. wadever crap tat is.
if nt, i wld hv gone to cwp (to which is BORING, sianz liao!). so we went clementi.
sry yar Zhen Lin, didnt quite get ur puzzle and sry if i was like nt interested. nt tat lah. but seriously i didnt get wad qn u asked. haha! mon ba...but nt like u reading tis rite? haha...don tink my classmates reading. haha!all right. so we went clementi. we went frm hang ten to giordano to samuel & ___ to baleno...blah3x. well, these shops were straight in a row. in the end bought tis t-shirt @ baleno. yea. finally. onie one lah but maybe tml or next time? tml..i lazy go out. actually tml got roteract jln raya but cannot make it lah. next yr ba...haha!
thn after bought tat, we went eat at this coffeeshop. modern wan. its all malay thruout but we ate tis noodle frm tis chi stall. its halal lah! but its irony rite? or wadever the word is. my eng jia lat le. anyhow use words lor! bombastic-sounding mah?! *lol* wadever lah ruzaina.
yar and the uncle was like explaining the way he cook it. *lol* and promoting his business. haha. its okay lah cuz at banquet, its sweet. but here more towards spicy. so different taste i ate wanton noodle.
Ira ate dumpling noodle.
we were cheated. thr s lotz of mats thr and
Ira got teased i tink cuz she was looking at someone and shaking her head. *lol* well, shes pretty mah?! so no surprises. yea cheated. the drinks. we both bought soya beans. and guess wad?
Ira paid $5 but was returned 80 cents i tink-less thn $1. stoopid rite?! whr got one can of drink $2.10 wan?! idiot! thn we were deciding whether to ask anot. but the mats so disturbing tat we went off.
haiz...thn went big bookshop. cool! @ yishun, close down le. stoopid. and thr was where we had fun.
started wif me wanting to browse novels. so cheap. $9.90 onie. but nvm cuz at hm i still got 4 novels haven read. bought it frm mph warehouse sale. the end of the yr coming so im looking forward to it. so far went twice during tis year. beginning and mid. haha!!! gonna go again. $5/novel leh. cheap mah?!
thn frm thr went to this sect whr its abt lang. haha! browsing thru and i tried out indon wif
Ira. ok start crapping le...*lol*
thn went to sec textbks! we were comparing which bks we used and blah3x. thn
Ira pointed out something abt the Geog bk. the one i used in sec 2. the no is actually in the background. can u believe it?! onie NOW i realised. *lol* wth?!
its nt funny. just...weird. u noe...i wasnt observant enough. tats all.
thn went to notebks and invoice. haha! let out my childhood secret to
Ira.
u better don tell!haha...crapping all the way. thn went to files and folders and everything. haha!!! thn found the card holder and bought green for my mum and pink for me. i need wallet but maybe now use tat for ezlink. the colour nice mah? besides 45 cents onie. haha!!!
thn paid and went down to 1st story to look at the clothes thr. didnt buy though.
and b4 tat had to take lift mah? the door.
Ira was pressing the button. two ppl were almost stuck btw the doors. haha. she said nt her pressing. its the door itself. i don noe. i was innocent, i was just standing thr. *looks around*
all right. thn went hm. she went City Hall. i went woodlands. haiz...
sry if i was boring and stuffs. i noe i was crapping like which 5-yr-old. haha. still childish mah? like u said b4, we are still considered children until next yr. *lol*all right, mapling now. i wanna pq all the way, but don tink can cuz sure lotz of ppl. haiz...
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• 12:05:00 AM
Yep! So sleepie these days. always overslept by MORE thn 20 mins! Gosh!!!
Yea, still haven get over wif my nocturnal life. God-ruzaina!!! It's sem 2 liao. Enough le. Become norm again da...
*sigh*
Slept in the train just now. Haha! Whn reached Marsiling, so little ppl. So manie empty seats. thn suddenly whn reached JE, haha!! I suddenly jerked up and wondering whether i was drooling or anything. Haha!!! Hope nt...
