Ruzaina
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yest went out with Lisha and Dad!!! and their friend-Magdelene...i tink...also came!!! and we watched: HAPPY FEET!!!

it's so cute lah!!! omg...really cute..i'm like obsessed wif it alrdy!!!

PEOPLE, GET ME THOSE PENGUINS!!!

omg!!! ahhh!!!!

and on the way hm, Dad got crazy. cuz of her BELOVED PRECIOUS...

Jane Austen.

-_-"

an author...yep. who died...centuries ago. i don noe wad got over her. and blah3x.

kept laughing. frm the time we went off frm marina bay till we seperated at woodlands...we laughed.

read: we laughed. terribly. if i had been eating, i wld hv choked!!! or just spit out the food and land nicely on other ppl faces. yes. it was reallie..omg. it seems long that i've nv had a gd laugh with SEC friends. in poly...haha! u can say i laugh everyday. =)

and Dad was like..jane austen will come in my dreams. wnd be proud of her. and thn enid blyton and hardy boys will come too. and stuffs. gosh. she just went crappy lah. and thn.."air-con not open", "pumps with heels" and "eat mangkuk in bangkok"just came out. and she even made a nursery rhyme, which has no link but rhymes. surprisingly. and that's why she said that jane will praise her. -_-"

sheesh!!!

and back to the movie!!! hilarious! the amigos reallie man...they kept singing even whn Mambo...or whatever his name is...was sad. and they were like...OMG!!! *lol*

u ppl shd watch it!!! well, cartoons r always funny. and happy feet is cute, funny, sweet...everything lah!!! i just love the baby penguins!!! =)

*hint hint*

ok enough abt yest, though i can go on and on. With Dad's siliness...there's no ending. haha!

siliness? i'll find another word. =)

ok...so just now. we were released at 3pm. supposedly 5pm. cuz 1-3pm lecture cancelled and so 3-5pm tut pushed forward. yea. and since i wasn't in a rush to go hm, so i pei Ira play pool. er...wadever. at clementi. she won...3 round out of 4. sheesh!!! and guess wad? i always lose to her by one ball. sheesh!!!

and got some disturbance. some may be flattered but nt me. nt my type i guess. nvm. only me and Ira wld noe...=)

and blah3x. Ira's friend came and off we go. blah3x. i went off first. since i was trying to catch up wif Liy. but nah! missed her train by A STEP. yes. literally by a step.

going to sch, at je also. by a step. crappy. todae is my miss-the-train-by-a-step day. haha...lame.

sheesh!!!

gonna maple and audition. my sis stuck at lvl 11 for audition. can i catch up wif her? heheh...we'll c.

off i go now...

Thank You

u noe..how we behave, what we look like...and all...r just a repetition of what our parents have been through. we childish? they used to be to. no! make it...they ARE.

and i hate that!

cannot c ppl free. sure got excuses to do this and that. crap.

fed-up lah!

and the glutton also!!! sit at hm, in frnt of comp...ate like half of the dish alrdy and left the last piece. and those who just reached hm for dinner don't get to eat it cuz the glutton WANTS IT TERRIBLY!!! GREEDY PIG!!!

shit.

and the stoopid comp so laggy. i don noe why. wan to die?! thn go ahead for all i care!!!

shit.

today is just NOT my day. woke up late. abt 30mins late for gems test. crap. and i only got to noe that thr's test yest NIGHT. whn thr's a 1 wk frm the last lesson, to which i didn't attend cuz thr's mbr test. crap rite?

and that is i asked. luckily i asked. if nt...come to class all BLUR.

*sigh*

today is just not my day. frm the sun rise to the sun set...and even NOW...i'm feeling really DAMN LOW. shit.

just shitty!!! CRAP.

*sigh*

i don noe lah.

wan to watch prison break but the tv is showing suriA NOW.

crap. and i'm the kind of person who doesn't like to watch halfway.

and ltr..inuyasha? nt watching. go breakers? want to watch. but like...right after i publish this...i hv no mood to do anything. i just wan to sleep. ltr tml wake up late again! and i nd to meet Liy to pass my calculator. she's having test.

haiz.

CRAP. SHIT. just SHIT!

no mood. no mood.

just hope tml the day's better. at least make me smile. please.

*sigh*

am i back to the depressing moments? i hope nt cuz i don't intend to experience that again.

please. i don wan to sulk anymore.