*sigh*
So long nv maple le. miss maple. nvm. tml reach hm, i go maple ba. thn who noes? can meet
Amen and he ll give me free stuffs again?! Heheh...i wanna pq all the way since i can't soon. nvm wad am i crapping?
all right all right. got my thick blue jacket dirty. it's light blue tats y. thn don noe wad happen. must hv lean onto something i guess.
yea went cwp wif
Ira. she wanted to buy prezzie. searched here and thr thn she sae maybe she goin westmall. haiz...actually if nt, follow her le but cuz i ve to redeem this walnut cake, cuz my mum got the voucher. thn tot the cake will melt tats y i didnt agree to go westmall in the first place. skali...pathetic sia. its just some cheap looking cake where u can buy for less thn 5 bucks at other norm cake shops. bwahaha...
thn tot wanna go see see tops. but nah! maybe later after sch. but saw this sweater...or wadever at samuel &...er...kevin? samuel something...so nice. but come to think of it, tis is singapore. but its nice lah. but i tink if wanna wear that, hv to reallie change my whole wardrobe. later one particular day wear until so nice thn skali the rest of the days wear so slack. farnie mah?!
ok wadever am i babbling...
on wed had gems. yea. it was crap. tis cool-looking guy in frnt. tot he reallie tse cool guy. skali childish! *lol* nt childish lah but cheeky and don noe wad. crappie. his frend beside me had to shut him up. but he still continued...haiz. nvm. at least i was nt bored. got craps to laugh at. *lol*
and the tut. like back to sec sch. newspaper article and hv to answer qns. total got 7 qns i tink. thn the cher said something like do onlie two qns based on wad he wrote on the whiteboard. well, he drew a table and it was like based on the last digit of ones admin no. like me, my last digit is 1, so i hv to do onlie qn 2 & 6. i tink. forgot liao wad qn i did. but heck lah!
all right. my dad come out le. later he see me blogging thn kaypoh. tis lah tat lah. and me sleepy le. morning morning...
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Monday, November 14, 2005 • 5:28:00 PM
Yea...im sad AGAIN. and maybe kinda pissed.
well i was given that cold shoulder and as the usual me (the totally selfless person as said by
Liy), i sacrificed. wtheck. yea tats me. but nvm. at least had fun.
yea yea. sry last min and everything. well, i didn't noe mah! nvm it's over.all right. late for law again. haiz and made
Ira,
Jen,
Sing Yee,
Lemon and
Medwin wait for me. Gosh! Sry!!! Actually told
Ira to go first but as STUBBORN as she always is...*lol*...well, everyone was late cuz of me. Heh-sry.
But thn later whn the lecturer was marking attendance, i persevered and heh. he was kinda pissed off cuz manie others in front of me actually used tat trick. 'used that trick'. yea. and whn i said tat too, he was like "haiyoh! all right, todae I'll mark you all as present but no more next time." sry cher. didn't mean it. was just trying to stand up for myself. *lol*
rubbish.
all right now...did 'chem' and i cant manage to find the answers to lotz of it. so nvm. haha! naughty.
tml is tues and thr's ''chem'' lecture and this IT thingy. another rubbish module. well, come one! i'm nt in IT course! and ive to learn the comp parts?! reallie rubbish lah!!!
rubbish. rubbish. fine. fine.
*sigh* wed can't wear slippers. my legs aching frm yester. well, went jln raya wif sec frends and my leg aching. maybe frm next yr onwards, i'm gonna wear slippers or something low. wad crap. my legs aching okay?!
yea can't wear slippers cuz got 'chem' prac. haiz...
haiz...wzbqw gonna end next wed. and i cant watch the last epi mainly cuz ill reach hm at 2000 like datt...cuz of chi lesson lor! haiz. lucky got alternative if nt i die le. cry le. *lol*
hmm don noe whether tat monkey got watch secretly on tv anot. cuz the last wk, i drowned in the afternoon till 2030 like tat. heck lah! she don noe i can watch much more many times thn her. she can only watch once. heh-naughty naughty.
haiz...sianz.
i seriously need new clothes. kept wearing the same thing. dull somemore. need colours! haiz...
guess my hp bill tis mth jia lat le. sure bomb sia! sms alotz! i lost counted. heh...
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Saturday, November 12, 2005 • 1:21:00 AM
yea yea. its just another day. boring day, hah! maybe nt. don noe lah.
nothing to blog abt todae. other thn i changed my skin tat is.
if nt for my (ahem!) perseverance, the skin will be plain. as in the texts colours. they will be in white. i tried to read and strain my eyes into seeing the script. change here and thr, nothing happens. but nah! i jia you and got it le. haha!
those r lyrics ok? nt my own one. so its copyrighted. lurve this band so much. just too bad they r disbanded.
which band im referring to? nt gonna tell. find out urself. heh.
haiz...
that feeling comes again. thet paranoid feeling of ppl shunning away frm me. i hate that feeling so insecure. haiz...
all right now. ect no need retest le. well, the lecturer said its only a marginal (er..is tat how u spell it? or did the word even exist?!) marks. so might as well don take. so im nt taking le. yea...wed verrie free de. haha! 3-5pm. haha!
but gems start tut le. i don like tut. individual pls. nt tat i hate working wif ppl. but i don noe any of them. and im nt those break-the-ice kinda person. so nah.
individual pls. pls im begging u...
*sigh*
tat monkey is so reallie out of hand. she caused my mum to blow up again! its the internet! she changed after she keeps logging in to friendster and stuffs. yea friendster, she had one.
shes getting rubbishy here. i don like her attitude now. nt asking her to be so childish and blur like whn shes a toddler. well, ppl grow up! but her attitude like fucking shit. omg! feel like reallie, killing her. strangle, torture her fucking face. i hate her face. tat arrogant heck care look whn ppl tok to her.
like if go shopping, thn my mum will ask what she wans (which clothes or shoes...an eg for hari raya), she ll give tat fuck look. reallie! like shes the queen. like shes the onlie person thr and everyone must respect her. fuck off u bitch. omg! i reallie hate her attitude.
pls lah, ur my sister. be my sister nt some fucking arrogant asshole!
and rmbr i said something abt her cher scolded her, yea. cuz of tat face. my dad said. well, wasn't reallie scolding her but everytime she gives tat glum shit of a look. if i was the cher, i wld hv slap her face. grind her or something. but nah. it ll cost u ur job or even life.
but sometimes...*sigh*
life is so unpredictable.
lock me up and throw away the key...Thank You
Wednesday, November 09, 2005 • 11:03:00 PM
Haha! serve her right! she got told off by her form cher. yea, tml my dad gonna confront the cher on y she did that to this idiotic monkey.
but to me she deserves it! see?! nv bathe...wtf. she shd be scolded. at hm no one bears to scold her (nt for me lah! it's i CAN'T scold her!!!) so now she gets fucking scolded in sch. my mum said, she went hm wif this ugly sulky and sad face. muahaha....serve u rite u bitch! been waiting for tis moment. everyone keeps saying ur an angel.
for fucking sake, you're so not! no one is an angel (yes tat includes me!). and it's proven!!! ur nt an angel u bitch! serve u right is all i can sae...
well, maybe tml whn my dad confronts the cher thn the truth comes to light. but i hope tat she's in the wrong!
all right now, my dad comes out liao. gonna go sleep! tml is 1000-1500!!!
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• 1:25:00 AM
Yea...yester just went thru the new module. IT for the Property Industry or wadever it is. omg!!!
Guess wad? It's just like IT. Well, it is IT! As in...thr's 2 parts. Firstly, abt designing webpage frm scratch. Yea using Excel issit? don noe lah...i'm hopeless wif all these things! Okay I guess, at least noe something. but nt like i wanna design website rite? i'll just copy templates...lol! easy way out mah!!!
thn part 2. omg! the worst! totally study abt comp parts. well, at least for just now. sheesh! wth?! all those comp parts. sheesh! will die. why all the modules like stressing mie out?!
and ect, i STILL HV NOT started. haiz...and it's next wed. exactly 7 days later. sheesh!