Thank You

just kinda got back frm vivo. *lol* if nt, i wld hv been typing this abt 30mins earlier but my sis in the toilet!!! sheesh! now feeling so fresh...=)

anyway...Lisha, Dad and me went to vivocity. 1st time for me, 2nd for them. it's huge lah! well, something like whn u go suntec city for the FIRST time. but thsi is even bigger. and it doesn't help that thr r MANY ppl who like to STROLL!!!

well, HARLOW!!! this is a shopping centre NOT a park. sheesh!!!

...

typical singaporeans. -_-"

anyway...yep. we reached thr abt 1+pm. i boarded the same north-east train as Lisha and Dad.

looks like my timing is gd eh. *raises an eyebrow*

anyway...we first got thr and walked for abt 10 mins AT LEAST just to get to the cinema ticketing. *lol* and we wre still BLUR abt wad to watch. whn Dad finally said"Flush Away". thank god lah it's nt grudge2 or that jap scary show. time call..i tink. or something like that. i tot Dad is those ADVENTUROUS type...*lol*

and THANK GOD they didn't choose casino royale. =) that REALLIE relieved me.

the 2pm show was like almost full. if we were to watch at that time, we wld be sitting at the 2nd front row. eewww...so we bought the 4.20pm.

and we ate first. again...go up and go down. *lol* and finally it's banquet! we, 3, ate yong tau foo. Dad ate tom yum or issit laksa flavour. me and Lisha ate the norm soup. but me and Dad chose mee (the yellow ones) while Lisha chose bee hoon. and again..we 3 didn't nt finish it. too full!!! esp the noodles. *lol*

so blah3x. thn we went to shops. yep. they having prom so went to browse for dresses. and we finally tried on one each. those norm that most wear wif jeans. something like a trenchcoat style (wif buttons!). me and Lisha that is. Dad chose a polka dot one. but didn't get to c Dad wear it. cuz she took it off whn we were supposed to show each other. *sigh*

oh! b4 that i tried on this HIGH-HEELS. *lol* stillettos. something like that. very high lah! it's nice but too tall. and the rice also NICE...i want to start wearing heels...it's like the in-thing nowadays but...nah! next time ba.

thn went to giant to buy snacks to smuggle in. *lol* i bought a lollipop and crunch. haven't touch my lolli yet. this fri i guess...this fri...got wad? touch on that ltr. =)

anyway...went to watch Flush Away. it's funny lah. and Dad ESPECIALLY loves it whn this certain scene came in. the lead's...haha!!! nvm. u guys watch it first.

well, the lead is hugh jackman. *swoons* muahaha...i started to like wolverine cuz of him. last time whn x-men is on cartoons only...i didn't like wolverine cuz he looks...arrogant. *lol*

anyway...the show is nice lah! cartoon? whr got not nice one? recommend to everyone!!!

fav char: the singing slugs. *LOL*

*winks*

thn ended abt 6pm. went hm. we took the north-east train to sengkang and thn took 161. and in the train...OMG!!!

i'm esp gonna be SEXIST-RACIST here. disgusting lah!!! *sigh* just keep the damn eyes to yourself!!! grr...

anyway...thn at the bustop and in the bus took photos. even in the theatre. *lol* and i'm getting the photos frm Lisha's butterfly site ltr. the hari raye ones also.

and this fri...we intending to watch again. nope. nt flush away lah. grudge 2. and i'm gonna bring my pillow, bolster, jacket, blanket...*lol*

Thank You

going vivo todae. ltr...well, Lisha and Dad r on the way. i'm waiting till 12.35pm like that. half an hr. they take 1 hr i take 30 mins. =)

still don noe wad to watch. wanna watch happy feet but it only starts showing tml. so it's either:

casino royale (ewww!!! i hate james bond!!!)
...

forget it.

hmm...i just hope they don choose that. (above) i wanna watch that jap scary show. just now me and Ira surfed cuz she also going vivo but after her guitar. hmm...

i tink i go now. =)

Thank You

yest went out for jln raye wif my sec friends. my last jln raye for the yr i guess hari raye ends next fri. anyway...nt many ppl. only...erm...6? i tink so. nvm. shall elaborate on this. =)

I was supposed to meet Lisha, Dad and Mai at the opp admiralty station bustop. but i was 3 mins late. erm.. i haven't cross whn the bus that Lisha and Dad were in, reached. so in the end they got off. and Mai...*lol* she got on the bus but was told to get off suddenly cuz i wasn't thr.

sry Mai. =(

anyway, Dad wasted her last 60 cents. and she insisted on me treating her. 60 cents for $6...excuse me?

thn i waited for them at the admiralty station while they crossed over since Dad had to top up. the 4 of us took the bus at the same stop. erm...i 4got what bus. i had train concession but nvm. sacrificed thn. in fact, the whole day we took buses. and i wasted 4 free mrt rides and close to $8 i tink.

anyway, we reached khatib mrt first. waited for Far and gang. well...we waited for 2 trains. and...

guess what?!!!

only 2 of them came-Far and Idhzwan. is that how to spell his name? *lol* nvm. he won't read this anyway. i tink so. nah.

anyway...so the 6 of us went to Yan's hse. open house. we were the first to arrive. her mum cooked nasi briyani, laksa and fried bee hoon. thn her poly friends came. only recognised one-Yani. i tink that's her name. anyway...thn her bf came. and his adik2x i tink. thn Lisha's bro, cousin and bro's friend came. they didn't follow. so the 6 of us went off to...erm...Hafiz's house. Hafiz 4/4. yep. my ex-pri schmate. blah3x. i had spiderman lesson wif his little bro. wakaka...

thn he followed us to...erm...Far's hse. her mum cooked beef steak and fried bee hoon. her mum's friendly. kept talking to us. and we watched...erm...that dance show. ermm..forgot the name. erm...abt this hip-hop guy and this contemporary girl. erm...the recent one lah. erm...shhh...of course it is...hehe. but didn't exactly watch the whole thing. watched beginning till the part whr the guy gave in and attanded ballet class. thn skipped to the final performance. =)

thn to Mai's hse. or issit Lisha's hse? erm..i tink it's Lisha's hse. yep. Lisha's hse. no one thr. her mum and little sis were downstairs at a neightbour's open hse party. and we watched this korean documentary on chn news asia. and the topic on goong came out. *lol* ooohhh...they also got watch! haha...

thn went to Mai's hse. her hse lotz of wood! nice...like..the arrangement and all. the lightings. but the rest also nice and simple. =) and here we watched bring it on 3. but b4 that, watched the last part of this Hindu show. and Dad was especially excited whn it came to the lyrics translation. she kept reciting it. and her fav quote..."perhaps it is love afterall" or something like that. and she kept saying it at any one time. sheesh!!! while Far frm the beginning kept burping and saying "What is the meaning of this?"something like that. or was it in malay? aiyah nvm lah!!! anyway, skipped most parts also. in fact we watched the final part only. *lol* Hafiz's last visit cuz he needs to work, and Karim's 1st visit after he got hm frm soccer. i tink.

thn to Dad's hse. haha! jumbo hse. 3+4 rms. sheesh! so rich!!! her sis so pretty le. well, mass comm grad..of course lah! and she bought the whole fam hps! cool!!! watched disney, nicklodien...erm..wadever the spelling is...and her little bro. still cute though he had cut his hair shorter. *lol*

thn to Su's hse. open hse. ate steamboat. we were like crapping lah! Karim wanted veggies and don noe wad else. and they disturbed Karim of being a goat. *lol* he was mumbling to himself!!! and Dad went "baa baa..."whenever he started talking. *lol*

sry Su for the kecohness! =)

thn last hse. Karim's. only his bro @ hm. afterwhich, his parents came back abt 20mins b4 we left. anyway, ate kway teow hongkong or hor fun. nice lah. but too bad. full liao frm Su's steamboat. *sigh*

and @ 11.45pm, Lisha's dad came to fetch us hm. she was persuading her mum b4 that, while waiting for the bus to Karim's hse. *lol* sent Far first, thn Mai and me-since out hse kinda near to each other wif me just needing to cross the road. thn either Dad or Idhzwan next.

and now my legs aching like hell!!! the high-heel lah! if nt, wld hv worn pumps or something. but i was wearing blue and my pumps r red. -_-" shd hv bought white or black afterall. sheesh! buying it soon lah!

hmm..so far it's nice. i prefer in small grps actually. but wtheck. but nice lah actually. bigger also nvm so long as i can stick to someone. *lol*

nd to wait for next yr i guess...=)

and hope this wed really can!!! *winks*

Wee-dad...Li*shaaa...

Thank You

yay! can hurray alrdy. wahaha...

tests was horrible. hmm...