*sigh*
tml is wed, don noe y but i'm looking forward to it. haha! don read too much. cuz i can finally wear slippers! haha...my leg pain liao frm last wk keep wearing shoes! pain u noe!!! tml relax. thn gems...waah! more happie!!! can sleep le! but no lah, i'm nt tat bad lah! later the lecture so kelian...like no respect!
i'm a gd ger mah!
all right, just added (if any of u notice!) a new link to my pets.
Xinyi taught mie. heheh...thx ger! but a bit farnie lah. cuz whn u scroll up and down, the picture go haywire! but just be patient lah. now wad time liao. u wan mie to see wad is wrong. wait long long ba. tml is sch dae u noe! and my dad already keep sayin, "Ajai, jgn tido lambat2x!"
Fine fine.
I'll go sleep. Actually slept just now thn woke up @ 0030! *lol* Missed Kwon Sang Woo. Is tat his name?! *lol*
Fine, FINE! I'm off...
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Saturday, November 05, 2005 • 11:17:00 PM
yea...i've either got brain damage or just plain mad. serious. i get angry and sad easily. maybe i'm depressed. gosh! any doctor, check my brain pls. i'm going crazy!
just now went my cousin hse. yea. actually went out cuz wanna visit my granny but she is nt at hm so instead went to
Jo's hse for his bdae party. his bdae is todae. haha! same like xiaoqiao. yea xiaoqiao as in 7F. opp of mine. the day and mth.
so happie bdae to Johari. happie 18th bdae!!! sorrie just now didn't get to wish u.ok thn went to
Fariz's hse @ AMK and
Aldy's @ admiralty. verrie close to mine. just take 962 and a few bustop. tada! and tml the rest coming to my hse. don tok abt ang-pao lah. in a few yrs time, i wont be getting i guess cuz i'm old already.
sianz...tis yr's hari raya nt tat happie. first time feeling so low. *sigh*
i wanna change my skin but verrie lazy. and tis skin nice cuz it's black and hot pink. maybe next wk or something.
wanna study for law, ect, bsi, building materials...blah3x. but nah! the mood nt thr. and behind mie, my dad is teaching tat monkey maths. her hw and also for her exam tis mon. maybe cuz of tat idiot fucking exam tats y my fam nt so celebrating it. stoopid sch!!! argh!
sheesh. so sianz. downloading wzbqw epi 22. watched until epi20. maybe later whn tat monkey sleep liao i go watch. cannot lah. if she's here, thn die le. she'll start fucking whining! hate her voice.
even rite now, she's trying to act all sleepy. but trust mie, once my dad gives her the green light to stop studying, she'll become all energetic.
haiz. maybe my mum sick of mie liao. usually if tat monkey studying or something, she'll nag for mie to stop. but nt todae. well, she's sleeping but still she didn't sae anything. haiz. even just now whn we went out, she didn't tok much. maybe she's sick of mie sulking.
hate myself. why can't i be happie? why can't i just stop sulking? i hate myself. why am i so lazy? c rite now hv to re-test ect. i hate myself.
just go and die lah. hate myself. hate my life. well, no. my life nothing is wrong. but it's me. myself. myself i tell ya. just y am i like tis?
wif friends and even fam i don tok to them tat much. i become so socially outcast. so out. i don tok to them. i tried to tok to them. but don noe. i'm shy? am i shy? i don tink so. just acting cool? sheesh!
hate myself. serious. period.
maybe tats y i always sulk wif my fam. cuz i hate myself. and whn i hate myself, everyone i also hate. i hate msyelf.
ppl see mie as goody-two-shoe. for godsake. no! i'm not.
i just hate myself. i tell u:
I HATE RUZAINA OF SINGAPORE POLY WHO'S IN THE COURSE OF PROPERTY DEVELOPMENT AND FACILITIES MANAGEMENT, DPFM/FT/1A/22, 05/06. Thank You
Friday, November 04, 2005 • 7:32:00 PM
See?! Nv go...sae wan to go. in the end nv go!
LIARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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• 4:47:00 PM
*lol* I failed for da 1st time in poly. ECT&P lor. that...module. verrie luan! Scored 47%. *sigh*
thn next next wed is the retest. i don wanna take cuz in my mind rite now, everything's blank. serious. go ask mie...i won answer anything. sheesh!!! shd hv e-mailed or something so during the hols can revise. NOW thn sae...
okay. just now had ect lecture with ms jessie...erm...this female cher lah. she's cool. haha! but 1st dae onlie mah...but i tink she ok lah. the way she teach berrie understandable. she's nice. yea...she's nice.
all right. just now straight after sch went bugis wif
Ira. we go eat swenson. *lol* whn we entered, no one le. cept for these 2 bengs in black. they nt together lah. but the whole place was so quiet. thn lunch time and blah blah blah. so NOISY like zoo sia.
especially got this grp of 5 friends, 2 gers, 3 bois. they were toking and laughing so loud. and they even tok abt cannot-eat-chicken-beef-mutton thingy. thn go eat fish lah! or veggies. gd for u!
and i tink tat was the 1st time i was full!
had chilli fish pasta or wadever it is...tower thingy ice cream. and the pasta was in a set meal so we had pumpkin soup-nice, coke. i wanted coffee but it's nt mocha or anything. so chose coke. haiz...gassy drink. thn also had this dessert. *lol* ice cream! haha. i was so full. left half of my fish. thn my tower thingy ice cream also left 1/4. thn my dessert...haha! the choco chip ice cream was spread all over the plate. melt mah!
oh yar! also ordered this garlic pitas. got 4 but we ate one each. too full le. went out, my stomach like wan to explode. wanted to vomit everything out!
ok...my dad just told mie whether wan to go my granny's hse after that monkey comes hm. well, no relatives of course!
yea...just now Fariz called to sae that tml is Jo's bdae and thr's a party at his hse. well, i wanna go but my parents. cuz some more that monkey is having her exams. *sigh*
sianz...
all right now, i wanna change the skin but don noe wan anot. maybe later sundae see again. or next wk...
heh heh heh.
Thank You
Thursday, November 03, 2005 • 10:54:00 PM
Yea...todae supposed to be a happy hari raya.
Firstly, happie hari raya to all malays out thr! maaf zahir dan batin. sorrie if i ever hurt u...hv a happie hari raya, yar?!Yea..so happie to all of u malays.
But nt to myself.
I stayed at hm todae. Didn't go out. My cousin and aunt called just now. I'm sorrie i sounded grumpy. I was so sad and angry! My fam...they heck le. like todae is nothing. yea i woke up late but can wake mie up rite?
my aunt said wanna come...yea shd be they take public transport cuz my dad nt thr mah?! during the past, my dad is so-called the driver for us family cuz he drives a lorry. yea yea. but now no more. todae i mean. and yrs ago.
haiz...so sianz. my aunt called @ 1700 like tat. but until now they r nt here. maybe they don wan to come cuz we r nt thr. haiz. i asked her just now who were thr and she said everyone. so shd be my cousins too! unlike yrs ago, cuz onlie 3 of my aunts came our hse near midnite le. we wanted to sleep! but tat yr the next dae, my fam goes arnd on ourselves.
tis yr like don wan leh. i don feel the happiness le. i wanna die.
i'm so sad. i'm so sad.
sad.
angry.
disappointed.
wanna disappear.
don wan to face any1.
wth is happening to my life?
so sad and frustrating!
i'm getting depressed.
reallie!
feel like go off to some other country and live thr, take on a new identity.
yea rite.
no $$$ wan to tok big.
qualifications so low.
onlie 17 wanna tok big.
now as i'm typing, i hear a lorry and ppl toking happily downstairs. hopping it's my fam.
but i don tink so.
it's so late. they shd be at others' place.
i'm so sad.
tis is my life.
i can nv be happy for so long.
always been disappointed.
the tv! just shut up! wad hari raya? no raya for mie.
i'm so sad. so angry. so lifeless.
Thank You