MON (13/11)

it was the first paper. bmt. hmm..i skipped chap 3. so onlie studied 1 &2. and luckily...i got the format right. so yep. did it. though got blanks here and thr. but i felt it was straight-forward. =) felt relieve and little bit happy thr.

TUE (14/11)

2nd paper-econs. studied what the cher had provided us. the tips. and i skipped chap 6. cuz that chap onwards i was like GONE. didn't listen a THING during lectures. naughty, yea i noe. so blah3x. and to my surprise, i felt happy and much relieve once it was over. u noe y? cuz the paper was smoothly done. though got blanks again. but like...so...smooth. =) twice in a row that i felt happy and glad after tests cuz it was damn starightforward. but thn again...the last time during law paper, i felt that same way and i got a JUST-PASSED marks. so i shouldn't get too excited. =(

WED (15/11)

3rd paper-structure. crap. my moment aand after that was like...GONE. cuz i didn't get to touch that in details. so i'm hopping for the other 3 qns to pull me up. *sigh* again, the 3 qns was like...a breeze but not so much a breeze like the yest. =( but ok lah i guess.

THURS (16/11)

the nightmare began! why? cuz it was mbw. my centre-line that ive got was totally diff frm MOST of them. *sigh* and i totally lost my mood thr. the journey hm wif yanling, Xinyi and Joshua...i was keeping to myself. listening to my ipod. *sigh* i felt like everything is gone. my confidence nt thr anymore. but since whn i hv confidence? -_-"

FRI (17/11)

just now. HORRIBLE! u noe y? cuz i didn't touch chap 3. it was just a brief reading thru. and i only read thru chap 1 and 2 in the morn. omg. my worst paper!!! forget it. don wanna talk abt it.

so yep. that's all. and yest and todae, i slept once i got hm. so sleepy. *sigh* and teenage mag got goong's poster. and i just got it frm my sis. muahaha! our relationship is better these few wks. *lol* so yep. i tot she didn't want to give it to me cuz she also likes it. well, she likes whatever i like. -_-" so that really irritates me. well, in some way it's gd lah. but in some way, it's BAD. full stop. and that's one of the reason y i quarrel wif her. but so far so gd. and i hope it stays this way. i don't hv the strength to quarrel wif her again.

so...hmm...

oh ya! spekaing of goong, gonna cont to watch it. my dvd. though the tv just now...showed the most exciting part liao. haha! most exciting part? sounds like...erm...*lol* well, they patched up liao. so yea. tues is last epi. thn after that is this show with huge in it. chn 8 is chalice fairy...i like the song and mon is last epi. tiemu died! gosh! i mean...he died a few epi ago and i didn't get to watch it cuz i'm outside. but wth. thn on tue is this new show...the guys so weird! got this funny-looking bangs. *sigh* don noe wan watch huge or chn u.

hmm...cont wif audition. lvl 7 liao!!! =) and i'm getting the hang of it.

I CAN'T STOP SMILING.

Thank You

stupid blogger! wad issit that you want? just now got song, thn now don hv!!! crap!!! argh!!!

i'm not gonna bother myself with this till next sat, after my tests finish! nt gonna update i guess so. so don't bother coming here before 18th november.

*sigh*

Thank You

i did my mbw alrdy, though the one of the tut i don't noe the depth so i left it blank. -_-"

anyway...so far, all hws done cept for gems! GOSH! i told myself to do it todae or something. cuz that one nd to hand in only b4 thurs.

study? *lol* don say.

uploading songs. yep. i got like..the whole goong ost now. i tink so. shd be lah. and it's in my ipod le. =)

on tv, (i didn't watch!) it's the sad part liao. but on my dvd, i'm only st the part whr chaegyum was hiding in that closet since shin was like..stripping himself. *lol*

so...

i changed the skin. it's nice to me, cept for my taggy. looks TOO COLOURFUL!!! *lol* i just anyhow choose the colour. haha!!!

my stomach hurts. don noe y.

and next sat (18th), the sec sch gang gonna jln raye. i wanna go but like...haiz. c first lah!

and just now..i realised that maybe i'm not being treated like how i treat others. and that's a sad thing.

a very sad thing.

sheesh! tml nd to cut my nails cuz one of it is like...broken? erm...little bit so whenever it got stuck on something, it hurts. ok whatever it is. my stomach hurts. nope, nt da pian. like bloated. but i didn't eat ALOT! gastric i guess...

*sigh*

Thank You

though i've done my e-learning cept for mbw...the erm...tut...anyways...

I HAVE NOT START STUDYING!!!

crap.

Thank You

i MUST discipline myself. tests is coming next next wk. next wk (which is tml's wk) will be e-learning wk and also so-called hols. however...nd to study alrdy! crap! and i still haven start!

tml i nd to come @ 1pm for mbw. erm...to get back my mock test and also Winnie wants to go thru the whole steps again. cuz i'm weak mah. hmm...

so tml at 2pm. actually i was telling myself that i will come to sch to do e-learning. i don wan to do at night again! in the afternoon, my sis will hog the comp. sheesh! and i have NO RIGHT to push her away. and besides, usually i will tend to lose focus on what i'm suppose to do. and i don wan to be a nocturnal anymore. so yep.

maybe i start my e-learning on tues. or on wed! cuz wed my sis gonna go jln raye and she won't be at hm. we'll c on tues. tml i can't. cuz morn nd to go poly. yep. i'm sick. i've always been sick. just that maybe no one notice. nope. it's nt life-threatening. though i don noe wad it is. i keep shaking. frm my left hand to left leg. and now to head. nvm. so going doctor to c what is wrong with me!

thn after that, go to sch for that mbw thingy. by the time go hm at 4pm. *sigh* thn reach hm, gonna start studying abit. maybe start bmt. read up. since that's the first paper.

thn on tues, if i'm nt tired, go sch AGAIN to do e-learning. if nt, thn i guess..do at night or on wed. but thn rite! i heard my sis talked on the phone just now that her friends wanted to CHANGE AGAIN! *sigh* we'll c.

so i really nd to study! my econs terrible. my mbw..without referring, i'm just gonna write nothing thr. even whn refrring...still can't do. sheesh! and alot others lah. bs2, wad the hell is refrigerant. somehow, whn i jotted down notes during lecture and whn the cher revise back last fri, it somehow went wrong. sheesh!

and structures..i'm still struggling wif moments and after that.

and...

SIGH

so yea. and also got like hws. proj lah. and all craps!

anyway. it's set. tml after reach hm frm sch, study bmt. few chaps also nvm. as long study!!! i can't study last min anymore. in fact, this is LAST MIN!

nt gonna talk abt past events.

went to Ira's house on thurs. full-stop. nt gonna elaborate NOW. if nt, i'm nt gonna sleep.

next time ba...

so i stopped watching goong. cuz like no time. i'm playing auditions now. and i'm only lvl 6. nt gonna play it till tests ends i guess. or earliest is this coming sat. yep. but i hope nt! nt gonna log in anymore.

hmm...

i've decided to change my skin. but nt now. if nt, nt gonna sleep anytime soon! so the next tme i'm on THIS COMP! as in the hse comp! which is earliest this coming sat. and latest next next fri. *lol*

so yep.

hmm...but who knows, all this will just change! like always. ruzaina whr got keep her words want?! she talk only.

NATO!

gosh!

gonna sleep lah!

and...hehe.

Danial. Filzah. Mikhail. Natasha. -->sweet!

Thank You

*sigh* it's a bad thing to nt be able to read others' minds. it's tiring. it's sickening. it's annoying!!! u nd to 'predict' what that person is thinking. and no thanks to my bad judgement and paranoia...(erm is that the spelling?) like this happened recently...(it can be today, it can be yesterday, it can be last week, it can also mean last month!) and the way these ppl shows in their body language, it sucks. it just means...like...that's it. get out. crap. shit!

just shit lah! i hate this kind of ppl. i'm reffering to...i don tink that the people WILL READ this. cuz they don't. now y am i using 'they'? i don noe. cuz i don wan to type out 'he or she'. it's too long. so i just put 'they'. (it can be a he, it can a she. it can also be MANY!) crap.

ok. fine. nvm. i'd better cont doing the bmt. if nt, nv sleeps. wonder if Ira reads this. cuz...she...ALWAYS SACRIFICE HERSELF.

yep. that's her, Ira.

haiz...she like so good. so soft-hearted. haha! ok. she's gonna puke whn she reads this.

tml after sch going to Ira's hse for hari raya. yepyep. her house nice le. i mean, in her hp she got take pics and all. =)

all right. I'D BETTER CONT WITH BMT NOW!!!

Thank You